A desperate plea ! :P

Let me free, let me spread my wings
Let me fly high, let me fall deep;
Then gather me up, and show your care
Show me your love, like I never flew.
But gimme a chance to fly!

Let me talk, Let me ramble,
Let me till am exhausted, then
Lend me your shoulder to cry
Hug me, kiss me, soothe me
Tell me things will be fine.
Assure me, love me
For am lonely and scared
Confused and withering!

Teach me to talk, teach me to walk
Teach me all simple things
Confess your love as you do!
Make me feel lively, make me a kid again
Pamper me, for am all vulnerable;


Make me melt at your care,
Make me crave for more,
Keep showering unconditionally
I need the love, I need the care
For what you offer is not suffice
For all the hurts of the past!

Get me out of my shell, slowly
Talk to me, tell me how good I am
Tell me how worthy I am; as you,
Confess your love for eternity.


As I am in deep thoughts
Gazing through you, at my past
As the pain of the lost freezes me
Hold me, and sense the pain
The hurt of a broken soul,
Let the hands heal me,
For words cannot soothe the scars!

There is a long way to go
Promise to stay by me;
Promise to heal me;
Promise to love me forever
Promise to make me special!

And then I shall swear to love you
Until death does us apart!

Tagged by Apurva !! I love this one!

Dear Kumar,
I don't really know how to tell you this,Our affair is over. I think I realized it When I threw up in your sock drawer, At the mental hospital and I saw you Pour syrup on My salt-beef bucket. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand How awful you are. I'm returning Your love letters to me to you, but I'll keep My common sense as a memory. You should also know that I Love your sweet, sweet ass and Our friendship is ruined.

Love always,
Prabha




Here's how you do it..
TAG 10 PEOPLE OR MORE AND THEN....
Dear (person you spoke to recently,
I don't really know how to tell you this, (1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm surre you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12),
Name


1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your pants?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself


Tagged by Apurva. Love ya babes for this. it really lifted my spirits haha

I pass on this tag to all of you who are as crazy as me to love this tag !

Betrayal!

Love is but a misery,
Yet knowingly the heart ventured
Ready to strip the soul
Defenseless dedication and adoration
Etched in every nerve for you,
Yet you never seem to notice!

When I needed Protection,
When I craved for shelter,
When I wanted to disintegrate,
From myself and the world,
You promised hope, you promised love,
Of a future which mocks me now.
And a lonely lost woman was born.

She created a castle in her paradise island,
Where love conquers but never destroys,
The struggle, the pain, the hardship,
Seemed all worthy,
As I watched through the eyes of
The lonely and lost woman in the castle.

It shook me to see your negligence,
You never seemed interested enough to care,
You were in your own world,
Throwing bits and pieces once in a while
You took her for granted,
When all she wanted was YOU!

But did her hope extinguish?
It only forced her to live in dreams,
For it was less painful and cherishable
She continued to strive against the odds!

Till one fine day, you walked in,
And broke the castle, little knowing
That you broke the only resident
The lonely lost woman
Along with her castle and dreams!

As she looks with sad eyes,
Filled with tears and regret,
Her pride refuses to call out to you!!
She endures the suffering, as she
Is broken apart along with the castle.

Did you stop to care?
Did you ever realize , what you have done?
As she tried to mask her fears,
As she struggles to survive
She smiles for the world,
While sobbing deep inside her.
She laughs, she talks, she breathes
With an enormous effort
Fearing the fakeness creeping inside!
Why did you have to rip her apart?
And then turn away, like it never mattered?

Did she not deserve some Care?
Did here eyes not plead with you?
How could you be so rude?
How could you kill her?

As you happily march past her,
She sits and watches with a longing
That can never EVER bring her back.

Thanks for the Betrayal!

Dead Inside!

I am broken and lost!
I went on for years, without breaking apart
Belling my inward cowardice;
Fear of rejection, fear of failure
Made me mould my mask
Smoothening till perfection
A clone was born to taunt me;

Clone but well trained
Laughed when I cried inside
Soothed and consoled souls aplenty
While I am dying away inside
Creating an identity
While overshadowing mine!

Life seemed easier;
As people started preferring the clone
Over the shattered soul.
The mask tightened over myself
Burying me deeper

I cried out for release
I cried out for my soul
As days passed by
I became feeble and weak
My elastic limit stretched
I lay motionless, and incapable
As the clone was conquering

Now as love turns into misery,
The clone drifts far away. and
Amidst the rage of emotions
Tearing me apart, I try to
Peek a little at my dry life
Only to realize
Am dead inside!

A joyous hearts somersault!

A lonely phase, a lull in my heart,
Broken ties, severed relationships
Betrayal of mortals and immortals alike;
Hardening my shell, constricting me!

Finally a scorch of heat, a spring of joy;
On the hardest terrain; My heart.
A hope of a budding Friendship
Genuine and one in reality!
Makes me confused and ponder,
About the world I revolve around
The safe illusional Virtual bubble!
Can reality peek in? Amidst the coldness?

I let my heart go fonder,
Because of the striking similarities,
the paths we crossed were identical,
The pain of life’s tragedy faced? Miserable!
The sharing to lessen it? Memorable!
Similar thoughts, similar attitudes
From Arrogance to Atheism!

The Mind did not hear the warning bells
The bonding well reciprocated, yells my soul!
Till tragedy struck in a full blow,
Just as the hope swelled,
Turbulence of emotions engulfing me
Distraught, Despair, Betrayal! Yet again?
Unable to react, dumbfounded
Yet the silly heart yearns for the friendship!

As the fear overrides me, I am forced to face the reality,
Pushed into the corner, lonely and lost;
I hear myself shattering, as you see through me
Like we never shared, liked I never exist
The coldness in you, the indifference in you,
Makes my dreadful past surface
With all the pain n misery, eating me alive!

As I gather up myself, to face you yet again
I fear for the coldness, I fear for myself
As fear transforms to anticipation;
And excitement turns to reality,
Sighing at the way Life taunts,
I gather up my wits to face
Yet another cold mundane day
But something entraps my attention
Jerking me to reality, When am far lost in Illusion
The bitter realization of the lost friendship
My body shudders as I Give in my last attempt;
I smile, and I actually see you responding,
O dear god! Am I hallucinating?


The blame game, the anger, the frustration,
Was it really worth the pain?
As we fight, I grin and some more
For gaining the lost! As I ask myself,
Was this melodrama for realization?
Or a brief stint of my Pain dosage for the day?
We are still fighting, blaming and accusing,
My grin is sheepish and I just can’t stop!

Let the awkward pauses fade,
Lets act as if nothing went wrong,
Return me to my Safe Reality bubble
And for once its TRUE ,creating

Multitude of happy tides,
Numerous reasons to smile
Pure joy etched in my heart,
I am happy to be alive!
Because of you my dear Friend!

A new Start, a new Begining!

A new start, a new beginning;
Always enticing, always excites!
The wonder of the mystery,
Of what lies ahead, intrigues;
Contemplating the good, bad and the evil,
The optimist in me runs to the aid,
Pushing aside the peeping pessimism
Future days of the new beginning,
May unfold as memories
Either preferring to be locked deep inside,
Or brings a Smile to cherish,
Of the time well spent, the time relished.

As I leisurely march past,
The scurrying crowd,
My youth and vigor, Fails
To entrap the rush, the hustle
Of the day anticipated.

Nobody seems to drink in the beauty,
Of the early mist, shimmering Sun,
The twittering birds, the swaying leaves
The holy serenity is disrupted
By the swarming people in all directions.
For this is yet another beginning amidst aplenty!

As I see down leisurely, enjoying
My new beginning, my freedom,
I realize I need this time for me
I rejoice the feel of the paper and ink
Giving me the power of words
Inspiring me; eluding me;
I begin this day with the assurance
Of a decision well made
Tempting to reveal the new Start,

Of my first Bus Journey in Solitude.

111 Truths :: Self tagged!!

Tagged by SELF ! :-P
1. Last beverage? Tea. Yesterday morning at 10 :O :-D
2. Last phone call? Ram ( it almost always is...PS: my bro :D)
3. Last text message? From Vodofone(LOL) ...To : Eh... my colleague
4. Last song you listened to? Tere mere beech mein....ek duje keliye (M in love with it again for now!)
5. Last time you cried? Let me think ....:-?? No idea...WOW...arrr..Feb 25th my dads birthday :|

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice? Do you mean after the relationship is over? Nah, Never!
7. Been cheated on? Emotionally cheated yes. Else NO!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Been kissed by someone and regretted it :|
9. Lost someone special? Lost almost everyone i loved :| Esp my DAD ! :'(
10. Been depressed?The question should be "ever been out of depression?" :| Ouch these truths hurt :'(
11. Been drunk and threw up? too embarrassed but YES !! :-D

12.LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS
1. Black
2. Blue
3. Baby Pink
4. Violet

HAVE YOU:
13. Made new friends? Yeah, all the time!! :-D
14. Fallen out of love? Yes, but was one of the hardest things to do!and still unsuccessful !!
15. Laughed until you cried? I dont have anything better to do than Laugh!! :-D ...and "laughed till i cried" happened just last weekend, with my mom LOL *when we are on a Virtual matrimonial meet making fun of all the guys haha!* the bonding between mom and daughter <3
16. Met someone who changed you? I get inspired by the good in everyone around me. so yes!
17. Found out who your true friends were? Yes and the Truth was not very pleasant.
18. Found out someone was talking about you? I am so irresistible LOL that people do it all the time hehe. But ask me if i care ;-)
19. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? My ex is in my Friends list :P
20. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? 80% maybe, others I have know for at least 3 years though we have never met!
21. How many kids do you want to have? No idea! But would love Twins of any kind...identical Pleaseeeee... LOL
22. Do you have any pets? I love pets , mine is sitting in blue cross now and this question so sucks for the timing. Given a chance i would love to live with animals rather than human beings in my paradise island :) *starts dreaming*
23. Do you want to change your name? Err...why ?? *eh ...confused* but NO!
24. What did you do for your last birthday? Now this is a good question. I had a blast at office. First working budday Yayyy!! , was in a relationship back then, so had the kinda first long distance relationship budday ...that was weird LOL. but my colleagues made sure i have a blast and smeared cake all over me *smiles fondly* and then got gazillion calls from all over the globe hehe. Last but not the least , had a second budday cake with my brother and again smeared all over me, and was sitting like a pig in the middle of a park haha!
25. What time did you wake up today?I advice weak hearts not to read this :)) , but yeah i got up at 7 AM. SURPRISE dat too on a sunday LOL....damn work has changed my timings :'( hehe
26. What were you doing at midnight last night? Again Surprise...I was sleeping, Man can you believe it ? let alone you ,even I cant believe it . I blame WORK !! :'(
27. Name something you CANNOT wait for : Eh?? Well i gets whims and fantasies of what I want and at such times, i need them ASAP haha, it may be as simple as an icecream to the diamond pendant LOL
28. Last time you saw your father? :| ..I dunno how such a question can strike me so deep..i was having fun writing this :'( ...Nov 26, 2007 :|:| till 6:10 PM...and never will i see him again. I saw him alive till Nov 26, 2007 2 PM. :|:| shit shit ..sorry i got carried away :'(
29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Shut it down forever maybe? :|
30. Most visited webpage? Orkut, Gmail, Blogger, Raaga, Facebook, Yahoomail, and recently tamilmatrimony LOL

PERSONAL

31. What's your name? Prabha Rajagopalan
32. Nicknames? Prabha, Prabhu, Amu , kutty, Prabhs, SENO, sen, cindy, Lala and hell lot more ;-)
33. Relationship Status? SINGLE !! *AM very keen on that one haha ;-) *
34. Zodiac sign? Taurus - The bull!
35. Male or female or transgendered? Female.
36. Elementary school? Some Lakes(Sorry forgot the name :P) (LOL) California, USA.
37. High School? Balalok, Chennai.
38. Colleges? Vels srinivasa , Chennai.
39. Hair color? Black.
40. Long or short? Short.
41. Height? 5'5, pretty average :'( sad I know :'( hehe
42. Do you have a crush on someone? No ..again Sad LOL !! :P
43: Ever been in love? Yes.
44. Piercings?Only ears. I am shit scared of an injection let alone a piercing to have another :P
45. Tattoos? I love them, but heard it hurts so NO :P
46. Righty or lefty? Righty

FIRSTS :
47. First surgery? So far NONE!
48. First piercing? First and last only ears and i was one year old ! :-D people take advantage even of one year old dese days...man what has the world come to LOL!
49. First best friends? Joy and ALice in elementary school. Then Jyothsna and malar in my primary education * i have no idea where these people are right now but its nice to remember*
50. First sport you joined: Gymnastics :-D ...and yeah i was pretty good at it * fond memories*
51. First pet? a colored chicken. can u believe that ?? HAHA...and yeah it was a Florescent PINK!!
52. First vacation? I have no clue! Maybe bahrain ?? *i was 3 years old, my memory cant get any better :P) or my Native place, cos when i was one, they took me there or am told!
53. First concert? I din know about concerts till very late. But my brothers Mirudangam arengetram LOL ( kinda like the first time you play a musical instrument in front of a crowd after learning it well enough to play in a stage of course!)
54. First crush: A random guy who was married *shit embarrassing even now* . At 12, i was worried that he is married :)
Miscellaneous:
55. Last date? I have never officially been on a date :| so maybe in 2003 December :|:|:|
56. If in a relationship, who proposed to whom? It was kinda mutual. Now not in one!
57. Present best friends? Krupa!!
58. Last vacation? A holy trip to Kalahasthi LOL. Did i forget to mention, am an atheist ?? :P
59. Given a chance to settle anywhere on earth, where would you go? In a Private island! Like i said before, jus me and my pets will do :)
60. Biggest fear? Death :|
61. Last fist fight: I hit my EX 2 weeks back i guess LOL :P
62. Craziest thing you ever did in your life? A lot, some cherishable, some regrettable, but everything worth it to spice up my life :-D
63. Hidden talents? M multi talented LOL....I have an extremely good memory power when am in the right state of mind.
64. The best moments of life? Everyday, Till i was 10 years old!
65. Things you'd like to change about yourself? My craziness, My anger, My fears, My disappointments, My failures, My life, this list can be never ending haha
66. Party animal or couch potato? Couch potato to the core!
67. How do you like to spend weekends? Sleeping, reading books, writing my heart out. and once in a while going out somewhere , right now i want to hit the beach ALONE!
68. Hobbies? Reading, writing, music, blogging, talking ,surfing the net, doing mehandhi, inventing crazy stories inside my mind, laughing (yeah all r my hobbies even if u dont think so:P) haha!
69. Latest movie you watched? Seven pounds...was sad but I liked it !
70. If your girlfriend/boyfriend cheated on you, what would you do? I will give him a second chance. Life is all about making mistakes!
71. The most embarrassing and the most proud moment of your life? Embarrassing- I was in this flight Loo and a guy opened the door. Shit was it embarrassing dammit ( PS: i was very decent)!! Proud- the way I handled my dad's death and the trying time before it after being the pampered princess for 21 years !

RIGHT NOW:
72. Eating? Nope
73. Drinking? Nope, but have to have coffee dammit.*screams MUMMMY COFFEEE :P*
74. I'm about to? go to the beach maybe!
75. Listening to? Allu Allu (Tamil song :P)
76. Waiting for? a lot of things. too many to mention here :P

YOUR FUTURE :
77. Want kids? Yes, i would love to have TWINS! ;-)
78. Want to get married? Not in the near future(though my stars are apparently not in favor of that:P) but hell yeah!
79. Careers in mind? How about a home maker? LOL ...I wanna be a Psychiatrist ! :|

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
80. Lips or eyes? Eyes...tells more about the person!
81. Hugs or kisses? A warm Hug any day !
82. Shorter or taller? Taller
83. Older or Younger? Def'ly Older...no immature kiddish boys for me anymore please !!:P
84. Romantic or spontaneous? Romantic all the way!
85. Nice stomach or nice arms? Eh...never thought about this, but I guess arms!!
86. Sensitive or loud? Either Sensitive or I will show you the way out LOL :P
87. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship leading to a future !!
88. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble maker !!

HAVE YOU EVER :
89. Kissed a stranger? ??!!?!?!??
90. Lost glasses/contacts? I have never worn glasses or lenses!
91. Sex on first date? Hell no!
92. Broken someone's heart? I guess yes! but never intentionally !
93. Had your own heart broken? Yes and it sucks !
94. Been arrested? No LOL. but yeah once i went to the police station at 2:00 AM(midnight hehe) cos i was lost during a religious overnight something(it is like going around a huge mountain at midnight and there were millions of people). I and my friend ending up eating all the biscuits, puffed rice and juice from the police men till my mom came to collect us haha!
95. Turned someone down? Yeah!
96. Cried when someone died? :| Dont wanna talk about it !
97. Liked a friend that is a boy? Yeah! But was just a crush that lasted 2 weeks LOL :P

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
98. Yourself? Yes, but recently not too much!
99. Miracles? No way!
100. Love at first sight? No. Then its all about looks. we are talking about LOVE here people, you need to know the person sheesh! :P
101. Heaven? No.
102. Santa Clause? Would like to believe ;-)
103. Kiss on the first date? A sweet peck on the cheek - yeah, but a lustful one NO! :P
104. Angels? I wish LOL.
105. God? - Not in the least ANYMORE!
106. Devils - I am the devil mwahahah!! :P

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
107. Is there one person you want to be with right now? I dont want anyone. am sick of relationships right now!
108. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No. And i never will.Am too good in that way alone :P. For the love of god, i love my bloody ex even now when i can venture into greener pastures LOL
109. Wanted to kill someone ever? - Yeah, I still do: Myself :P
110. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? - LOL NO, NEVER...there is a lot of fish in the sea after all :P
111. Posting this as 111 Truths? Yes. everything is truthful, i can swear by a bible LOL!



I pass on this tag to anyone who are as bored as me in Life lol :P. and yeah i added 11 more ;-)

My first Blog Award !!

My first Blog award !! Yay!!

You may think am fussing like i have won an oscar? then you are DAMN right =))

I would like to say that, I want to thank my parents, teachers, friends online included:) , colleagues, BOss, and every single person who have directly or indirectly helped me in getting this award :)) LOL!!

Tons of thanks and kisses to Annie ! I have no clue why you gave it to me though :P

What need i say abt My Guardian Angel??? Ur the bestest!!! she in someone who shoots from the mouth, words coming straight from the heart!!! :)

And thanks you apurva for my kinda second award too. Man am i Happy or what hehe!!

I want to dedicate this award to

Nabila - This girl can give anyone a complex when she starts to pen down her poems . You can find it out yourself click here

Ashrita - This girl started blogging very recently and am so confused, why the hell couldn't she have started way back. You are too good. Keep going! Click here to explore!

Anu - My best mate, and an amazing writer when the mood strikes her. She expresses herself very well. Knowing her a lot better , i know how brutally honest her poems/ posts are. A word of caution is advised before entering this highly sensible blog by clicking here

Apurva aka Crazy freak - The little one, who is so chwwet. Dont know much about her, but I like the way she writes and cares for everyone. Your guy is one Lucky DUDE :) Click here, you know you want to ;-)

Gargi - This is a surprise package. She writes so well and about so many issues. I love the way you present your thoughts. Must read CLick here ASAP!

Annie - I give it back to her also, cos she is also one of the most amazing bloggers i have seen so far. and a doubly amazing person with a charming personality! Click here for a good read!

Emotions Turbulence !!

Recently I have been experiencing a turbulence of emotions at frequent intervals. That explains the outrageous number of poems I have been writing. Today i took a break from poetry which are always related to any human emotion like Hate, sadness, happiness etc etc and for the first time wrote about a Place I love.


As I see you, Oh! Mighty one,
I realize with a longing,
in an amateur poetess's heart,
Words can only do Injustice!

I bow down to your esteemed presence,
as the sense of tranquility prevails
capturing me into a trance.

Your tides are so fierce ,
Yet when you hit the shores,
there is a humbleness in your sacrifice
for the selfish mortal's pleasure.

As i see you moving
back and forth with every bounce..
I see your sacrifice
reading joy even in the faces
of the most arrogant sapiens !

As the silent observer in me,
hunts the faces of all ages..

I see the children scattered around,
Unafraid and Shrieking
in the highest of decibels
entering to discover,
the Vastness in you!

The lovebirds seem undisturbed,
In every nook and corner
chirping within themselves
in the lowest of decibels!
enjoying the bonding in solitude
letting the eyes do all talking
and seeking heavenly comfort
in the lovers arms, I realize
words fade near the mighty you!

I can also see a few of the
withered ones,
not by grace,
not by heart,
not in the least by charm,
But by the sheer age!
I can see their eyes twinkling
as they enjoy the breeze!


And last but not the least
I see a few unlikely souls
like me inhaling the serenity
which you are ever ready to give.

Come what may!
You are a source of
unadulterated pleasure!
whose generosity
is over showered
on every passer by!

Now as the boats move further away,
towards the unknown horizon,
I begin to wet my feet
just for the sheer endurance,
of the soft kisses
you bestow upon me..
I can see you smiling,
I can see you mocking,

Oh! Mighty OCEAN ,
You are forever a mystery!

I am on a roll or what :-P

Hey guys, I am on a roll with this so called poetry phase LOL. I guess my poetry is somewhat closer to the real meaning of Poetry by now :-D. I know I self proclaim my writing as poetry but that's not why I am posting this.

So the other day I was talking to a friend in Yahoo and he said "BRB 10 mins." . .....As everyone knows an ideal mind is a devils workshop, my ideal mind became a Poets workshop LOL. by the time, he came back , i penned this. And like all my poems, this is also not edited . Straight from the heart. :)

And yeah! I am crazy, impulsive and all crappy hehe.

Again a Dedication to one of my Friends AKA advance Birthday Gift hehe


Did I ever stop to tell you?
How good you make me feel?
How happy you make me?
Its about time honey!!

I never dreamed of befriending
A soul I barely knew
When I was amidst Self destruction
Breaking away from myself!

Your Flirting caused me to smile and
Avoid the turmoil shattering me
Your friendliness gave me a new hope
To explore the horizons never dreamt

Think what you may of me
But trust is what I have in you
Your words are soothing
Your actions are comforting
I rose up to the challenge
When I found a hand to hold on!

It was you my dearest,
Who brought me to the shores,
When I was waddling neck deep
In the hues of Blues!!

I found a friend in you
I found happiness in thy heart
I may not have reciprocated
The love you have shared
But when the clock strikes Panic
I shall float to your support
Lean on me sweetheart
There is nothing to fret
Lets sail on together in bliss!
Amidst the mighty hues of blues!!

A simple budday wish from my heart to yours!!

A brother so dear
Is hard to find!
Amidst chaos and strangers
I found a soul so naïve
Hard to resist
Harder to Understand

We found each other by fate
We became closer by choice
And here we are
Siblings for eternity!
We may not be bonded by Blood,
But we share a bond deeper
Misunderstood by aplenty
Misjudged by a few
And envied by many!

You have been a constant pool of strength
Actively involved
In the roller coaster
I call my LIFE!
You are bound to fret
When you see my lows!
You fear not for thy
As your presence gives me strength
To make up for all I have lost

Times spent with you
Are cherished forever
You brought back
The tide of happiness
In my ever lonely sad life
The naggings, the dumbness
Every single thing is worth remembrance!

You are my punching bag
When am frustrated!
You are my security blanket
When am scared
You are my best friend
When all I want is to get high
You are my brother
To protect me as I get higher
You are my everything
When I have nothing!

Your Generosity of Love;
Showered upon me is mighty high
Pure and unadulterated
Yet the appreciation is null!

I aint Grateful
I aint thankful
I praise the almighty
For bridging into my life
Such a wonderful soul!

Words don’t show my love
My actions are far contrary
Believe me now
On this beautiful day
An amazing person was born
Who I can never cease to Love
On this day
Here is my token of love
For being the ray of hope
For being my cute little brother
With all my heart I praise you
And wish you a very happy birthday
And blessing of more to come!

Rainbow !!

Why an Rainbow eh ? Might be one of the questions your mind must be thinking, when you are reading this. Welll...I realized two things, a couple of weeks back,
1) I have a blog for like almost three years , but did I ever think about WRITING , when it was and is one of my passions? Why did I waste so much time, when I could have written so much and by now I would have become an Average Blogger (Not being modest, I know how I write . and yeah I am a self critic, but just to make me better :P)
2) Most of my posts are SAD. I don't mean to say writing about sad things is bad. But Why not something Vibrant and cheerful? Can I not make such stuff?? I know I sure as hell can, that too when I have another BLOG devoted just for my cribbing LOL. I sure can make this a Happier one right.

And now coming back to the question in your mind, which I haven't answered so far :P, I am writing about Rainbows to Answer both my above said Questions.

If you have been closely following my blogs, Maybe you missed this , I am suddenly tagging all my posts :P ...yes this was to Inspire me to write more and more. Still not clear enough right?

Well I had told myself two months back, that I will motivate myself to write more and in the end I will declare it also in the blog to inspire me more :P. So the first Theme / Topic I could come up with was RAINBOW !!

The colors in the blog are labels to my posts though not completely appropriate , I just tried to infuse it into my blog somehow to make me motivated LOL !!

The colors are as follows ...

VIBGYOR

V - Violet - Goody Bye HOUSE !!

I - Indigo - Valentines day :: 2009!!

B - Blue - Feeling Blue...

G - Green - A small token of Love for my Best friend who is getting married!

Y - Yellow - Happy Women's day ! :)


O - Orange - Men - You cannot live with them, You cannot live without them!

R - Red - Blood is thicker than water?

Grey - shattered :'(


Yeah so the Colors of the Rainbow, can make anyone from SIX to SIXTY smile and be happy. SO this post of mine which is co incidentally on HOLI the festival of colors is a dedication to how beautiful life Really is! I know i added the Grey color to show that life may not always be all cheerful and bright , but one Grey cloud does not make you not to want to see and experience the RAINBOW right?

I want each one of you reading my blog to realize how beautiful your life is , and if at all its a lil gloomy with the Grey clouds, just let the clouds pass away, because thats when you can really see the rainbow. So try fining the colors of your life nah?? All I wish I can do by this post is make you guys smile at the small pleasures you are thinking of which might have brightened and colored your life one day or the other

So here is it :: Cheers to a beautiful Life ahead and not to forget the topic colorful :P

And yeah happy Holi people !!

And Here is another round of cheers for me being so creative and motivating myself * pats self on d bak :D* and for many more themes and for all the stupid and bright idea to flow out of my head to keep you guys entertained! :)

Happy Women's day ! :)

On this special day dedicated to women, I would first of all like to wish all the amazing women out there a very HAPPY WOMAN'S DAY! :)

I have always liked this picture, And I think this picture is fit to each and every women out there!

...because that is how selfless women are !! :)


PROUD TO BE A WOMAN!!

Men - You cannot live with them, You cannot live without them!

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

What is that you are doing to me?
What is that you have made me into?
Tomboy is what I have been called,
Not girly, Not manly;
But I Melt at your smiles
and cry a river when you hurt me!

Never felt such a whirlwind of emotions before!
Never felt emotions could last just for minutes,
Never felt happiness can turn into sadness,
Never Vice versa!

You make me laugh aloud
You make me cry deep!
You are my life line,
I ache when you are far away!
I ache to feel your touch,
I ache to hear you talk,
I ache all over!

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"


I have been watching my phone for hours,
for the beep which fills my heart with joy,
Yet you never call!
I am busy in a meeting,
your call blinds me to the obvious!
and makes me run to the loo
clutching my phone
Just to hear you speak!

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"



I am all ready for our date,
Planned what to wear ,
a week before
Planned where to go,
a day before.
Planned what to talk,
an hour ago.
Planned a farewell kiss
a minute back.
I am all blushes
a second back.

As i walk in like a virginal bride,
pink cheeks flushing all the way,
I can see quite a bit of stares,
I see a little more heads turn
But my heart is full of LOve
for the one who should long be here
As seconds turn to minutes,
and minutes turn to hours
My cheeks are flushed yet again
not in the least by shyness
but in the range of anger
Yet again,
I can see quite a bit of stares,
I see a little more heads turn
I stomp off into the roads
carrying my mighty rage
only to see you hurrying in
My heart wavers
Why cant I just Hate you
Why do i Have to love you even more
Seeing your Sorry Face?

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"
.....

To be continued ....[:d]