Tribute to....Ahhh MYSELF ;-)

You think you know me?
Too bad Honey, I HAVE CHANGED FOR BETTER!
You think I believe that you care for me?
Too bad Honey, ASK IF I CARE!
You think I still Love you?
Too bad Honey, THINK AGAIN!

Yet, am indebted and grateful to you,
YES! For dumping me, for insulting me,
For you have shown me to LOVE myself!

I was astounded as to why,
I was so hung up on YOU!
The cold realization dawned up on me,
Late but better than NEVER!

I can blame it only on my sheer stupidity,
I was craving and starved for LOVE,
I never Loved myself back then!!!!
I was too much in Love with a selfish person,
Who couldn’t give me ONE ounce of LOVE
When my whole world revolved around you!!

I do feel cheated and betrayed,
But HEY, I blame only myself.
That ought to cool your FROZEN HEART!

You know what irks me even now?
The way you wear the ANGEL MASK!
The way you portray yourself to the world,
Of what a kind hearted soul you are??
Nay! Try your luck with some other chick!
For I have moved way far!

I did not ask for gifts, outings!
All I asked was to be LOVED BACK!
And DUHHH it took me half a decade,
To know what you really wanted.

I hardly remember the good times,
Was there just a handful?
And I almost gave up my life for you?
Sheesh what a pity!

I declare now, My LOVE is long lost.
My LOVE has failed, but not ME!
So THANK YOU for letting me GO!

The Proposal...

As she lays confused about the conflicting emotions,
She takes her phone, clutching on to it,
As if her life depends on the Picture she sees
She starts kissing the phone, unable to reach beyond,
A far away expression mixed with longing etched on her face!
For it is HIM, who is the reason for her happiness!

She is torn by the war raging on her mind.
Too attached to her parents, to go against them
Unable to forget the proposal
Not once, not twice, HE did it again and again.

HE knows, she knows, the end is nearing,
Neither can they believe, nor accept the path of their destiny
Is it sheer stupidity or the love blinding them?
Is there a difference? She asks herself softly.
Only to hear herself crying inside.

Amidst the happiness, there is sadness
Sadness cos both know the Proposal aint enough
Sadness cos she hurts for him and he for her
Sadness cos she is deeply in Love
Sadness cos she said NO!

Apology to my loved ones!

Pain says give me more!
Heart never learns; a gazillion mistakes;
The story of my life!

As I gaze deep into myself
All I can see are the flaws and some more,
The realization brings in another painful stroke
Of the days bygone, by numerous fights
With friends and foes alike ;
Am I really fit enough to go on?

All I do is give back pain
From the people who shower their love
What a worthless life I lead?
Totally ashamed and embarrassed
To realize my true self!

Life will go on, but the mistakes haunt!
I realize with a coldness in my heart
Apologies are for people who learn
But do I ?

With the physical pain taunting my existence
Of the organ corrupted
I feel bad about the numerous times
I tried to give up on my life!
Resulting in sheer physical pain!
Who do I apologize to?
Myself for being the biggest idiot?

The people for whom I could have died for
Are long gone, leaving me with the pain;
Now I am scared to accept the physical flaw!

Was it something wrong with me all along?
I cry a river inside! Knowing the answer
But never having the guts to accept it
Coward is what I am today!

This is for the people who love me
For my flaws, for the child inside me
A million apologies for the hurt and pain
Caused by this reckless mind!
Even if I am not with you
Remember that I always loved you!


I have no clue why am apologizing for! I am just a little disturbed and wrote crap ! :|

ACROSTIC POETRY :)

Kindling the deepest passions in me,
Untangling me from my miseries,
My beloved Sweetheart;
Alluring my fears, comforting me,
Ready to be with me forever and ever!
I am spellbound by the affection,
Lovingly over showered on me,
Oh! Am I high or is it your love?
Viewing the future, through your eyes,
Eternity seems seconds away!
You are the one for me, my dearest!
Or life seams as bleak as the past,
U are my everything!

This is just a start LOL. Appreciate the effort people ;-) I plan to write a better one soon, but will do on the same topic so that you can play the critic hehe..

A desperate plea ! :P

Let me free, let me spread my wings
Let me fly high, let me fall deep;
Then gather me up, and show your care
Show me your love, like I never flew.
But gimme a chance to fly!

Let me talk, Let me ramble,
Let me till am exhausted, then
Lend me your shoulder to cry
Hug me, kiss me, soothe me
Tell me things will be fine.
Assure me, love me
For am lonely and scared
Confused and withering!

Teach me to talk, teach me to walk
Teach me all simple things
Confess your love as you do!
Make me feel lively, make me a kid again
Pamper me, for am all vulnerable;


Make me melt at your care,
Make me crave for more,
Keep showering unconditionally
I need the love, I need the care
For what you offer is not suffice
For all the hurts of the past!

Get me out of my shell, slowly
Talk to me, tell me how good I am
Tell me how worthy I am; as you,
Confess your love for eternity.


As I am in deep thoughts
Gazing through you, at my past
As the pain of the lost freezes me
Hold me, and sense the pain
The hurt of a broken soul,
Let the hands heal me,
For words cannot soothe the scars!

There is a long way to go
Promise to stay by me;
Promise to heal me;
Promise to love me forever
Promise to make me special!

And then I shall swear to love you
Until death does us apart!

Betrayal!

Love is but a misery,
Yet knowingly the heart ventured
Ready to strip the soul
Defenseless dedication and adoration
Etched in every nerve for you,
Yet you never seem to notice!

When I needed Protection,
When I craved for shelter,
When I wanted to disintegrate,
From myself and the world,
You promised hope, you promised love,
Of a future which mocks me now.
And a lonely lost woman was born.

She created a castle in her paradise island,
Where love conquers but never destroys,
The struggle, the pain, the hardship,
Seemed all worthy,
As I watched through the eyes of
The lonely and lost woman in the castle.

It shook me to see your negligence,
You never seemed interested enough to care,
You were in your own world,
Throwing bits and pieces once in a while
You took her for granted,
When all she wanted was YOU!

But did her hope extinguish?
It only forced her to live in dreams,
For it was less painful and cherishable
She continued to strive against the odds!

Till one fine day, you walked in,
And broke the castle, little knowing
That you broke the only resident
The lonely lost woman
Along with her castle and dreams!

As she looks with sad eyes,
Filled with tears and regret,
Her pride refuses to call out to you!!
She endures the suffering, as she
Is broken apart along with the castle.

Did you stop to care?
Did you ever realize , what you have done?
As she tried to mask her fears,
As she struggles to survive
She smiles for the world,
While sobbing deep inside her.
She laughs, she talks, she breathes
With an enormous effort
Fearing the fakeness creeping inside!
Why did you have to rip her apart?
And then turn away, like it never mattered?

Did she not deserve some Care?
Did here eyes not plead with you?
How could you be so rude?
How could you kill her?

As you happily march past her,
She sits and watches with a longing
That can never EVER bring her back.

Thanks for the Betrayal!

Dead Inside!

I am broken and lost!
I went on for years, without breaking apart
Belling my inward cowardice;
Fear of rejection, fear of failure
Made me mould my mask
Smoothening till perfection
A clone was born to taunt me;

Clone but well trained
Laughed when I cried inside
Soothed and consoled souls aplenty
While I am dying away inside
Creating an identity
While overshadowing mine!

Life seemed easier;
As people started preferring the clone
Over the shattered soul.
The mask tightened over myself
Burying me deeper

I cried out for release
I cried out for my soul
As days passed by
I became feeble and weak
My elastic limit stretched
I lay motionless, and incapable
As the clone was conquering

Now as love turns into misery,
The clone drifts far away. and
Amidst the rage of emotions
Tearing me apart, I try to
Peek a little at my dry life
Only to realize
Am dead inside!

A joyous hearts somersault!

A lonely phase, a lull in my heart,
Broken ties, severed relationships
Betrayal of mortals and immortals alike;
Hardening my shell, constricting me!

Finally a scorch of heat, a spring of joy;
On the hardest terrain; My heart.
A hope of a budding Friendship
Genuine and one in reality!
Makes me confused and ponder,
About the world I revolve around
The safe illusional Virtual bubble!
Can reality peek in? Amidst the coldness?

I let my heart go fonder,
Because of the striking similarities,
the paths we crossed were identical,
The pain of life’s tragedy faced? Miserable!
The sharing to lessen it? Memorable!
Similar thoughts, similar attitudes
From Arrogance to Atheism!

The Mind did not hear the warning bells
The bonding well reciprocated, yells my soul!
Till tragedy struck in a full blow,
Just as the hope swelled,
Turbulence of emotions engulfing me
Distraught, Despair, Betrayal! Yet again?
Unable to react, dumbfounded
Yet the silly heart yearns for the friendship!

As the fear overrides me, I am forced to face the reality,
Pushed into the corner, lonely and lost;
I hear myself shattering, as you see through me
Like we never shared, liked I never exist
The coldness in you, the indifference in you,
Makes my dreadful past surface
With all the pain n misery, eating me alive!

As I gather up myself, to face you yet again
I fear for the coldness, I fear for myself
As fear transforms to anticipation;
And excitement turns to reality,
Sighing at the way Life taunts,
I gather up my wits to face
Yet another cold mundane day
But something entraps my attention
Jerking me to reality, When am far lost in Illusion
The bitter realization of the lost friendship
My body shudders as I Give in my last attempt;
I smile, and I actually see you responding,
O dear god! Am I hallucinating?


The blame game, the anger, the frustration,
Was it really worth the pain?
As we fight, I grin and some more
For gaining the lost! As I ask myself,
Was this melodrama for realization?
Or a brief stint of my Pain dosage for the day?
We are still fighting, blaming and accusing,
My grin is sheepish and I just can’t stop!

Let the awkward pauses fade,
Lets act as if nothing went wrong,
Return me to my Safe Reality bubble
And for once its TRUE ,creating

Multitude of happy tides,
Numerous reasons to smile
Pure joy etched in my heart,
I am happy to be alive!
Because of you my dear Friend!

A new Start, a new Begining!

A new start, a new beginning;
Always enticing, always excites!
The wonder of the mystery,
Of what lies ahead, intrigues;
Contemplating the good, bad and the evil,
The optimist in me runs to the aid,
Pushing aside the peeping pessimism
Future days of the new beginning,
May unfold as memories
Either preferring to be locked deep inside,
Or brings a Smile to cherish,
Of the time well spent, the time relished.

As I leisurely march past,
The scurrying crowd,
My youth and vigor, Fails
To entrap the rush, the hustle
Of the day anticipated.

Nobody seems to drink in the beauty,
Of the early mist, shimmering Sun,
The twittering birds, the swaying leaves
The holy serenity is disrupted
By the swarming people in all directions.
For this is yet another beginning amidst aplenty!

As I see down leisurely, enjoying
My new beginning, my freedom,
I realize I need this time for me
I rejoice the feel of the paper and ink
Giving me the power of words
Inspiring me; eluding me;
I begin this day with the assurance
Of a decision well made
Tempting to reveal the new Start,

Of my first Bus Journey in Solitude.

Emotions Turbulence !!

Recently I have been experiencing a turbulence of emotions at frequent intervals. That explains the outrageous number of poems I have been writing. Today i took a break from poetry which are always related to any human emotion like Hate, sadness, happiness etc etc and for the first time wrote about a Place I love.


As I see you, Oh! Mighty one,
I realize with a longing,
in an amateur poetess's heart,
Words can only do Injustice!

I bow down to your esteemed presence,
as the sense of tranquility prevails
capturing me into a trance.

Your tides are so fierce ,
Yet when you hit the shores,
there is a humbleness in your sacrifice
for the selfish mortal's pleasure.

As i see you moving
back and forth with every bounce..
I see your sacrifice
reading joy even in the faces
of the most arrogant sapiens !

As the silent observer in me,
hunts the faces of all ages..

I see the children scattered around,
Unafraid and Shrieking
in the highest of decibels
entering to discover,
the Vastness in you!

The lovebirds seem undisturbed,
In every nook and corner
chirping within themselves
in the lowest of decibels!
enjoying the bonding in solitude
letting the eyes do all talking
and seeking heavenly comfort
in the lovers arms, I realize
words fade near the mighty you!

I can also see a few of the
withered ones,
not by grace,
not by heart,
not in the least by charm,
But by the sheer age!
I can see their eyes twinkling
as they enjoy the breeze!


And last but not the least
I see a few unlikely souls
like me inhaling the serenity
which you are ever ready to give.

Come what may!
You are a source of
unadulterated pleasure!
whose generosity
is over showered
on every passer by!

Now as the boats move further away,
towards the unknown horizon,
I begin to wet my feet
just for the sheer endurance,
of the soft kisses
you bestow upon me..
I can see you smiling,
I can see you mocking,

Oh! Mighty OCEAN ,
You are forever a mystery!

I am on a roll or what :-P

Hey guys, I am on a roll with this so called poetry phase LOL. I guess my poetry is somewhat closer to the real meaning of Poetry by now :-D. I know I self proclaim my writing as poetry but that's not why I am posting this.

So the other day I was talking to a friend in Yahoo and he said "BRB 10 mins." . .....As everyone knows an ideal mind is a devils workshop, my ideal mind became a Poets workshop LOL. by the time, he came back , i penned this. And like all my poems, this is also not edited . Straight from the heart. :)

And yeah! I am crazy, impulsive and all crappy hehe.

Again a Dedication to one of my Friends AKA advance Birthday Gift hehe


Did I ever stop to tell you?
How good you make me feel?
How happy you make me?
Its about time honey!!

I never dreamed of befriending
A soul I barely knew
When I was amidst Self destruction
Breaking away from myself!

Your Flirting caused me to smile and
Avoid the turmoil shattering me
Your friendliness gave me a new hope
To explore the horizons never dreamt

Think what you may of me
But trust is what I have in you
Your words are soothing
Your actions are comforting
I rose up to the challenge
When I found a hand to hold on!

It was you my dearest,
Who brought me to the shores,
When I was waddling neck deep
In the hues of Blues!!

I found a friend in you
I found happiness in thy heart
I may not have reciprocated
The love you have shared
But when the clock strikes Panic
I shall float to your support
Lean on me sweetheart
There is nothing to fret
Lets sail on together in bliss!
Amidst the mighty hues of blues!!

A simple budday wish from my heart to yours!!

A brother so dear
Is hard to find!
Amidst chaos and strangers
I found a soul so naïve
Hard to resist
Harder to Understand

We found each other by fate
We became closer by choice
And here we are
Siblings for eternity!
We may not be bonded by Blood,
But we share a bond deeper
Misunderstood by aplenty
Misjudged by a few
And envied by many!

You have been a constant pool of strength
Actively involved
In the roller coaster
I call my LIFE!
You are bound to fret
When you see my lows!
You fear not for thy
As your presence gives me strength
To make up for all I have lost

Times spent with you
Are cherished forever
You brought back
The tide of happiness
In my ever lonely sad life
The naggings, the dumbness
Every single thing is worth remembrance!

You are my punching bag
When am frustrated!
You are my security blanket
When am scared
You are my best friend
When all I want is to get high
You are my brother
To protect me as I get higher
You are my everything
When I have nothing!

Your Generosity of Love;
Showered upon me is mighty high
Pure and unadulterated
Yet the appreciation is null!

I aint Grateful
I aint thankful
I praise the almighty
For bridging into my life
Such a wonderful soul!

Words don’t show my love
My actions are far contrary
Believe me now
On this beautiful day
An amazing person was born
Who I can never cease to Love
On this day
Here is my token of love
For being the ray of hope
For being my cute little brother
With all my heart I praise you
And wish you a very happy birthday
And blessing of more to come!

Men - You cannot live with them, You cannot live without them!

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

What is that you are doing to me?
What is that you have made me into?
Tomboy is what I have been called,
Not girly, Not manly;
But I Melt at your smiles
and cry a river when you hurt me!

Never felt such a whirlwind of emotions before!
Never felt emotions could last just for minutes,
Never felt happiness can turn into sadness,
Never Vice versa!

You make me laugh aloud
You make me cry deep!
You are my life line,
I ache when you are far away!
I ache to feel your touch,
I ache to hear you talk,
I ache all over!

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"


I have been watching my phone for hours,
for the beep which fills my heart with joy,
Yet you never call!
I am busy in a meeting,
your call blinds me to the obvious!
and makes me run to the loo
clutching my phone
Just to hear you speak!

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"



I am all ready for our date,
Planned what to wear ,
a week before
Planned where to go,
a day before.
Planned what to talk,
an hour ago.
Planned a farewell kiss
a minute back.
I am all blushes
a second back.

As i walk in like a virginal bride,
pink cheeks flushing all the way,
I can see quite a bit of stares,
I see a little more heads turn
But my heart is full of LOve
for the one who should long be here
As seconds turn to minutes,
and minutes turn to hours
My cheeks are flushed yet again
not in the least by shyness
but in the range of anger
Yet again,
I can see quite a bit of stares,
I see a little more heads turn
I stomp off into the roads
carrying my mighty rage
only to see you hurrying in
My heart wavers
Why cant I just Hate you
Why do i Have to love you even more
Seeing your Sorry Face?

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"
.....

To be continued ....[:d]

shattered :'(

O dearest daddy,
words cant express how much
I am missing you right now.
I don't know what am doing,
I don't know why am blogging.
all I know is am dead inside.

I am cranky, moody and sad,
if only you were near me,
If only I could hear you speak,
If only I could feel your presence,
O my! what a Life am I leading?


why cant i feel happiness?
why do i feel so numb?
what did I ever do so bad?
for the pain that pierces me!
am shattered ,
I miss you like crazy!

Why me? why me? why me?
why did you leave me?
to know what this f*ked up life is all about?
I have learnt enough,
I have ached enough
come and show me how to be gay
I have lost hope in everything
the future seems bleak
I have no one to my aid,
O daddy dearest I love you!

I have had enough,
I lost you,
I lost my relationship,
I lost my happy family,
I have lost faith in myself!
Oh please take me away from my miseries,
take me away from this pain..

Happy birthday !
Happy birthday to you!
happy birthday dear daddy..
happy birthday to YOU!

Love
Your shattered daughter!

A small token of Love for my Best friend who is getting married!

I know my bestie is getting married to the guy she LOVES and she is so happy about it. But I somehow feel, She is going to be away now. Call me crazy but I prefer being the ONLY apple of her EYE anyday LOL. This is a small dedication to show my love for her and Wedding wishes for the beautiful bride MWah!! So kinda a Tribute to my Friend !!


Its been a decade,
The innocent childhood,
The ignorant Teen days,
The Romantic college days, :)
The Realistic harsh days,
And Yet I crave for more ;-)


You are always close to my heart,
yet the distance makes it hard.
I know you are going away for the good,
I know you are going to be happy.
Yet, my heart refuses to let go,
My soul is being unrealistic!


You have always been around,
smiled through my happy days,
cried with me when I am hurt,
showered me with love when I needed,
I can never get someone so dear,
I love you my dear Friend!


It all seems so near,
the days of innocence,
the days filled with sunshine,
the days we were ourselves.
Now we commute in different paths,
I have furthered the distance,
To let you go.
Now spread your wings ,
and fly high my dearest,
Your day is coming,
Your joys are gonna make me smile,
Your happiness will enrich thy!

You are going to be glowing,
Like the Moon on a cloudless night,
as you gracefully walk down the aisle,
amongst all the near dear ones,
As everyone turn green with envy..
I shall be beaming with Pride,
here comes the beautiful bride!

Valentines day :: 2009!!

Ho Ho Ho... the festive month for Love has officially started. All malls and shopping complexes' are decorated in various shades of Red! Cute hearts of all Sizes and colors ranging from palest pink to the deepest red can be seen all over...it can truly be said that Love is in the air !! :)

Love is in the air...accepted, but I seem to be choking out of breath after a long time haha. Being Single seems weirdly fantabulous to me LOL!! :-D ...Especially when there is No need to break my head over what gifts to buy or what surprises to give to my Valentine. ;-)

No love = No Planning + No Tension + No waste of Money =)) LOL

Surprisingly am taking this valentines day in an extremely positive way *whistles*. I had lots of fun suggesting funny and creative ideas to lot of my girl friends. The thought that you are just the idea creator and not the executor gives me immense pleasure, just like ma job =)) LOL . So this is infinitely better than my last one click here

I sure as hell am gonna have a lot of fun this valentine's day, as that day is going to be a Gurls group meet. Yeah! the power puff girls meet yet again LOL !! Finally after a year all the four of us are gonna meet up again and have so much fun, that ma EX might come around does not bother me at all.* yayyyyyy am growing up :D) I can honestly say am moving on big time at last :D *Phew*
(PS : You got to appreciate me on this one, cos last week I saw him and he is SMOKIN HAWT ...no kidding :| He said he luvs me, and yet again I din bother to reply ;-) *Pats self on the back*)

well well , whats new for this Valentines day? you might ask apart from the Friends meet . hmm well as some of you might already know, am officially in the process of Groom hunting through e matrimonial sites. People who want can kick me after reading my views on the same click here . *grins sheepishly* . On my defense I am doing this for my MOM not for myself :|

Anyway am anticipating a Far far better valentines day next year with a Guy who really does understand me and cares for me hopefully * fingers crossed*

Whoever said " all good men are taken , married or gay " , I salute THY :))

Whatever the bottom line is I will be spending Valentines day with the people I love the most since the past 10 years :) So this is an equally special valentines day for me.

Advance congrats for all the committed and lovely couples out there . and also all the best for the likes of me :D ...cos you know what your Prince charming or Princess Consuela bannahammock (LMAO!) is right around the corner ,waiting for the right time to BUMP on you ;-)

Here goes my small dedication for Love and Valentines day and for all of you reading my Blog :)

When I look at your smile,
My heart skips a beat!!
When I see you cry,
It breaks my heart ..
Why do i feel this way?
Your happiness is Bliss to me,
Your sadness pierces me...
Why do i feel this way?
Our souls are intertwined
Our hearts are locked together
You are part of me,
as much as am a part of thy!!
Why do i feel this way?
I may not be perfect
But I promise to
Enrich your joys..
Double your pleasures..
Fade your worries,
I promise to be there for you...
Will you be my Valentine forever??



PS: The indigo heart looked different and cuter than the normal red ones hehe.. :)

Feeling Blue...

Feels like I have fallen in a pit,
being swirled by darkness around me,
its closing up my vision,
am choking, am suffocating,
am so vulnerable, am helpless,
its scaring me, beyond my wildest imaginations!
Not a hand to help!
Not a soul to listen to ma pleas....

I fear my unknown destination,
I fear for my loved ones,
I fear Death, I fear Life!
Fear is my biggest Fear right now,
what am i fearing?
I cry out LOUD!
YET, Not a hand to help,
Not a soul to hear my pleas...

As am entering this black hole,
ma heart feels fainter,
ma screams echo all around me,
All i see is darkness,
All i feel is Darkness,
The cold wind swarms around me,
sending deep shivers all over me
I feel colder and colder..
Yet Not a hand to help,
Not a soul to listen to ma pleas...

Ma voice is way fainter now,
ma eyes have given up the search
Ma heart does not care anymore,
Ma body is too weak to move
All i know is..
am surrounded by darkness,
am shivering, whimpering and weak
And still yet, not a hand to help
Not a soul to hear my pleas...



Am feeling Blue ! :'(

Bitter Sweet memories of a lost soul!!

This is dedicated to ma EX, who obviously wont read it , but since I have been messing around a lot on ma life, I have realized, he is worth way more! and dis is a dedication to the beautiful relationship we shared for five years !!



Why did you hold my hand?
To let it go?
Why did you Kiss me?
To mock my memories now?
Why did you like me?
To leave me alone?
Why did you have to make me feel special?
To let me down?
Why did you have to be there for me?
To let me repent every single moment?
Why did you have to wipe my tears?
To let me cry everyday?
Why did you have to share with me?
To make me feel lost?
Why did you have to love me
To let me go and walk away?

You have walked far far away,
You are beyond my reach,
All i can see are your tracks,
All i have are the bitter sweet memories!!

I loved you more than I could,
I loved you beyond expectations,
Only to taste the bitter words??
Only to realize you are gone forever??

I loved your crooked smile,
when you tried to surprise me...
I loved your eyes,
when it used to twinkle with mischief..
I loved your heart,
when it opened up for me...
I loved the way you talk,
when it always made me feel gay...
I loved your walk,
when you didn't realize i was watching you...
I loved your Love
when it was just for me...
I loved you !! even,
when you did not love me back!

Now we speak, like total strangers..
I still Love you!
Now I have more friends than i used to have..
I still love you..
Now i have the independence, I always wished for
I still Love you!
Now i have anything I could ask for ...
But I still love you
Now I don't have you!
I am lost!
I love you!!

Dad I Love You!!

I had written this poem , a week before ma dad passed away and haven't posted it..now i thot i cud post it , this is d 3rd poem, i have written in ma life :)




DAD I LOVE YOU!


When I was a kid..
Yu held my hand,
and showed me the meaning of love..!

When I was 10 ..
Yu took me to the park ,
and showed me the meaning of fun..!

When I was in school .
Yu made me read ..
And showed me the meaning of knowledge..!

When I was in my teens…
Yu were reluctant to let me go,
And showed me how to enjoy my life in a harmless way..!

When I was in college..
Yu let me free,
And showed me the world outside..!

When I was 20..
Yu were not happy with my ways in many ways
But you showed me how important it was to let me go when I am older.

When I am 21
I realize how special you are
But cruel fate seems to be teaching me to let you go ..:(

Now am 22
And have realized how special your life was to me
All my life I can not get a dad better than you..!

You gave me everything I needed
At all stages of my life,
Love , materialistic things
More than you could
But fate has made me realize about YOU only now


You gave me life ;
and it kills me to see yours at stake...

You made me walk
Now it kills me to see that you can’t

You made me sleep
And it kills me to see that you can’t

You were , are and will be everything to me
But I feel numb with pain when I see you so helpless

I pray all the gods above
To give me back my precious DAD

I cant ask for anything more precious EVER !!

My second attempt at poetry ...dedicated to my special frend...!!!

I found a friend in u,
when i needed one so badly.
I left all my past behind,
in d joy of getting a true frend!

U r d one who lends me an ear
in times of need,
and corrects me when im wrong.
U r d one who made me feel myself again,
when i thot i had lost myself
deep in d past.
U r d one who bought a smile to my face,
which is thr whenever u r arnd.

U made me feel good,
U made me realise i aint so bad afterall,
U r d one who shared all d secrets with me
made me feel spl
and talked to me no matter wat u r doing.

All d days we spoke
I felt lively and gay,
but now i feel sumthing hollow...

We may have never met...
but still d distance makes me ache.
missing d times we used to spend,
keeps telling me everyday sumthing isnt rite
and that is YoU!!!

U r missing now..
so near yet so far
missing u
missing d fites with u
missing d sharing with u
missing d frend in u
missing d teacher in u
missing d dad in u
missing d time spent with u

Hoping to get back to d same old times
and bring back my smile
Frend i need u and i miss u!!!