Day 31 - Who are you?

Who am I?? Well, If I start again after writing incessantly for a month, am sure most of you would like to kick me or WORSE, Delete my Facebook Profile *Shudders =P*. So I would like to say to know more about me, (Only if you really really wanna KNOW!) please go through my previous posts. I have described myself amply well.

TODAY, "Who am I", Am a PROUD INDIAN who BLEEDS BLUE BABY!

Finally, am giving all of you a break from my so called writing spree =P. I still can't belive, I made it upto Day 31. *Pats on the back*

Comments regarding all my posts are always WELCOME =D. Encourage me!!! :-)...

• Do you see a promising writer??, Let me know!!!
• Do you see myself improving on my vocabulary/ Scentence formation??, Let me Know!!!
• Bored Already??... Do NOT let me know!! =D

GO INDIA, The world cup Beckons!!! :)

Day 30 - Your first love

Animals, particularly Puppies! =D

Day 29 - In this past month, what have you learned?

I have learnt that, I need to be more responsible and independent in the upcoming years. I have life long commitments and keeping that in mind, i should focus and work accordingly! No major or shocking lessons learnt, but growing older ( There, I just said it =(( ....=P) , teaches you some peculiar lessons every day. Not to forget, I have learnt that am back in the ' Writing Game', even if you hate it! =D

Overall March has been an unusual month.

Disappointments, achievements, happiness, frustrations, regrets, all put together, shaken rigorously, and served with a PINCH of salt to taste!

That does not taste as bad as you think, still it leaves a bitter taste in your mouth, if at all you know, what I mean?!?! =P

Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Back then (July 2010)

Recent Past (Jan 2011)

Now if you see there is hardly 6 months difference between the two pictures, So no great difference!

Hmmm, how have I changed!!

• Well, I guess am more independent in financial desicions . M still broke at the end of the month :P , but have started thinking about future, tax savings schemes, investments blah blah :D

• I was so excited to get my first ATM card, First Salary around three years back! But now its got boring. Money brings in commitment and I wish I could stop growing up and CRY! =P

• Apart from that, I am trying to further myself academically by trying to study something. By next year am sure, I would be doing Masters!
• As of now no more of fun, random, spur of the moment events, am cautious *sighs* and plan stuff.
• Renewed some friendships which were due to childish tiffs :D
  

Basically to cut the long story short, I have become BORING! :-)

Day 27 - What you think about your friends?

My Friends are such a huge group of people, which I cannot define on a whole!

I have some very close friends, some distantly-close, some online i-haven't-met-ya-but-u-r-my-best-friend types and the list goes on, to end with people who I whine being associated with :P

On a whole, I guess my friends do not fit any particular category, they are just from all walks of life and "click" with me you know?

They can be loyal, eccentric, honest, cute, bubbly, weird, rude, snobbish etc etc but the point is if they are my friend, I would love them all the same!

Some have been sore disappointing too, who I would rather not say out aloud what I wish to do with em!!

All said and done, they are my friends so they are the BEST!!!

PS: I am extremely disappointed with, what I have written. At the same time, I am too lazy to re write it! Maybe later ;)

Day 26 - Something you crave for a lot?

Loosing weight. Period!

Day 25 - What I would find in your bag?

Such a personal question, and am asked to explain it? Atrociousness! :D

I warn you!, You would really NOT want to know :P

• 3 Wallets - Yes, you heard it right! :-D. One for my cards, One for loose change and another one even I dunno why am lugging it around =))
• Tissues
• Balm
• Deo
• Loose change everywhere (Apart from the wallet, you got it right! :D)
• Chewing Gum
• ATM Receipt SLIPS
• Passport Photographs
• Dad's ID card
• Sunglasses
• Earring's
• Chocolates ( Most often)
• Random receipts
• Mobile
• Mobile charger
• Mobile Headphones
• Keys
• Pens
• Hair clips
• Hair bands
• Comb

I am tired, this will do for now, Won't it? :P

Day 24 - Nicknames you have & why do you have them

Having a short name and a sweet personality, prevents people from naming me! :D

• Kannama/ Bahrain Queen - Okay don't laugh, but my dad used to be always too proud of me and used to call me endearingly with these names :-) .
  

Other than that, I dont remember anymore as there is no significant name which caught on!

• My mom calls me PraBBBHHHHAAA , Praaaaabha, PRABHAAA etc etc depending on her mood and my actions :P. i.e., each way of calling me is directly proportional to the amount of anger, love, frustration etc she has on me at that point of time! :P
  

• Around five years back, with the internet boom making its presence on me, I got a name or rather an Alter Ego! named SEN or Seno. This name is still prevelant amongst certain circles and people prefer this name and strangely, I respond to it as much as I respond to my name.

Day 23 - A letter to someone who hurt you?

Dear X,

I have written something way long back, which will make you cringe and dwarf with shame, if at all you get the chance to read it. But hey!, I forgot, you dont have a consiencse right?

I do want to tell you though, I forgive very easily, but sadly for you, I don't have it in me to FORGET ( Blame it on my memory :P, Just so you have something to blame on me...see I have helped you out even here!)

it will be too long and boring for my readers to read too, so here is an extract of it. I know you might not read it, but hopefully it reaches you :). Hopefully your snooping habits will land you here :D

I do feel cheated and betrayed,

But HEY, I blame only myself.

That ought to cool your FROZEN HEART!

You know what irks me even now?

The way you wear the ANGEL MASK!

The way you portray yourself to the world,

Of what a kind hearted soul you are??

WEDNESDAY, JULY 22, 2009

FYI : I have been hurt by a lot of people , like everyone else have. I am NORMAL after all and not some saviour who will forgive and make up!

But just so you know peeps, I don't give a damn!

Love,

Prabha

Coming up next "

Day 24 - Nicknames you have & why do you have them?"

A picture of something that makes you happy

Makes me Happy and Sad at the same time!

LOVE YOU BABY! :)

Coming up next " Day 23 - A letter to someone who hurt you? "

Day 21 - Bullet your whole day.

A typical week day! Except for the cooking which is random, others are true to the best of my knowledge! :D

• Snooze Alarm
• Snooze Alarm
• Snooze Alarm
• Mom says its 9:30, Jump out of bed, to realize it is actually 8:30 Am. Not bad :)
• Breakfast
• Rush to work
• Work
• Lunch
• Work
• Gym
• Cook (Pasta n Pizza :D)
• Dinner
• FB Time
• News, Mail, Surfing
• Phone - Yap Yap Yap!
• Read Book
• Sleep

Coming up next " A picture of something that makes you happy "

Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future?

Day 19 - Your earliest memory

Funny, I was talking to my friend about my earliest memory recently. I have absolute no remembrance of my childhoods days, till I was two and a half to three. I have vague flashes of memories from 3 to 5.

So I guess, My real memories start in Bahrain :)

1. I remember, going to school in a car, with few other kids, while my brother went to another school by a bus.

2.I remember the procession of people right outside my house. (People use to beat themselves with swords!. Muslim friends can you help me in identifying the festival?). I was too scared to go to school after this!

3. I remember liking a diamond shaped , green colored sweet, which my parents say was KAJU KATHILI.

4. I remember my Pink Panther doll.

5. I remember, i was embarassed by saying " I will EAT my milk and come" to my neighbours, and then refused to go back to their house, since the embrassement was too high for a kid of three years to have said EAT and not DRINK! :P

Coming up next " Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future?"

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have?

I am tempted to say like tamizh padam, " En vazhkayin kurikol, kanavu, latchiyam elame TR oda latest padatha pakanumnu dhan" :P (Lookie!!!! T Rajendran the dude, below picture. Courtesy: I searched for "t rajendran + handsome" in google images!)

But on a serious note, I have plans to start a business, someday!, dreams of achieving high on either professional or personal front ( see am being realistic!), and my goals are towards a positive a better future for me and the people around me!

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why?

I would really really want to have had switched my life with my Dad's on 26th November 2007!

Why? : Well, to understand what it feels, to know that you are dying, having young & immature children and knowing the pain of letting go despite more than your best efforts!

Why 26 Nov 2007: Well better me than him any day!

PS: For my concerned friends, if at all you bother to read this :P, I am not depressed, just stating what I think! So no worries, after all it is a tag. And I am not in a wonderland for my wishes to come true! :P

PPS: I have just realized that, I am unable to let it go! :( ...despite my best attempts to live with it, if not forget it, i am still holding on to it.

Desperate?

Maybe!!

Day 16 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

I dont want to talk about it! :P

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play?

1. Dil se - Dil se re

2. Bombay - Uyire Uyire

3. Endhiran - Boom Boom Robo da

4. May Matham - Madrasa suthi paka poren ( Never knew I had this one :P)

5. Punnagai Mannan - Enna Satham indha neram

6. Bharathiyaar Songs - Endhayum Thayum (Devotional)

7. Zeher - Woh Lamhe

8. Saroja - Kodana Kodi

9. Bharathiyaar Songs - Chinnan chiru kiliye (Devotional)

10. DDLJ - Mere khwabon mein

Non tamilian audience, kindly excuse. I have loaded mostly Tamil songs :P

Day 14 - A picture of you and your family

The four of US back then...



A decade later,

Day 13 - Your views on drugs, alcohol and religion

Since the topic is not co-related, i will sub divide it into "My views on Drugs", "My views on Alcohol", "My views on Religion". Here we go,

My views on Drugs:

To be completely honest, I still can't understand the concept. My only knowledge of it is from films, so I always think drugs means either you inject or smell some crap to get HIGH! But I have also seen the horrific pictures of its after effects. I can't understand why someone would do something like this to themselves. But all things said, I believe that the root cause of these problems is the Media for exaggerating all these things and the young minds get fascinated by drugs. At this tender age, they are rebellious and try to fight against anything good. And when they see all this exaggeration, they try to become one of the so called "COOL" people. Proper parental guidance can help them a long way. A friendly parent or any elderly member of the family need to talk to them and give them educational insights about the problems with law and health. Most importantly stronger measures is to be taken to BAN these stuff.

My views on Alcohol:

Whoever says " It's an office party! I need to drink or people won't accept in my official circle' should be hanged :P Come on, I don't say it is wrong, but the ways you justify it, plain Stinks!

It is an individual perception and there is no such thing as too much fun "only after alcohol". Life is beautiful there are OTHER ways to enjoy it too.

Drink, have fun, be safe and it is good to go. Anything in moderation is good.

My views on Religion:

Here comes the sore spot. Who is allowed to decide their religion? We are either born into it or we are manipulated into it ;-)

Do people really know, what their religion preaches? or do they follow it?

My view is every religion just brings some book of codes on how to lead life in a better way, How to be a good human being. But if every religious fanatic / or every person who follows a religion, really follows these books to the "T". Do you really think the world will be so unsafe?

Day 12 - Your favorite season and why.

Being from Chennai, we are blessed to have only one season through out the year - Summer!

Okay! to be realistic, our seasons range from mild summer to summer with occasional or surprising drizzle to summer, followed by hot summer, hotter summer and hottest summer. Throw in an occasional bout of rainfall here and there, we have described Chennai's seasons, most commonly referred in outside circles as Chennai's HEAT!

Since, am ignorant about the other season's due to my geographical location, I want to play safe and say the actual Summer in the month of MAY, may be my favorite season :-)

Why May? Well, I hardly cared about the other months during my early ages in life , cos come may and I get my birthday, thereby I can be the Princess. Not that I wasn't treated as a princess otherwise. But you get my point right?

Birthday in the holidays can be a boon and a bane. Boon nowadays, because I don't need to take leave from work to REST ( Not Enjoy, Rest dear folks! :P) Bane only because I couldn't wear a color dress and have a punishment/scolding free day at school :)

Anyway, May the summer days with the wonderful seasonal juicy fruits and vacations can never be compared to other boring months! :P ...Now as you see, am trying hard to find other good things about May, other than the remarkable month of me, a Princess being born :P, But I wont trouble you any further, expect to announce that on May 8th a fateful day in the year of 1985,(8-5-85 - Fancy number peeps Yay!) a legend was born. Hence the favoritism. Any cribbing's??

Day 11 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

My zodiac sign is Taurus - The Bull!

I don't have much belief in astrology in general, but i was fascinated by Linda Goodman. She has described ME so aptly!

Instead of writing down, my philosophy or way of thinking, am going to make you read Linda Goodman's version of me and let you be the judge.

Those who have all the patience in this world and most importantly Love me ( ;-) ), you can go through the above link, otherwise you can always read my brief extract from the above link, given below.

A Taurus female is a tall woman. Even if she measures under five feet, she can reach tall enough to meet almost any emergency life chooses to throw her way. In many ways, the Taurean female is the salt of the earth, a combination of most of the sterling qualities every male looks for and seldom finds. She may have a violent temper that would frighten a strong man into runing for the woods (or at least ducking under a table), but she won't go on a raging rampage without provocation. Ordinarily, if you don't torment her bond of human endurance, or if Fate doesn't hand her a really rough bunch of cards, she'll play the game of life freely, with cool, admirable calm. Her candor and basic honesty are undiluted with normal feminine tricks like tears. The Taurean girl has more moral and emotional courage than many a tough male, but she has enough confidence in her own sex to let you be the boss, if you want the job. If you don't fill it, she may grab control and run things herself, but she'd much rather have it the other way around. She seeks a real man. That's because she shows she's a real woman, and she's proud of it. To her, being a woman doesn't necessarily mean being an incorrigible flirt, a mental fluff ball or a mewing kitten who pretends to be weak to get her own way. It won't be long before you see she has a mind of her own, and it's quite strong enough not to have to resort to teasing to gain an objective.


PS: I would really recommend you to go through Linda Goodman's link. :-)

Day 10 - Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Well this one is interesting. Generally, am fixated with a single song at any particular phase of my life. This song changes periodically, but once i LOVE a song, I listen to it, when I am happy, sad, bored, mad etc etc etc.

Some of my recent and all time favorites are listed below,

1. Otha sollala - Aadukalam
2. Vellavi vechu tan veluthangala - Aadukalam
3. Rakamma - Siruthai
4. Munni Badnaam hui - Dabaang
5. Neela Vanam - manmadha anbu
6. Complicated - Avril
7. Taal se taal - Taal
8. Kwaja mere kwaja - Jodha Akbar ( I listen to this especially, if i feel stressed out and need to get into an trance! :P)
9. Kabhi Kabhie - Kabhi Kabhie
10. Poongatru - Mudal Mariyadhai
11. Chippi Irukudhu - Varumayin Neram Sivappu
12. Senthalam poovil - Mullum Malarum

Actually there is a song for ever mood, in Ilayaraja's Music. He is the ultimate musician and I love all songs of him, followed by A.R. Rehman of course ;-)

Day 09 - Something you’re proud of in the past few days.

I wrote a poem, honoring my mom for women's day and am very proud of it! *Self boasting helps, when others don't" (?) :P

So here we go!!

Well this is my dedication to the most wonderful women in my Life *Womens day Special Peeps*

God created an Angel,

to handle his favorite KID!

Superfluous, Benevolent,

Amiable at that!

To alleviate my fears,

To kindle my thoughts,

To lavish love on thy!

Aint me lucky?

You believed you were blessed,

when I landed on your arms,

But trust me,

There aint any soul luckier!

There aint any soul happier!

You cuddled, as I shrieked,

You hugged, as I shivered,

You comforted, as I rebelled,

But,

You crumbled, as I cried.

Is there a selfless soul as thy?

Is there any sacrifices left?

Is there anymore Patience to endure?

Is there words to describe my love?

Is there....

I love you, my dear friend

I love you, my dear confidant

I love you, my dear well wisher

I love you, my dear sister

I love you, my dear angel

I love you, my dear Mom!

Day 08 - Short term goals for this month and why?

Short term goals, as in work? :P

1. Well, now there are too many things happening in personal front. I would like to choose the "Loosing Weight" campaign as of now, because it has the highest weightage...erm, priority.

I am trying my best, lets see. :) Maybe am just destined to be fat forever! :-D.

Trying can't be that hard!! Can it??

2. Planning my Finances. Oops! Did I just say it aloud?? Does it mean, I ought to be careful?? Nay! It means I need to loose my credit card ;-)

3. Study Psychology. June, here I come!

4. Tomorrow can be included in short term plans right? Well then wish me luck! Reason will be revealed only if the venture is a success :-D...those in the know, kindly don't steal MY thunder :P

5. Write, Write and Write some more. I know some, Okay! MOST of you are already bored of my ramblings, but I sure aint! *mwahahha*

6. Read, more of career enhancing books than fictional novels :P

Lookie! I just have manged to successfully list my gibberish into 6 points. Way to go! :D

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

This is what I call Love!

A person who has the biggest impact on me - Parents! :)

Day 06 - Favorite super hero and why?

Eh??...Seriously Eh??

I don't have any super hero's. Maybe the idea is queer or maybe I am queer!

Let me make up somethings *Thinks hard*

Okay wait...A super Hero, I have always liked is "Shikari Shambu". There! :-D

To those who have trouble picturing him, here is a picture *Dreamy aint he? :P*

I am drawn back to the nostalgic feeling of a Tinke in my hand, and scrolling the pages to find Mr. Shambu's Adventures :-D . He and his wife have never disappointed me. :D ...They make a amazing couple.

Firstly the way he wins every single quest of his, is hilarious and cute :), not to forget the way he runs into trouble consistently, is just what makes him Super Hero material for me :D

But, Yeah! there has to be a 'But' isn't it ;-) ...To burst the bubble, am still confused, as to who would win this rat race...erm Super Hero Race. So my second nominee is and will always be "Tantri the Mantri" :-D

He is one Mega entertainer. His will power to succeed beyond the whatever-I-do-it-fails stories, and his attitude to keep and keep on trying *whadoyaknow* just makes him so appropriate to be a Super hero.

Now, seriously! How am I supposed to pick one? You tell me! :-(

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

This question got me thinking! I have been to a few places in the recent past, but decided to share the picture of the trip, I went with my family. It was truly amazing trip, with lots of rest, good food and not to forget family bonding! The cons included visiting 14 temples in a single day! :P

Anyway here is the picture for you to rejoice! :D . The picture take at Yercaud.

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn't have?

This one is gonna be as dumb as it gets!

But Hey!, I hate this disgusting habit of mine. To be honest I haven't even tried to control myself. It just happens :P

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends.

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends.


There aint no words!

There aint no images!

There aint no moments!

There aint no memories!

One of the happiest moment of my life, clicked just after she got married :-)

Pre - Women's day Special :)

I wrote this tiny acrostic poetry to celebrate women's day at work!

Winning smile that captivates,

On the first sight
Mysterious and alluding,
Energetic and endearing,
Nobel and Stronger than you ever know!

WOMEN – A Person who can contain, in her emotional strength and determination, the power to sustain and cherish!

Day 02 - The meaning behind your blog name.

Complexity Personified - The name is self explanatory! :-D

Since the name is not difficult to comprehend ,I would like to state the reason behind the name.

I started changing the blog layout, name, gadgets and all sometime around Feb 2008. That was a trying time for me in life and my feelings were all mixed up. I was complex even to myself. I did not know why I was doing certain things. I regret a few, cherish the others. But i guess depression leads to insanity :P . Temporary Insanity here ;-)

Around 2009 i started having a blogging frenzy, writing poetry and fiction (40 blog posts in a year!). The number of blogs in a month was directly proportional to how disturbed I was. But sad things aside, I will be changing the blog name to something more meaningful and cheerful now that I am moving on with my life.

Any suggestions folks??

PS: Coming up tomorrow "Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends."

Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

A recent picture of Moi!

Well the above picture is as recent as it gets. clicked on 26 Feb, 2011 (Saturday) when we all went out to a mall. I am just busy reading the menu, when my brother clicked it with his SLR.

You might be wondering why am blabbering about things, which hardly make sense to you. But Trust me, it does to me.

I read my own freakishly depressing blog, before taking up this tag. Am so glad that I have locked the blog from public view, but some memories are too good and create a smile on a dry day. My hope is that this tag will too, atleast 2 years from now :-)

15 interesting facts about Moi!

1. I read excessively. I read a minimum of 8 to 10 books a month. Maybe due to the quantity I loose out on the author / book name. The fact is I don't care to read the name / author as long as the book is interesting. :)
2. I have an impressive memory power, which am forever grateful to.
3. I always worry myself sick, if people close to me take time to respond (Includes my mom not picking up the call, when I call from work). I have the imagination of the worst kind.
4. I like to lead. People, Conversations, Projects. You Name it!
5. I am highly authoritative and obsessively controlling. (Just the closest few bare the brunt)
6. I chew on my fingernails and/or break my knuckles when am tensed.
7. I cannot for the life of me be idle. I need a book/ game or something to occupy me all the time.
8. My morale/ confidence can go from extremely low to overtly high in minutes. Sadly, it works vice versa too :P
9. I am very short tempered. But don't hold grudges.
10. I can forgive very easily.
11. I crave for security in my life.
12. I am super sensitive.
13. I never cry in front of people. (However close!)
14. I tell a lot of white lies.
15. I miss my dad more than I have ever admitted or expressed. I always feel life has been hugely unfair to me.