Dad I Love You!!

I had written this poem , a week before ma dad passed away and haven't posted it..now i thot i cud post it , this is d 3rd poem, i have written in ma life :)




DAD I LOVE YOU!


When I was a kid..
Yu held my hand,
and showed me the meaning of love..!

When I was 10 ..
Yu took me to the park ,
and showed me the meaning of fun..!

When I was in school .
Yu made me read ..
And showed me the meaning of knowledge..!

When I was in my teens…
Yu were reluctant to let me go,
And showed me how to enjoy my life in a harmless way..!

When I was in college..
Yu let me free,
And showed me the world outside..!

When I was 20..
Yu were not happy with my ways in many ways
But you showed me how important it was to let me go when I am older.

When I am 21
I realize how special you are
But cruel fate seems to be teaching me to let you go ..:(

Now am 22
And have realized how special your life was to me
All my life I can not get a dad better than you..!

You gave me everything I needed
At all stages of my life,
Love , materialistic things
More than you could
But fate has made me realize about YOU only now


You gave me life ;
and it kills me to see yours at stake...

You made me walk
Now it kills me to see that you can’t

You made me sleep
And it kills me to see that you can’t

You were , are and will be everything to me
But I feel numb with pain when I see you so helpless

I pray all the gods above
To give me back my precious DAD

I cant ask for anything more precious EVER !!

Marriages through E-Matrimony!!

When I Look at my blog Posting Page, All i see is Drafts which had at one time been waiting to be published but the Laziness of this Writer has made them sit there forever . So i decided that if i take time to write a blog, i will make sure i finish it. And by boldly saying this I know , first of all I have to finish this one :| :P at least by the end of the day. Today priyankas scrap has made me realize i have neglected not one but both of my blogs. I have finished writing up some crap for that one. But this one, would have to use my Creativity (Hopefully I have it).

Well right now one of my friends parents have started looking for a guy for her. And i will explain to you the process they used with the maximum information I have. I know not everyone's marriage is finalized this way. But yet a lot of people might agree with me on this one ;-)

First parents come to the girl/Guy, keep asking her/him "its time for you to get married beta". The first time the children shrug it off, then once the parents become more and more persistent, the children after making up all excuses they can think of, finally accept and say " yeah go ahead". These are the words which any Mom or Dad needs to hear and the Mom tells the daughter , "you don't worry , only if u like the guy, You need to marry him." or vice versa (SInce they r happy that their children did not fall into the web of LOve ;-) )

All done, Guy/Girl is relieved that the Nagging period is over and goes to work. The parent as soon as talking to their children Log into Bharathmatrimony.com , Shaadi.com, Jeevansathi.com etc etc. They create an Online profile for their children . When did this trend become so popular? Not long back ,when i was in 10th or 11th grade my parents used to be talking about my cousins marriage. there all the horoscopes were hand picked from highly trusted people who would be ready to give a Highly recommended testimonial about the Guy/ Girl. once that was settled, the parents would exchange horoscopes and the procedure would move on from there. I ain't complaining here . But when majority of the people still think that chatting and online acquaintance is to be doubted, how can this trend become so popular.How can someone accept a proposal from someone named M1366592 ??? Maybe I am a die hard romantic but this E- matrimony thing does not fit my Bill at all. I believe in falling in Love and all romantic, mushy mushy crap! even while am saying this that millions of hopeful parents maybe including mine *Gulp* are filling out profiles or looking for M344512 and M5681134 to decide the perfect choice for their children!

Call me traditional, but even as time changes, I would not like to get married to M341289!!! I prefer a real person with a name even if it is an arranged marriage. Well my friend who i was referring to earlier and who gave me a topic for this blog was not so lucky. Her parents created a profile the day she said Yes! and the third day they got a match and she has met this M23456 who has a name now, but unfortunately she is not seeing any sparks flying!!!

Who knows what I will land up in future. with the trend creating popularity and making things easier, maybe our destined choices might be a 7 digit code waiting for us at CCD or barista and make polite conversation (as it happened with my frend) and be happy that his/her parents choice of the 7 digit code was indeed good.

PS: am not against the sites which do this, but against the Whole concept!


So for all of you reading this blog, i hope that You fall for a real person than a M453671 !! Romantic fools like me are advised to be cautious :P....:)


and well my knight in shinning Armour has turned out to be a Looser in aluminum foil, but if we sort out things ,he may become the knight in shining Armour again after all LOL :d!

Cheers to all the people to have found their Mr. Right from these E matrimony sites!!

Men and Women !~~! 8-} 8-}

Well my last post is very sad I know And i have not read it after the fiasco in ma office . So i thought how about something good to write in this highly neglected blog.:)


And i am also officially announcing that Sue aka Suefa aka watver u call her , has resigned from this blog and is no longer entitled to use this blog :P =))

Well I was thinking what can i write ...and then i decided that i have always been interested in the mails where men and women try to outwit each other . I myself have a lot of experience here with one particular friend of mine. we both are gr8 looser's at the end :P, but those mails gives us a sadistic pleasure of irritating and degrading the other . b/w did i forget to mention we are best friends???=))

anyway i decided to compile some of these dumb things to again prove that my words has a bigger audience :P

I hope the fairer sex enjoys it and the not so fairer sex =P takes it with a pinch of salt :D as none of it is my words ;-)
so here we go....

Men are like.......

.....Placemats.
They only show up when there's food on the table.

.....Mascara.
They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

.....Government bonds.
They take so long to mature.

.....Copiers.
You need them for reproduction, but that's about it.

.....Curling irons.
They're always hot, and they're always in your hair.

.....Mini skirts.
If you're not careful, they'll creep up your legs.

.....Handguns.
Keep one around long enough, and you're going to want to shoot it.


Relationships:


* When a relationship ends, a woman will cry and pour her heart out to her girlfriends, and she will write a poem titled "All Men Are Idiots". Then she will get on with her life.
* A man has a little more trouble letting go. Six months after the break-up, at 3:00 a.m. on a Saturday night, he will call and say, "I just wanted to let you know you ruined my life, and I’ll never forgive you, and I hate you, and you’re a total floozy. But I want you to know there’s always a chance for us".


Maturity:


* Women mature much faster than men. Most 17-year-old females can function as adults.
* Most 17-year-old males are still trading baseball cards and giving each other wedgies after gym class. This is why high school romances rarely work.

Groceries:


* A woman makes a list of things she needs and then goes to the store and buys these things.
* A man waits till the only items left in his fridge are half a lemon and something turning green. Then he goes grocery shopping. He buys everything that looks good. By the time a man reaches the checkout counter, his cart is packed tighter that the Clampett’s car on Beverly Hillbillies. Of course, this will not stop him from going to the 10-items-or-less lane.


Directions:


* If a woman is out driving and she finds herself in unfamiliar surroundings, she will stop at a gas station and ask for directions.
* Men consider this to be a sign of weakness. Men will never stop and ask for directions. Men will drive in a circle for hours, all the while saying things like, "Looks like I’ve found a new way to get there", and, "I know I’m in the neighborhood. I recognize that White Hen store".


Admitting Mistakes:


* Women will sometimes admit making a mistake.
* The last man who admitted that he was wrong was Gen. George Custer.


Offspring:


* Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and soccer games and romances and best friends and favorite foods and secret fears and hopes and dreams.
* A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

Laundry:


* Women do laundry every couple of days.
* A man will wear every article of clothing he owns, including his surgical pants that were hip about eight years ago, before he will do the laundry. When he is finally out of clothes, he will wear a dirty sweatshirt inside out, rent a U-Haul and take his mountain of clothes to the laundromat. Men always expect to meet beautiful women at the laundromat. This is a myth.

Weddings:


* When reminiscing about weddings, women talk about "the ceremony".
* Men talk about "the bachelor party".


A lot of guys think the larger a woman's breasts are, the less intelligent she is. I don't think it works like that. I think it's the opposite. I think the larger a woman's breasts are, the less intelligent the men become. ~Anita Wise

“There are easier things in life than trying to find a nice guy...like nailing jelly to a tree for example”

“They keep saying the right person will come along, I think mine got hit by a truck.”

“Sure God created man before woman, but then again you always make a rough draft before creating the final masterpiece.”

Why do men chase women they have no intention of marrying? The same urge that makes dogs chase cars they have no intention of driving.

Give a man a free hand and he'll run it all over you. ~Mae West

If they can put one man on the moon why can't they put them all there?

If men can run the world, why can't they stop wearing neckties? How intelligent is it to start the day by tying a little noose around your neck?


And yeah this blog is dedicated to "G" ^:)^

2007 - D year I turned into an Adult!

Well it's been really long since i have posted ...more than one year !!

I decided to write something and update this blog ...but don't have any topic in my mind . I have started a blog to record my daily happenings ...u can find that blog here http://senoinhyd.blogspot.com

But what about this one ?? ..Let me write about my life in 2007 !!

2007 truly turned out to be the worst year in my life ...I Guess there were very few ups and hell lot of downs .But 2007 has made me learn too many things too fast .By the end of 2007 i was made to realize that I am not a kid anymore and I can never be "DADDY"S LITTLE GIRL " anymore :|

The first half of 2007 was kind of okay ...I was making all plans to do my MS ...and preparing for GRE and stuff ....little did I know that fate was going to rudely interrupt my plans for my life FOREVER!

My Most awaited day was my Parents 25th Wedding Anniversary on JULY 08 ...It was going to be a very special day for all of us in the family. But Appa's health started to deteriorate , in a very unexpected and sudden way . He lost his appetite , and did not look good . I and my Dad both are adamant about not going to a doctor , so he protested a lot and kept postponing his trips to the doctor . July 08 came and he was hardly able to eat 1 cup of rice , when we went to celebrate .

So things started getting bad ...and we slowly but steadily forced him to a doctor and the doctor wanted to take a biopsy ...me being the jerk i was ...did not realize the seriousness of the situation and kept fighting with my Dad for this and that . Till date or rather till i die i am going to feel bad about it .Then September 05 Teachers day for all of you but mine I grew up to be an adult ...There came the biopsy report and it clearly stated adeno carcinoma grade III ...well i was puzzled too what the hell was adeno carcinoma ? It turned out to be the Third stage of Stomach cancer ... It came as a rude shock to me . I went to collect the report ...I was shocked ...I could not go home , could not face my dad ? what am i supposed to do now ? I cried all the way to my house and then pretended to have a brave face and entered my house ... I told my dad that it was cancer but very early stages to make him feel brave (when did this change happen ? How come I am trying to protect him rather than vice versa ? ) Have i really grown up ? But this was just the smallest initial blow ..the next week i went to Adayar cancer Institute and there they refused to operate him saying he had only 2 months to Live ...Our family went crazy ...Jus 2 months My parents celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary and the doctors say he has just 2 more months to live ? 60 days ? really ?

The worst thing you can face in life is slowly seeing the person you love die in front of your eyes , My dad who was everything to me , who made my life easier for me ..crumbled down to pieces ...he was no more the person i Knew ...More than us he was trying to accept the fact that he was going to die ? why would some oner have to have such a cruel fate ? My dad of all people does not deserve it ...Damn all the gods ...They don't deserve the respect people give them ...at least I am sure i won't respect any god ever .. My belief has been shattered !

And the worst is yet to be over ...I saw his last breath and he died in my lap :|
with 2 months of blood vomit ..we all knew the ed is coming but not s tragically ...till date i have nightmares and i have the death scene repeating all over itself. It is not enough that he has to die but he has to die a tragic death ?

And then I realized even if I don't want to I have to become an adult ....I can never recover over his death but writing about it makes me cry and release the buried emotions ...so I have written this blog to get some peace ....I moved away from chennai as chennai brings awful memories nowadays but in hyd i feel lonely ...maybe my life is always meant to be a miserable one (?)


APpa I miss you terribly and love u more than u have ever thot..! I miss sharing good things with u and i miss u so much ...i have turned into a diff person ...I don't like to Live life anymore ...But Sadly I have grown up w/o u seeing it ! I LOVE U !

My second attempt at poetry ...dedicated to my special frend...!!!

I found a friend in u,
when i needed one so badly.
I left all my past behind,
in d joy of getting a true frend!

U r d one who lends me an ear
in times of need,
and corrects me when im wrong.
U r d one who made me feel myself again,
when i thot i had lost myself
deep in d past.
U r d one who bought a smile to my face,
which is thr whenever u r arnd.

U made me feel good,
U made me realise i aint so bad afterall,
U r d one who shared all d secrets with me
made me feel spl
and talked to me no matter wat u r doing.

All d days we spoke
I felt lively and gay,
but now i feel sumthing hollow...

We may have never met...
but still d distance makes me ache.
missing d times we used to spend,
keeps telling me everyday sumthing isnt rite
and that is YoU!!!

U r missing now..
so near yet so far
missing u
missing d fites with u
missing d sharing with u
missing d frend in u
missing d teacher in u
missing d dad in u
missing d time spent with u

Hoping to get back to d same old times
and bring back my smile
Frend i need u and i miss u!!!

wherever you go your network follows u...:P

The caption seems familiar doesn’t it?? But no am not going to talk about hutch.....not exactly. But these mobile services have so many catchy lines...yet do we really get the coverage anywhere?? Leave about others...am using hutch and quite satisfied with it, but I have a friend, let’s name that person as Mr.X. He/she is one of the subscribers of the hutch network and I don’t think his/her hutch dog is faithful to him/her [-x..........:P

Let me jus point out some of the features of the specialty in his/her hutch network........:D


1) You can never reach him/her when the person is at home...only when he /she are outside you can reach the person.

2) When you receive a call from that person and your line gets disconnected and you try again.....you can’t reach him/her Whoa! In hardly few seconds the network gets jammed or what??

3) When you receive a message from that person, he/she ought to have the network to send you a message right, but when you reply, you get the delivery message after a minimum of 10 hrs...

4) You try to call this person when he/she is outside ...yet again you get either a engaged tone or not reachable message.

5) You want to contact during any case of emergency ....sorry you don’t have the network.

6)He/she wants to contact you ....there he/she gets the network to contact you.....=))

7)And last but not the least the phone is never switched off ..........:-j

Some special value added features =))

1) You call this person and the call gets disconnected and voila u get a call back in a few seconds , so you really need not waste your money trying to call this person....all calls are free....:D

2) If at all you hear an engaged tone from this number ...please don’t waste your time for the next 2-3 hours because it will be engaged for 2 more hours as call waiting has been removed purposely ......:P

3) You want any sort of help from him/her ...you just have to spill it out and its done , no matter who you are....=))

How I wish, I had a magical network like this....which allows me to contact anyone only when I want to , else am not reachable...and not be disturbed by any other unwanted caller =))



Note: This is a fictional work and any characters having any resemblances to any real person is not intentional.

My most memorable trip...\:/d\:d/

My trip to Delhi was my dream vacation….not because I liked Delhi so much, in fact I hardly visited any tourist spots in Delhi. Yet the people I met there have made a deep impact on me. Who did I meet, my friends, my relatives, childhood friends??? No I met my online friends :D , My friends from ORKUT. Well to be honest about it, I never thought I would make online friends let alone meet them. I have known these people just for a couple of months ….an yet the fun I had with them can’t be expressed in words. To make the long story short let me just tell you guys what I did instead of going on nd on about my friends :P

December 7^th :

I am in Delhi staying with my cousins and I have promised to meet my online sister manshi around 1 PM …and yeah! I changed the timings a lot because I had to be dropped off by my cousin at a place called ashram. I have just spoken to this girl for 6 months, have seen pictures and shared secrets,yet I was so anxious, how will she be in real, am I going to meet the same girl or will she be a total stranger??? Lot of thoughts in my head ….and I had promised her I would stay with her for four days too. so was really confused and when I met her I was like whoaaaaaaa…….she is so tiny (just my first impression ) is she elder to me?? She came forward and hugged me, then she told me the plans for the day, that I had to meet suefa , poorva the same day. I was like what???? I have my bags with me and I have come like a beggar :O :P…yet I had to go =((……so I followed her like mary’s little lamb and we reached a place called CP . there we called up poorva and met up at PIZZA HUT . I was happy to see that manshi was the same cute big sister and there I see two more sweethearts poorva and suefa and we start talking like we have been friends for years and not months and as if we have met each other daily , there was no awkwardness at all , we got along so well like a house on fire =)) we started talking talking….and poorva called up rachit so rachit came straight from his college too ….we could not sit in the pizza hut for a long time in the fear of being thrown out :P , so we moved from the pizza hut and were just roaming the streets of Delhi and talking with each other ….soon we realized we had to take pictures to make the people around us jealous =)) so we had a photo session for about one hour in the streets …..we had so much fun taking pictures and calling up total strangers to take our pictures….and surprise pooorva’s parent’s allowed her for the night stay too…\:d/\:d/ . we were so tired after all the fun and from the continuous laughing session too :P ,So suefa and rachit left : (( but me poorva and manshi went straight to manshis place . as soon as I entered her room …….me being the net addict went to the system while manshi and poorva went to get the dinner :P and then you guys cant imagine how much fun we had , it was a total girls night out and we took a lot of snaps like we were totally crazy……we talked , laughed , ate , gossiped etc etc…D we didn’t feel like we missed suefa because she was with us in the phone all the time =)) and I slept of as I was talking……..:P

December 8^th:

I have stayed with my online friends without any problems…now I became very comfortable too. Today we had no big plans, poorva had to leave now, so we got up early morning around 9 AM and left manshi’s home, after poorva left manshi took me to another market , I had started enjoying the new place a lot , I tried a lot of local food in the market and we started shopping \:d/\:d/ we spent like hours in shopping :P, I ate cotton candy too :D…. and then we got a call to meet sehran. so we left the market loaded with shopping bags and met sehran , he was also the same guy I had spoken to , none of them had an artificial personality like I had expected :P and we spoke with him for some time and had to leave for manshis place again. We had to reach early so we left and were so tired by the time we went to her place, I just went and fell on the bed immediately :P …we had reached early , but we had to go and have our dinner ….so after taking rest for sometime , we went to some mall and we had our dinner , there I met manshis best friend komal .he was friendly even though he didn’t know me at all …:D

It was freezing cold in the streets of Delhi :-ss :D and we returned after our dinner , we had our share of sisters talk in the nights , as we were busy roaming around in the morning and then what ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz…..:P


December 9^th:

Yet another day over and today we slept a lot after roaming around like crazy for two days , today our plans included shopping yeah! ….again and meeting up shalini \:d/ …so I was excited for both…:D we left home a little late in the morning and went to CP again. I was so hungry that I didn’t wait for shalini to arrive and started eating………:P ….shalini came inside and was like seno??? I was like yeah…:D and we hugged each other and started talking …manshi had to go out for a while …..and we both were just talking away to glory…=)) shalini was very cool….i loved talking with her and yeah we had to have a photo session with shalini too….:P and we took a lot of pictures again ……shlini kept clicling my pictures in various poses =)) ….and did I forget to mention all the days I was treated like a princess…..:D…then shalu invited me over to her place for chloe bature for the next day =p~=p~ and she left …: ) …..we left for shopping again …=)) and by the end of the day we had loads of shopping bags again…:p ,manshi was so sweet to help me with all the shopping and most important carrying all thoem home…:D….but this day ..we were so worn out….we just went out for dinner and when we were back both of us hit the sack immediately……..:D


December 10^th:

Yeah my last day at manshis place =((…..we had enjoyed so much in these three days , its really hard to say bye…: ( . I got up and packed my things and started getting ready….manshi woke up and helped me with my packing ….we werent going anywhere today. She just had to drop me off at ashram for shalini to pick me up. We didn’t talk much today , I guess it was too painful for both of us to talk on this day …….we just had the common talk nothing special , both of us knew parting was hard. it was just three days with her …yet it was like my life’s most memorable three days ….i still miss her =((

So we left her place and she dropped me at ashram where shalini took me to her home

In shalini’s home they had prepared the menu consulting my friends:O=)) I wasn’t there for a long time , but they really made me feel like a celebrity :D …her mom was so sweet with me and she prepared so much for me to eat =)) …next I met her little sister parul too .she is damn cute and soft spoken unlike shalini :P….we ate and then chatted for a while and again I logged in…:p to check my orkut scraps and then I got a call from my cousin , so I had to leave ….but not before stuffing me with loads of ice cream =))…..her sister kept taking pictures till the lift door was closed :o :D….and then I left to my cousins place but still spoke with everyone on the phone….:D

SPECIAL DEDICATIONS TO THE PEOPLE I MET:

Manshi : she is just the perfect elder sister anyone can ask for , she bared with me for three whole days =)) ….. and she is far more better when you meet her . I miss her a lot ……but say what I got a real sister for keeps and am happy for that ….and next time I have promised her I would land directly in her home=)) she is like the perfect example for beauty and brains :P

Suefa : Ahhhhhh!! Here comes the turn for my crazy twin ….we didn’t get to spend a long time together ….because she had to go for a wedding ….she is a lot of fun to be with. She is crazy I know that ….but not too much like me……:P. but loved every minute talking to her.

Poorva: Dark chocolate babe …:P…she is like a teddy bear, who you would love to hug and talk with……..we had great fun on our night out …..Some of the pictures came out weird…:P but yet love ya loads >:d<

Rachit: He is definitely a sweetheart .he is just a very simple and cute guy, who would never accept me as hi sister : ( …:P …so innocent and pure at heart , and made me feel very comfortable .The Perfect Gentleman…b-)

Sehran: The song composer …:P .yeah! he has compoased a song just dedicated to me and he was the one who took pains to scrap me and force me to meet him =)). it was great to meet an upcoming music director …:D…his songs rawkkk!!

Shalini : She is like a bottle of honey …:P . so sweet…she invited me to her home, took pains to prepare a menu even for me ….seriously no one has made me feel so special. Thanks a lot babes .love ya soooooooo much :D