A joyous hearts somersault!

A lonely phase, a lull in my heart,
Broken ties, severed relationships
Betrayal of mortals and immortals alike;
Hardening my shell, constricting me!

Finally a scorch of heat, a spring of joy;
On the hardest terrain; My heart.
A hope of a budding Friendship
Genuine and one in reality!
Makes me confused and ponder,
About the world I revolve around
The safe illusional Virtual bubble!
Can reality peek in? Amidst the coldness?

I let my heart go fonder,
Because of the striking similarities,
the paths we crossed were identical,
The pain of life’s tragedy faced? Miserable!
The sharing to lessen it? Memorable!
Similar thoughts, similar attitudes
From Arrogance to Atheism!

The Mind did not hear the warning bells
The bonding well reciprocated, yells my soul!
Till tragedy struck in a full blow,
Just as the hope swelled,
Turbulence of emotions engulfing me
Distraught, Despair, Betrayal! Yet again?
Unable to react, dumbfounded
Yet the silly heart yearns for the friendship!

As the fear overrides me, I am forced to face the reality,
Pushed into the corner, lonely and lost;
I hear myself shattering, as you see through me
Like we never shared, liked I never exist
The coldness in you, the indifference in you,
Makes my dreadful past surface
With all the pain n misery, eating me alive!

As I gather up myself, to face you yet again
I fear for the coldness, I fear for myself
As fear transforms to anticipation;
And excitement turns to reality,
Sighing at the way Life taunts,
I gather up my wits to face
Yet another cold mundane day
But something entraps my attention
Jerking me to reality, When am far lost in Illusion
The bitter realization of the lost friendship
My body shudders as I Give in my last attempt;
I smile, and I actually see you responding,
O dear god! Am I hallucinating?


The blame game, the anger, the frustration,
Was it really worth the pain?
As we fight, I grin and some more
For gaining the lost! As I ask myself,
Was this melodrama for realization?
Or a brief stint of my Pain dosage for the day?
We are still fighting, blaming and accusing,
My grin is sheepish and I just can’t stop!

Let the awkward pauses fade,
Lets act as if nothing went wrong,
Return me to my Safe Reality bubble
And for once its TRUE ,creating

Multitude of happy tides,
Numerous reasons to smile
Pure joy etched in my heart,
I am happy to be alive!
Because of you my dear Friend!

I am on a roll or what :-P

Hey guys, I am on a roll with this so called poetry phase LOL. I guess my poetry is somewhat closer to the real meaning of Poetry by now :-D. I know I self proclaim my writing as poetry but that's not why I am posting this.

So the other day I was talking to a friend in Yahoo and he said "BRB 10 mins." . .....As everyone knows an ideal mind is a devils workshop, my ideal mind became a Poets workshop LOL. by the time, he came back , i penned this. And like all my poems, this is also not edited . Straight from the heart. :)

And yeah! I am crazy, impulsive and all crappy hehe.

Again a Dedication to one of my Friends AKA advance Birthday Gift hehe


Did I ever stop to tell you?
How good you make me feel?
How happy you make me?
Its about time honey!!

I never dreamed of befriending
A soul I barely knew
When I was amidst Self destruction
Breaking away from myself!

Your Flirting caused me to smile and
Avoid the turmoil shattering me
Your friendliness gave me a new hope
To explore the horizons never dreamt

Think what you may of me
But trust is what I have in you
Your words are soothing
Your actions are comforting
I rose up to the challenge
When I found a hand to hold on!

It was you my dearest,
Who brought me to the shores,
When I was waddling neck deep
In the hues of Blues!!

I found a friend in you
I found happiness in thy heart
I may not have reciprocated
The love you have shared
But when the clock strikes Panic
I shall float to your support
Lean on me sweetheart
There is nothing to fret
Lets sail on together in bliss!
Amidst the mighty hues of blues!!

Happy Women's day ! :)

On this special day dedicated to women, I would first of all like to wish all the amazing women out there a very HAPPY WOMAN'S DAY! :)

I have always liked this picture, And I think this picture is fit to each and every women out there!

...because that is how selfless women are !! :)


PROUD TO BE A WOMAN!!

A small token of Love for my Best friend who is getting married!

I know my bestie is getting married to the guy she LOVES and she is so happy about it. But I somehow feel, She is going to be away now. Call me crazy but I prefer being the ONLY apple of her EYE anyday LOL. This is a small dedication to show my love for her and Wedding wishes for the beautiful bride MWah!! So kinda a Tribute to my Friend !!


Its been a decade,
The innocent childhood,
The ignorant Teen days,
The Romantic college days, :)
The Realistic harsh days,
And Yet I crave for more ;-)


You are always close to my heart,
yet the distance makes it hard.
I know you are going away for the good,
I know you are going to be happy.
Yet, my heart refuses to let go,
My soul is being unrealistic!


You have always been around,
smiled through my happy days,
cried with me when I am hurt,
showered me with love when I needed,
I can never get someone so dear,
I love you my dear Friend!


It all seems so near,
the days of innocence,
the days filled with sunshine,
the days we were ourselves.
Now we commute in different paths,
I have furthered the distance,
To let you go.
Now spread your wings ,
and fly high my dearest,
Your day is coming,
Your joys are gonna make me smile,
Your happiness will enrich thy!

You are going to be glowing,
Like the Moon on a cloudless night,
as you gracefully walk down the aisle,
amongst all the near dear ones,
As everyone turn green with envy..
I shall be beaming with Pride,
here comes the beautiful bride!

Blood is thicker than water?

The title rings some familiar bells doesn't it ?

This has always been a big debate in my family, with most of the elders voting for the former, and the youngsters opting for the later! and me being the youngest have always been debating on how friends are always the best. And No! am not here to debate again. I just attended my cousins wedding last week and i was wondering like how all the cousins stuck like glue in seconds. I had no clue what my cousins were really doing with or in their life unlike my friends who are relatively frequent in contact with me. Call it Blood bonding, but we just clicked like magnets , all the six of us and were jabbering way into the wee hours of dawn! None of us wanted to sleep, it was like a time capsule, each one of us had so little time to describe our life, lifestyle, likes, dislikes but every one wanted to share everything. We ended up having a huge debate revolving relationships, career and Boozing LOL. and being the youngest, i wasn't allowed in the so called ADULT conversation for so long :P . and it felt really good to finally be a part of these conversations.

we have all grown up as kids together, shared a part of our lives since we were too little to understand who we are sharing it with. I guess the saying holds true here, Wine gets better with age, so does relationships at least it holds true with my cousins. I really wrote this as a tribute to all my cousins and the wonderful time we have spent together for so long.


But as usual the water's density and also particularly the Volume has been increasing a lot. Let me make it clearer hehe, my close friends have become closer and precious(density) but I have made,( as everyone does) so many new friends (volume) LOL ! and frankly I am not able to cope up with the volume LOL , i mean at least being in touch is hard and apart from the close ones, if I meet the not so closer ones, I am sure I cant make up such striking and remarkable memories.


So as a conclusion, am forced to say BLOOD is thicker than water practically LOL =))


Nah I have really great friends, dunno what future has in store for me at the friends or relatives end, But i do consider my best friends as my Blood relatives and my close relatives as my best friends LOL.
I consider myself extremely blessed person to be having the best of both the worlds!


Nice conclusion innit? hehe :P

Self Appraisal ...:)) My long last and best Testimonial recieved EVER !!

This is the testi ma bestest frend wrote for me ....i kinda thot i had lost it , but i got it bak yayyyyyyyy \:d/ so posting here , so dat u peeps can get to know me ;-) hahha!!! PS: he was too shy to post it even in ORKUT lol=))

A friend is a personal relationship. I like and admire many people who i don’t consider friends.I choose to think of friend as a very strong word, representing a very close relationship..

Seno...no call her prabha..for all those people who dunno.. Thats wot her name is...

I kno am not the only person who thought her name was seno!!!! Prabha is sucha..stupid('s) name....[:p]


You are friendly, kind and caring, sensitive, loyal and understanding, humorous, fun, secure and true..special, accepting, exciting and wise ..truthful and helpful,..blah blah... I kno these things don’t define her… but then I had to write some so called NORMAL good qualities..one sec.. is she anyway normal…?? I guess I might end up having a huge debate with anybody who have doubts….of course I shall be against the topic [8)]

Actually I have a lot to say bout this gal.. But i aint tat good at words so I let you people figure that out urselves…Its just that i am very happy knowing her.. And its not everyday i get to make such a great friend...so i intend to hold onto you for a long long time gal....

Am sure other friends ov hers have already mentioned bout her luxuriously jabbering ability...And must say she does that pretty effortlessly.. but she has made sure I have been tamed enough to lissen to her forever…:-<

Nonetheless this devil (a fictional angel as some may say) has a lot of opinions about everything around her... No wonder she always has issues with me.. I swear I havent met anybody so critical about each and every action of mine... But then thats what gets the better of me....[:p]

Whoever knows her would have definitely got a soupçon of this quality of hers…… or is it only me whos been soo……. “Lucky” =))

Frankly shes someone i turn to whenevr i need a push(kick) to lift ma spirits..shes just a call away when i need tat instant advise on somethin "hardly" important....then she throws this sensible advice rite on ma face...makes me feel too dumb..i may sound a parasite maselv but then when things are this easy to fetch(and so bug free) why flex ur super complex brains....wot say seno...[:d]

Most of the time she is a teacher, a very good one, who constantly questions me. "those of course are the best teachers, the ones who ask you to think"...evn tho her questions have been annoyin at times[:p] it did make me smart.. Mayb thats what she wanted me to become...[8)]..am there am there..!!!!

I talk to her bout almost anything .. share feelings, talk about our enthusiasms, our ideas, the things we care bout, the things we don’t care bout.. everythin.. Carefree… as I believe if I ever find i must be careful how i say things, then it’s something other than friendship.

That’s what she is…. If you get to be in her good friends list then you get the warrant to talk about anything… anytime… anywhere…

Shes makes you feel very comfortable…. Way to go bugger…

Continuing on ma lill talk on friendship I can only say I haven chosen to call prabha as a friend.. a true friend with every moment spent worth relishing.

Thanks for everythin...

Cheerz

My second attempt at poetry ...dedicated to my special frend...!!!

I found a friend in u,
when i needed one so badly.
I left all my past behind,
in d joy of getting a true frend!

U r d one who lends me an ear
in times of need,
and corrects me when im wrong.
U r d one who made me feel myself again,
when i thot i had lost myself
deep in d past.
U r d one who bought a smile to my face,
which is thr whenever u r arnd.

U made me feel good,
U made me realise i aint so bad afterall,
U r d one who shared all d secrets with me
made me feel spl
and talked to me no matter wat u r doing.

All d days we spoke
I felt lively and gay,
but now i feel sumthing hollow...

We may have never met...
but still d distance makes me ache.
missing d times we used to spend,
keeps telling me everyday sumthing isnt rite
and that is YoU!!!

U r missing now..
so near yet so far
missing u
missing d fites with u
missing d sharing with u
missing d frend in u
missing d teacher in u
missing d dad in u
missing d time spent with u

Hoping to get back to d same old times
and bring back my smile
Frend i need u and i miss u!!!

wherever you go your network follows u...:P

The caption seems familiar doesn’t it?? But no am not going to talk about hutch.....not exactly. But these mobile services have so many catchy lines...yet do we really get the coverage anywhere?? Leave about others...am using hutch and quite satisfied with it, but I have a friend, let’s name that person as Mr.X. He/she is one of the subscribers of the hutch network and I don’t think his/her hutch dog is faithful to him/her [-x..........:P

Let me jus point out some of the features of the specialty in his/her hutch network........:D


1) You can never reach him/her when the person is at home...only when he /she are outside you can reach the person.

2) When you receive a call from that person and your line gets disconnected and you try again.....you can’t reach him/her Whoa! In hardly few seconds the network gets jammed or what??

3) When you receive a message from that person, he/she ought to have the network to send you a message right, but when you reply, you get the delivery message after a minimum of 10 hrs...

4) You try to call this person when he/she is outside ...yet again you get either a engaged tone or not reachable message.

5) You want to contact during any case of emergency ....sorry you don’t have the network.

6)He/she wants to contact you ....there he/she gets the network to contact you.....=))

7)And last but not the least the phone is never switched off ..........:-j

Some special value added features =))

1) You call this person and the call gets disconnected and voila u get a call back in a few seconds , so you really need not waste your money trying to call this person....all calls are free....:D

2) If at all you hear an engaged tone from this number ...please don’t waste your time for the next 2-3 hours because it will be engaged for 2 more hours as call waiting has been removed purposely ......:P

3) You want any sort of help from him/her ...you just have to spill it out and its done , no matter who you are....=))

How I wish, I had a magical network like this....which allows me to contact anyone only when I want to , else am not reachable...and not be disturbed by any other unwanted caller =))



Note: This is a fictional work and any characters having any resemblances to any real person is not intentional.

My most memorable trip...\:/d\:d/

My trip to Delhi was my dream vacation….not because I liked Delhi so much, in fact I hardly visited any tourist spots in Delhi. Yet the people I met there have made a deep impact on me. Who did I meet, my friends, my relatives, childhood friends??? No I met my online friends :D , My friends from ORKUT. Well to be honest about it, I never thought I would make online friends let alone meet them. I have known these people just for a couple of months ….an yet the fun I had with them can’t be expressed in words. To make the long story short let me just tell you guys what I did instead of going on nd on about my friends :P

December 7^th :

I am in Delhi staying with my cousins and I have promised to meet my online sister manshi around 1 PM …and yeah! I changed the timings a lot because I had to be dropped off by my cousin at a place called ashram. I have just spoken to this girl for 6 months, have seen pictures and shared secrets,yet I was so anxious, how will she be in real, am I going to meet the same girl or will she be a total stranger??? Lot of thoughts in my head ….and I had promised her I would stay with her for four days too. so was really confused and when I met her I was like whoaaaaaaa…….she is so tiny (just my first impression ) is she elder to me?? She came forward and hugged me, then she told me the plans for the day, that I had to meet suefa , poorva the same day. I was like what???? I have my bags with me and I have come like a beggar :O :P…yet I had to go =((……so I followed her like mary’s little lamb and we reached a place called CP . there we called up poorva and met up at PIZZA HUT . I was happy to see that manshi was the same cute big sister and there I see two more sweethearts poorva and suefa and we start talking like we have been friends for years and not months and as if we have met each other daily , there was no awkwardness at all , we got along so well like a house on fire =)) we started talking talking….and poorva called up rachit so rachit came straight from his college too ….we could not sit in the pizza hut for a long time in the fear of being thrown out :P , so we moved from the pizza hut and were just roaming the streets of Delhi and talking with each other ….soon we realized we had to take pictures to make the people around us jealous =)) so we had a photo session for about one hour in the streets …..we had so much fun taking pictures and calling up total strangers to take our pictures….and surprise pooorva’s parent’s allowed her for the night stay too…\:d/\:d/ . we were so tired after all the fun and from the continuous laughing session too :P ,So suefa and rachit left : (( but me poorva and manshi went straight to manshis place . as soon as I entered her room …….me being the net addict went to the system while manshi and poorva went to get the dinner :P and then you guys cant imagine how much fun we had , it was a total girls night out and we took a lot of snaps like we were totally crazy……we talked , laughed , ate , gossiped etc etc…D we didn’t feel like we missed suefa because she was with us in the phone all the time =)) and I slept of as I was talking……..:P

December 8^th:

I have stayed with my online friends without any problems…now I became very comfortable too. Today we had no big plans, poorva had to leave now, so we got up early morning around 9 AM and left manshi’s home, after poorva left manshi took me to another market , I had started enjoying the new place a lot , I tried a lot of local food in the market and we started shopping \:d/\:d/ we spent like hours in shopping :P, I ate cotton candy too :D…. and then we got a call to meet sehran. so we left the market loaded with shopping bags and met sehran , he was also the same guy I had spoken to , none of them had an artificial personality like I had expected :P and we spoke with him for some time and had to leave for manshis place again. We had to reach early so we left and were so tired by the time we went to her place, I just went and fell on the bed immediately :P …we had reached early , but we had to go and have our dinner ….so after taking rest for sometime , we went to some mall and we had our dinner , there I met manshis best friend komal .he was friendly even though he didn’t know me at all …:D

It was freezing cold in the streets of Delhi :-ss :D and we returned after our dinner , we had our share of sisters talk in the nights , as we were busy roaming around in the morning and then what ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz…..:P


December 9^th:

Yet another day over and today we slept a lot after roaming around like crazy for two days , today our plans included shopping yeah! ….again and meeting up shalini \:d/ …so I was excited for both…:D we left home a little late in the morning and went to CP again. I was so hungry that I didn’t wait for shalini to arrive and started eating………:P ….shalini came inside and was like seno??? I was like yeah…:D and we hugged each other and started talking …manshi had to go out for a while …..and we both were just talking away to glory…=)) shalini was very cool….i loved talking with her and yeah we had to have a photo session with shalini too….:P and we took a lot of pictures again ……shlini kept clicling my pictures in various poses =)) ….and did I forget to mention all the days I was treated like a princess…..:D…then shalu invited me over to her place for chloe bature for the next day =p~=p~ and she left …: ) …..we left for shopping again …=)) and by the end of the day we had loads of shopping bags again…:p ,manshi was so sweet to help me with all the shopping and most important carrying all thoem home…:D….but this day ..we were so worn out….we just went out for dinner and when we were back both of us hit the sack immediately……..:D


December 10^th:

Yeah my last day at manshis place =((…..we had enjoyed so much in these three days , its really hard to say bye…: ( . I got up and packed my things and started getting ready….manshi woke up and helped me with my packing ….we werent going anywhere today. She just had to drop me off at ashram for shalini to pick me up. We didn’t talk much today , I guess it was too painful for both of us to talk on this day …….we just had the common talk nothing special , both of us knew parting was hard. it was just three days with her …yet it was like my life’s most memorable three days ….i still miss her =((

So we left her place and she dropped me at ashram where shalini took me to her home

In shalini’s home they had prepared the menu consulting my friends:O=)) I wasn’t there for a long time , but they really made me feel like a celebrity :D …her mom was so sweet with me and she prepared so much for me to eat =)) …next I met her little sister parul too .she is damn cute and soft spoken unlike shalini :P….we ate and then chatted for a while and again I logged in…:p to check my orkut scraps and then I got a call from my cousin , so I had to leave ….but not before stuffing me with loads of ice cream =))…..her sister kept taking pictures till the lift door was closed :o :D….and then I left to my cousins place but still spoke with everyone on the phone….:D

SPECIAL DEDICATIONS TO THE PEOPLE I MET:

Manshi : she is just the perfect elder sister anyone can ask for , she bared with me for three whole days =)) ….. and she is far more better when you meet her . I miss her a lot ……but say what I got a real sister for keeps and am happy for that ….and next time I have promised her I would land directly in her home=)) she is like the perfect example for beauty and brains :P

Suefa : Ahhhhhh!! Here comes the turn for my crazy twin ….we didn’t get to spend a long time together ….because she had to go for a wedding ….she is a lot of fun to be with. She is crazy I know that ….but not too much like me……:P. but loved every minute talking to her.

Poorva: Dark chocolate babe …:P…she is like a teddy bear, who you would love to hug and talk with……..we had great fun on our night out …..Some of the pictures came out weird…:P but yet love ya loads >:d<

Rachit: He is definitely a sweetheart .he is just a very simple and cute guy, who would never accept me as hi sister : ( …:P …so innocent and pure at heart , and made me feel very comfortable .The Perfect Gentleman…b-)

Sehran: The song composer …:P .yeah! he has compoased a song just dedicated to me and he was the one who took pains to scrap me and force me to meet him =)). it was great to meet an upcoming music director …:D…his songs rawkkk!!

Shalini : She is like a bottle of honey …:P . so sweet…she invited me to her home, took pains to prepare a menu even for me ….seriously no one has made me feel so special. Thanks a lot babes .love ya soooooooo much :D

Sueeeeeeee or Suefa the sister I always wanted, Thanks to orkut I got this lovely and cute sister. We both started this blog just because we were bored and wanted to do something, we thought , we always talk a lot , so why not write down whatever we talk , we couldn’t do it in orkut as there is a word limitation for everything .....:D

Suefa is a very bubbly personality , Its sad that it took us so long to get to know each other , but after that it has been no looking back .This girl is always full of energy and can raise your spirits totally , First when I met her , I thought well this girl has a group of friends and she doesn’t opens up with everyone , we hardly exchanged a few scraps ,by then I knew a lot of people but sue always seemed to be reserved =)) , maybe she thought the same about me , because she also never spoke so well with me , then all thanks to poorva another sweetheart , she is close to both of us , and we used to have girly yahoo confys =)) and there she used to invite both of us , and as usual we never spoke to each other , hardly a few posts , hi sueeeeeeeeeeee :D >>>>>>>>:D<<<<<<<<<< :*:* just the usual greeting and a bye . some time later in the confys all the others would leave to sleep , but me and sue pure 100% nocturnal , so we stayed and were in a situation where we had to talk to each other , both of us used to talk about some silly thing and we would leave , then we got one topic of mutual interest ;) and started talking for real , within a week she was one amongst the close people to me who I would wait to see them online. In the starting our timings matched each other , so did our sense of humor :P , We both have a totally different sense of humor , only people close to us can understand our jokes and yeah! We laugh for anything and everything =))

And by the end of the second week , we were like so close to each other , all secrets shared , we had talked about everything under the sun :-O , we started out by doing weird things everyday after everyone were asleep and slowly we started realizing we have the same thoughts , same feelings basically we had a lot in common , and of all the online friends I have met , she is the one who I can closely relate to , that is she can easily find out what’s in my mind while others can just judge that something is wrong , she is the person because of whom I have started laughing and enjoying my life a lot lately , and whatever I say she is ready to do it the next minute , we love to search through google to get funny pictures for our album=)) and we chat daily , if there is some problem that she cant come online , she comes through mobile and talks to me =)) , She is definitely one of my close friends now , sounds weird isn’t it? , haven’t met this gal , don’t know how she looks or behaves in real life , yet there is something which attracts me to this gal ,and those who know her , will accept with me that she is the most cheerful girl around. She laughs without a reason, but I don’t find it weird anymore, because am also doing the same lately ….:D , Well our day starts at around 9 o clock in the night: P and ends at 5-7 in the morning =)) and till now even one day I haven’t been bored of her , We talk nonsense but with sue nonsense is fun :D , She is one of the persons , I can say anything to ,she hears all my stories poor sue=)) but sometimes she gets the romantic stories as well;) but most of the days its plain dumb:D

Sueeeeeeeeeee , you are more than a friend , more than a sister , more than anything I deserve , You are a wonderful person and I thank all my stars for knowing you and I cant wait to meet you in person , I so look forward to that day \:d/:X\:d/:X , and be with me always , i need you more than anything , I just love you too much to express it , You are really my other half, crazy twin even though you are the craziest of us ,that’s what makes you even lovable and I simple love you for everything :D . We share a wonderful bond , and i sincerely hope nothing would come in between us forver :x:x:x

I have lots more to write about you and will keep updating this blog ;-)

Keep smiling always

muaaaaaaaaaahhhhh

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Dedicated to Prankiee.......My first attempt at poetry.........!!! =))

Well am not the kinda of person who can write poems let alone write i cant even understand poems =)), but still i had promised to one of my friends praniti to write a poem for her ...........and well made a fool of myself and the poetry i guess...;-) , but its just my first attempt to write a poem , so poetry lovers this is not advised for you .........:D , just an amateur attempt from my side .


Pranks u r d chubbiest gal ever!!

and of course the sweetest of all souls..

i can hate u never!!

cos i know u r always thr for me thro all my goals...




I cant belive how easily u stole my heart!!

U r an angel in diguise , loved by everyone..

U have grown deep inside my heart , so u r d one i can never part!!

any day any time , u make my heart long for u..



you r my frend , sister , philosopher and guide!!

which suprises me cos u r younger than me..

u haunt my thoughts everyday , so i can never let u slide!!

away from me cos i feel u werever i see..



u just arent one in millions!!

u r unique and remind me of a pure white dove..

u r spl moon among d stars which r billion!!

u r in my heart , in my soul , cos u r d one i love..



u r special cos u r my precious gem!!

who i shall strive hard never to loose..

so am gonna stick to u like a gum!!

i jus love u and want u to b with me forever!!




u make me happy , u scold me , tease me...

but i love u more for that cos u have that right!!

u shower me with ur affection..

and listen to all my confessions..

worried how to repay u!!

as my love is all i can give u!!





Once again I dedicate this one and only to Praniti aka d lil devil ^:)^^:)^:)^