Bread crumbs for thy being!

A Wedding Gift to a dear Friend, Colleague!

2011-04-13T14:28:00.003+05:30

Walks in and out,
A chirpy bird.
A ear for every rambles,
A ear for every woes.

A friend if you need one,
Never an enemy!
A smile always to light,
The bluest of days.

Comes out of the way,
To help, to share, to guide
An amateur’s delight!

As the brim fills,
As the days near,
I only wish her merry and more..

You will be missed by heart a many,
Yet, you have taken the breath away
Of an innocent victim,
Blessed to be your other half
May the happiness spread,
The joys divide,
As you embark the Journey of your life!

Seven years of accomplishment
Yet a legacy to leave, or so she says!

Wishing you a legacy and more!
Happy Wedding Day!

Habitat:
This species may have its origin in “God’s own country”, but it is predominantly found in Cathedral Road,. To be more Specific “ HM! Office”. Occasionally found near Koyembedu too. Soon to migrate to the Northen regions.
Food:
Scarcely found to be interested in a commodity known as food. Pecks around something edible, occasionally at noon. Other than this, it has been rarely observed savoring it.
Identification:
Pretty Mallu, always found wearing a smile and matching accessories. Reliable sources say, all the pretty dresses are soon up for Sale!
Temperament:
Ever Smiling, Never takes offence. An amazing friend.

HAPPY WEDDING DAY – Bhavya & Girish!
May 22, 2011.

Day 31 - Who are you?

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Who am I?? Well, If I start again after writing incessantly for a month, am sure most of you would like to kick me or WORSE, Delete my Facebook Profile *Shudders =P*. So I would like to say to know more about me, (Only if you really really wanna KNOW!) please go through my previous posts. I have described myself amply well.

TODAY, "Who am I", Am a PROUD INDIAN who BLEEDS BLUE BABY!

Finally, am giving all of you a break from my so called writing spree =P. I still can't belive, I made it upto Day 31. *Pats on the back*

Comments regarding all my posts are always WELCOME =D. Encourage me!!! :-)...

Do you see a promising writer??, Let me know!!!
Do you see myself improving on my vocabulary/ Scentence formation??, Let me Know!!!
Bored Already??... Do NOT let me know!! =D

GO INDIA, The world cup Beckons!!! :)

Day 30 - Your first love

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Animals, particularly Puppies! =D

Day 29 - In this past month, what have you learned?

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I have learnt that, I need to be more responsible and independent in the upcoming years. I have life long commitments and keeping that in mind, i should focus and work accordingly! No major or shocking lessons learnt, but growing older ( There, I just said it =(( ....=P) , teaches you some peculiar lessons every day. Not to forget, I have learnt that am back in the ' Writing Game', even if you hate it! =D

Overall March has been an unusual month.

Disappointments, achievements, happiness, frustrations, regrets, all put together, shaken rigorously, and served with a PINCH of salt to taste!

That does not taste as bad as you think, still it leaves a bitter taste in your mouth, if at all you know, what I mean?!?! =P

Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

2011-03-28T21:48:00.002+05:30

Back then (July 2010)

Recent Past (Jan 2011)

Now if you see there is hardly 6 months difference between the two pictures, So no great difference!

Hmmm, how have I changed!!

Well, I guess am more independent in financial desicions . M still broke at the end of the month :P , but have started thinking about future, tax savings schemes, investments blah blah :D

I was so excited to get my first ATM card, First Salary around three years back! But now its got boring. Money brings in commitment and I wish I could stop growing up and CRY! =P

Apart from that, I am trying to further myself academically by trying to study something. By next year am sure, I would be doing Masters!
As of now no more of fun, random, spur of the moment events, am cautious *sighs* and plan stuff.
Renewed some friendships which were due to childish tiffs :D

Basically to cut the long story short, I have become BORING! :-)

Day 27 - What you think about your friends?

2011-03-26T12:50:00.002+05:30

My Friends are such a huge group of people, which I cannot define on a whole!

I have some very close friends, some distantly-close, some online i-haven't-met-ya-but-u-r-my-best-friend types and the list goes on, to end with people who I whine being associated with :P

On a whole, I guess my friends do not fit any particular category, they are just from all walks of life and "click" with me you know?

They can be loyal, eccentric, honest, cute, bubbly, weird, rude, snobbish etc etc but the point is if they are my friend, I would love them all the same!

Some have been sore disappointing too, who I would rather not say out aloud what I wish to do with em!!

All said and done, they are my friends so they are the BEST!!!

PS: I am extremely disappointed with, what I have written. At the same time, I am too lazy to re write it! Maybe later ;)

Day 26 - Something you crave for a lot?

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Loosing weight. Period!

Day 25 - What I would find in your bag?

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Such a personal question, and am asked to explain it? Atrociousness! :D

I warn you!, You would really NOT want to know :P

3 Wallets - Yes, you heard it right! :-D. One for my cards, One for loose change and another one even I dunno why am lugging it around =))
Tissues
Balm
Deo
Loose change everywhere (Apart from the wallet, you got it right! :D)
Chewing Gum
ATM Receipt SLIPS
Passport Photographs
Dad's ID card
Sunglasses
Earring's
Chocolates ( Most often)
Random receipts
Mobile
Mobile charger
Mobile Headphones
Keys
Pens
Hair clips
Hair bands
Comb

I am tired, this will do for now, Won't it? :P

Day 24 - Nicknames you have & why do you have them

2011-03-25T11:53:00.002+05:30

Having a short name and a sweet personality, prevents people from naming me! :D

Kannama/ Bahrain Queen - Okay don't laugh, but my dad used to be always too proud of me and used to call me endearingly with these names :-) .

Other than that, I dont remember anymore as there is no significant name which caught on!

My mom calls me PraBBBHHHHAAA , Praaaaabha, PRABHAAA etc etc depending on her mood and my actions :P. i.e., each way of calling me is directly proportional to the amount of anger, love, frustration etc she has on me at that point of time! :P

Around five years back, with the internet boom making its presence on me, I got a name or rather an Alter Ego! named SEN or Seno. This name is still prevelant amongst certain circles and people prefer this name and strangely, I respond to it as much as I respond to my name.

Day 23 - A letter to someone who hurt you?

2011-03-23T22:40:00.000+05:30

Dear X,

I have written something way long back, which will make you cringe and dwarf with shame, if at all you get the chance to read it. But hey!, I forgot, you dont have a consiencse right?

I do want to tell you though, I forgive very easily, but sadly for you, I don't have it in me to FORGET ( Blame it on my memory :P, Just so you have something to blame on me...see I have helped you out even here!)

it will be too long and boring for my readers to read too, so here is an extract of it. I know you might not read it, but hopefully it reaches you :). Hopefully your snooping habits will land you here :D

I do feel cheated and betrayed,
But HEY, I blame only myself.
That ought to cool your FROZEN HEART!
You know what irks me even now?
The way you wear the ANGEL MASK!
The way you portray yourself to the world,
Of what a kind hearted soul you are??

WEDNESDAY, JULY 22, 2009

FYI : I have been hurt by a lot of people , like everyone else have. I am NORMAL after all and not some saviour who will forgive and make up!

But just so you know peeps, I don't give a damn!

Love,

Prabha

Coming up next "
Day 24 - Nicknames you have & why do you have them?"

A picture of something that makes you happy

2011-03-22T22:31:00.003+05:30

Makes me Happy and Sad at the same time!

LOVE YOU BABY! :)

Coming up next " Day 23 - A letter to someone who hurt you? "

Day 21 - Bullet your whole day.

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A typical week day! Except for the cooking which is random, others are true to the best of my knowledge! :D

Snooze Alarm
Snooze Alarm
Snooze Alarm
Mom says its 9:30, Jump out of bed, to realize it is actually 8:30 Am. Not bad :)
Breakfast
Rush to work
Work
Lunch
Work
Gym
Cook (Pasta n Pizza :D)
Dinner
FB Time
News, Mail, Surfing
Phone - Yap Yap Yap!
Read Book
Sleep

Coming up next " A picture of something that makes you happy "

Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future?

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Day 19 - Your earliest memory

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Funny, I was talking to my friend about my earliest memory recently. I have absolute no remembrance of my childhoods days, till I was two and a half to three. I have vague flashes of memories from 3 to 5.

So I guess, My real memories start in Bahrain :)

1. I remember, going to school in a car, with few other kids, while my brother went to another school by a bus.

2.I remember the procession of people right outside my house. (People use to beat themselves with swords!. Muslim friends can you help me in identifying the festival?). I was too scared to go to school after this!

3. I remember liking a diamond shaped , green colored sweet, which my parents say was KAJU KATHILI.

4. I remember my Pink Panther doll.

5. I remember, i was embarassed by saying " I will EAT my milk and come" to my neighbours, and then refused to go back to their house, since the embrassement was too high for a kid of three years to have said EAT and not DRINK! :P

Coming up next " Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future?"

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have?

2011-03-18T20:50:00.005+05:30

I am tempted to say like tamizh padam, " En vazhkayin kurikol, kanavu, latchiyam elame TR oda latest padatha pakanumnu dhan" :P (Lookie!!!! T Rajendran the dude, below picture. Courtesy: I searched for "t rajendran + handsome" in google images!)

But on a serious note, I have plans to start a business, someday!, dreams of achieving high on either professional or personal front ( see am being realistic!), and my goals are towards a positive a better future for me and the people around me!

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why?

2011-03-18T00:07:00.003+05:30

I would really really want to have had switched my life with my Dad's on 26th November 2007!

Why? : Well, to understand what it feels, to know that you are dying, having young & immature children and knowing the pain of letting go despite more than your best efforts!

Why 26 Nov 2007: Well better me than him any day!

PS: For my concerned friends, if at all you bother to read this :P, I am not depressed, just stating what I think! So no worries, after all it is a tag. And I am not in a wonderland for my wishes to come true! :P

PPS: I have just realized that, I am unable to let it go! :( ...despite my best attempts to live with it, if not forget it, i am still holding on to it.

Desperate?

Maybe!!

Day 16 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

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I dont want to talk about it! :P

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play?

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1. Dil se - Dil se re

2. Bombay - Uyire Uyire

3. Endhiran - Boom Boom Robo da

4. May Matham - Madrasa suthi paka poren ( Never knew I had this one :P)

5. Punnagai Mannan - Enna Satham indha neram

6. Bharathiyaar Songs - Endhayum Thayum (Devotional)

7. Zeher - Woh Lamhe

8. Saroja - Kodana Kodi

9. Bharathiyaar Songs - Chinnan chiru kiliye (Devotional)

10. DDLJ - Mere khwabon mein

Non tamilian audience, kindly excuse. I have loaded mostly Tamil songs :P

Day 14 - A picture of you and your family

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The four of US back then...

A decade later,

Day 13 - Your views on drugs, alcohol and religion

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Since the topic is not co-related, i will sub divide it into "My views on Drugs", "My views on Alcohol", "My views on Religion". Here we go,

My views on Drugs:

To be completely honest, I still can't understand the concept. My only knowledge of it is from films, so I always think drugs means either you inject or smell some crap to get HIGH! But I have also seen the horrific pictures of its after effects. I can't understand why someone would do something like this to themselves. But all things said, I believe that the root cause of these problems is the Media for exaggerating all these things and the young minds get fascinated by drugs. At this tender age, they are rebellious and try to fight against anything good. And when they see all this exaggeration, they try to become one of the so called "COOL" people. Proper parental guidance can help them a long way. A friendly parent or any elderly member of the family need to talk to them and give them educational insights about the problems with law and health. Most importantly stronger measures is to be taken to BAN these stuff.

My views on Alcohol:

Whoever says " It's an office party! I need to drink or people won't accept in my official circle' should be hanged :P Come on, I don't say it is wrong, but the ways you justify it, plain Stinks!

It is an individual perception and there is no such thing as too much fun "only after alcohol". Life is beautiful there are OTHER ways to enjoy it too.

Drink, have fun, be safe and it is good to go. Anything in moderation is good.

My views on Religion:

Here comes the sore spot. Who is allowed to decide their religion? We are either born into it or we are manipulated into it ;-)

Do people really know, what their religion preaches? or do they follow it?

My view is every religion just brings some book of codes on how to lead life in a better way, How to be a good human being. But if every religious fanatic / or every person who follows a religion, really follows these books to the "T". Do you really think the world will be so unsafe?

Day 12 - Your favorite season and why.

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Being from Chennai, we are blessed to have only one season through out the year - Summer!

Okay! to be realistic, our seasons range from mild summer to summer with occasional or surprising drizzle to summer, followed by hot summer, hotter summer and hottest summer. Throw in an occasional bout of rainfall here and there, we have described Chennai's seasons, most commonly referred in outside circles as Chennai's HEAT!

Since, am ignorant about the other season's due to my geographical location, I want to play safe and say the actual Summer in the month of MAY, may be my favorite season :-)

Why May? Well, I hardly cared about the other months during my early ages in life , cos come may and I get my birthday, thereby I can be the Princess. Not that I wasn't treated as a princess otherwise. But you get my point right?

Birthday in the holidays can be a boon and a bane. Boon nowadays, because I don't need to take leave from work to REST ( Not Enjoy, Rest dear folks! :P) Bane only because I couldn't wear a color dress and have a punishment/scolding free day at school :)

Anyway, May the summer days with the wonderful seasonal juicy fruits and vacations can never be compared to other boring months! :P ...Now as you see, am trying hard to find other good things about May, other than the remarkable month of me, a Princess being born :P, But I wont trouble you any further, expect to announce that on May 8th a fateful day in the year of 1985,(8-5-85 - Fancy number peeps Yay!) a legend was born. Hence the favoritism. Any cribbing's??

Day 11 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

2011-03-11T21:43:00.003+05:30

My zodiac sign is Taurus - The Bull!

I don't have much belief in astrology in general, but i was fascinated by Linda Goodman. She has described ME so aptly!

Instead of writing down, my philosophy or way of thinking, am going to make you read Linda Goodman's version of me and let you be the judge.

Those who have all the patience in this world and most importantly Love me ( ;-) ), you can go through the above link, otherwise you can always read my brief extract from the above link, given below.

A Taurus female is a tall woman. Even if she measures under five feet, she can reach tall enough to meet almost any emergency life chooses to throw her way. In many ways, the Taurean female is the salt of the earth, a combination of most of the sterling qualities every male looks for and seldom finds. She may have a violent temper that would frighten a strong man into runing for the woods (or at least ducking under a table), but she won't go on a raging rampage without provocation. Ordinarily, if you don't torment her bond of human endurance, or if Fate doesn't hand her a really rough bunch of cards, she'll play the game of life freely, with cool, admirable calm. Her candor and basic honesty are undiluted with normal feminine tricks like tears. The Taurean girl has more moral and emotional courage than many a tough male, but she has enough confidence in her own sex to let you be the boss, if you want the job. If you don't fill it, she may grab control and run things herself, but she'd much rather have it the other way around. She seeks a real man. That's because she shows she's a real woman, and she's proud of it. To her, being a woman doesn't necessarily mean being an incorrigible flirt, a mental fluff ball or a mewing kitten who pretends to be weak to get her own way. It won't be long before you see she has a mind of her own, and it's quite strong enough not to have to resort to teasing to gain an objective.

PS: I would really recommend you to go through Linda Goodman's link. :-)

Day 10 - Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

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Well this one is interesting. Generally, am fixated with a single song at any particular phase of my life. This song changes periodically, but once i LOVE a song, I listen to it, when I am happy, sad, bored, mad etc etc etc.

Some of my recent and all time favorites are listed below,

1. Otha sollala - Aadukalam
2. Vellavi vechu tan veluthangala - Aadukalam
3. Rakamma - Siruthai
4. Munni Badnaam hui - Dabaang
5. Neela Vanam - manmadha anbu
6. Complicated - Avril
7. Taal se taal - Taal
8. Kwaja mere kwaja - Jodha Akbar ( I listen to this especially, if i feel stressed out and need to get into an trance! :P)
9. Kabhi Kabhie - Kabhi Kabhie
10. Poongatru - Mudal Mariyadhai
11. Chippi Irukudhu - Varumayin Neram Sivappu
12. Senthalam poovil - Mullum Malarum

Actually there is a song for ever mood, in Ilayaraja's Music. He is the ultimate musician and I love all songs of him, followed by A.R. Rehman of course ;-)

Day 09 - Something you’re proud of in the past few days.

2011-03-09T22:45:00.002+05:30

I wrote a poem, honoring my mom for women's day and am very proud of it! *Self boasting helps, when others don't" (?) :P

So here we go!!

Well this is my dedication to the most wonderful women in my Life *Womens day Special Peeps*

God created an Angel,

to handle his favorite KID!

Superfluous, Benevolent,

Amiable at that!

To alleviate my fears,

To kindle my thoughts,

To lavish love on thy!

Aint me lucky?

You believed you were blessed,

when I landed on your arms,

But trust me,

There aint any soul luckier!

There aint any soul happier!

You cuddled, as I shrieked,

You hugged, as I shivered,

You comforted, as I rebelled,

But,

You crumbled, as I cried.

Is there a selfless soul as thy?

Is there any sacrifices left?

Is there anymore Patience to endure?

Is there words to describe my love?

Is there....

I love you, my dear friend

I love you, my dear confidant

I love you, my dear well wisher

I love you, my dear sister

I love you, my dear angel

I love you, my dear Mom!

Day 08 - Short term goals for this month and why?

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Short term goals, as in work? :P

1. Well, now there are too many things happening in personal front. I would like to choose the "Loosing Weight" campaign as of now, because it has the highest weightage...erm, priority.

I am trying my best, lets see. :) Maybe am just destined to be fat forever! :-D.

Trying can't be that hard!! Can it??

2. Planning my Finances. Oops! Did I just say it aloud?? Does it mean, I ought to be careful?? Nay! It means I need to loose my credit card ;-)

3. Study Psychology. June, here I come!

4. Tomorrow can be included in short term plans right? Well then wish me luck! Reason will be revealed only if the venture is a success :-D...those in the know, kindly don't steal MY thunder :P

5. Write, Write and Write some more. I know some, Okay! MOST of you are already bored of my ramblings, but I sure aint! *mwahahha*

6. Read, more of career enhancing books than fictional novels :P

Lookie! I just have manged to successfully list my gibberish into 6 points. Way to go! :D

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

2011-03-07T21:27:00.002+05:30

This is what I call Love!

A person who has the biggest impact on me - Parents! :)

Day 06 - Favorite super hero and why?

2011-03-06T20:00:00.004+05:30

Eh??...Seriously Eh??

I don't have any super hero's. Maybe the idea is queer or maybe I am queer!

Let me make up somethings *Thinks hard*

Okay wait...A super Hero, I have always liked is "Shikari Shambu". There! :-D

To those who have trouble picturing him, here is a picture *Dreamy aint he? :P*

I am drawn back to the nostalgic feeling of a Tinke in my hand, and scrolling the pages to find Mr. Shambu's Adventures :-D . He and his wife have never disappointed me. :D ...They make a amazing couple.

Firstly the way he wins every single quest of his, is hilarious and cute :), not to forget the way he runs into trouble consistently, is just what makes him Super Hero material for me :D

But, Yeah! there has to be a 'But' isn't it ;-) ...To burst the bubble, am still confused, as to who would win this rat race...erm Super Hero Race. So my second nominee is and will always be "Tantri the Mantri" :-D

He is one Mega entertainer. His will power to succeed beyond the whatever-I-do-it-fails stories, and his attitude to keep and keep on trying *whadoyaknow* just makes him so appropriate to be a Super hero.

Now, seriously! How am I supposed to pick one? You tell me! :-(

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

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This question got me thinking! I have been to a few places in the recent past, but decided to share the picture of the trip, I went with my family. It was truly amazing trip, with lots of rest, good food and not to forget family bonding! The cons included visiting 14 temples in a single day! :P

Anyway here is the picture for you to rejoice! :D . The picture take at Yercaud.

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn't have?

2011-03-04T23:27:00.003+05:30

This one is gonna be as dumb as it gets!

But Hey!, I hate this disgusting habit of mine. To be honest I haven't even tried to control myself. It just happens :P

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends.

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Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends.

There aint no words!

There aint no images!

There aint no moments!

There aint no memories!

One of the happiest moment of my life, clicked just after she got married :-)

Pre - Women's day Special :)

2011-03-04T10:48:00.003+05:30

I wrote this tiny acrostic poetry to celebrate women's day at work!

Winning smile that captivates,

On the first sight
Mysterious and alluding,
Energetic and endearing,
Nobel and Stronger than you ever know!

WOMEN – A Person who can contain, in her emotional strength and determination, the power to sustain and cherish!

Day 02 - The meaning behind your blog name.

2011-03-02T21:59:00.002+05:30

Complexity Personified - The name is self explanatory! :-D

Since the name is not difficult to comprehend ,I would like to state the reason behind the name.

I started changing the blog layout, name, gadgets and all sometime around Feb 2008. That was a trying time for me in life and my feelings were all mixed up. I was complex even to myself. I did not know why I was doing certain things. I regret a few, cherish the others. But i guess depression leads to insanity :P . Temporary Insanity here ;-)

Around 2009 i started having a blogging frenzy, writing poetry and fiction (40 blog posts in a year!). The number of blogs in a month was directly proportional to how disturbed I was. But sad things aside, I will be changing the blog name to something more meaningful and cheerful now that I am moving on with my life.

Any suggestions folks??

PS: Coming up tomorrow "Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends."

Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

2011-03-01T21:22:00.005+05:30

A recent picture of Moi!

Well the above picture is as recent as it gets. clicked on 26 Feb, 2011 (Saturday) when we all went out to a mall. I am just busy reading the menu, when my brother clicked it with his SLR.

You might be wondering why am blabbering about things, which hardly make sense to you. But Trust me, it does to me.

I read my own freakishly depressing blog, before taking up this tag. Am so glad that I have locked the blog from public view, but some memories are too good and create a smile on a dry day. My hope is that this tag will too, atleast 2 years from now :-)

15 interesting facts about Moi!

I read excessively. I read a minimum of 8 to 10 books a month. Maybe due to the quantity I loose out on the author / book name. The fact is I don't care to read the name / author as long as the book is interesting. :)
I have an impressive memory power, which am forever grateful to.
I always worry myself sick, if people close to me take time to respond (Includes my mom not picking up the call, when I call from work). I have the imagination of the worst kind.
I like to lead. People, Conversations, Projects. You Name it!
I am highly authoritative and obsessively controlling. (Just the closest few bare the brunt)
I chew on my fingernails and/or break my knuckles when am tensed.
I cannot for the life of me be idle. I need a book/ game or something to occupy me all the time.
My morale/ confidence can go from extremely low to overtly high in minutes. Sadly, it works vice versa too :P
I am very short tempered. But don't hold grudges.
I can forgive very easily.
I crave for security in my life.
I am super sensitive.
I never cry in front of people. (However close!)
I tell a lot of white lies.
I miss my dad more than I have ever admitted or expressed. I always feel life has been hugely unfair to me.

March all the way through MARCH!

2011-02-28T23:16:00.008+05:30

Well well, looks like someone who vanished without a trail is back and this time for good. No more crap about the relationships, depressions, enmity, confusions , self accusations or any of the sort!

This is me rejuvenated and all good to go! :-D

And what better way to start than a month long TAG. As i blog hopped to some of my old favorites, who are actively blogging, while me the couch potato stares stupefied, i decided I might as well take up the challenge of the 31 day Tag from Annie's blog.

Here is the list of what you might be forced to read,

Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 02 - The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends.
Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn't have?
Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 06 - Favorite super hero and why?
Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.
Day 08 - Short term goals for this month and why?
Day 09 - Something you’re proud of in the past few days.
Day 10 - Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad.
Day 11 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 12 - Your favorite season and why.
Day 13 - Your views on drugs, alcohol and religion.
Day 14 - A picture of you and your family.
Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play?
Day 16 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why?
Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have?
Day 19 - Your earliest memory.
Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future?
Day 21 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 22 - A picture of something that makes you happy.
Day 23 - A letter to someone who hurt you?
Day 24 - Nicknames you have & why do you have them?
Day 25 - What I would find in your bag?
Day 26 - Something you crave for a lot?
Day 27 - What you think about your friends?
Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29 - In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30 - Your first love.
Day 31 - Who are you?

and yeah those who luuurvvveee me , can give me suggestions/ topics to prevent a blogger's block ;-)

Wish me luck sweethearts :) :D

2011-02-24T23:14:00.004+05:30

Will the pain ever cease?

The present seems heart wrenching!

The future seems worthless

The past is one tragic history!

Will things ever be normal again?

Have I lost everything with my dad?

My soul cries out a mighty outpour,

Will the pain ever cease?

I wish I could burst the tank

I wish so bad!

I wish I could unloaded the burden

I wish so bad!

I wish I could forget and move on

I wish so bad!

Will the pain ever cease?

When strangers judge your path

When loved ones distrust you

When you are forced to a cell

cornered and whipped

Fear replaces Love

Authority replaces bonding

Judgement replaces relationships

I flinch inside,

I disintegrate with a pain so physical

it feels a thousand daggers stuck deep

it feels a million needles poked

it feels a pillow smothered

it feels a noose tighten

it feels worthless and endless

the journey of pain embarked

with no rescue

in the cold dungeon

I feel so lonely

I feel so lost

Will my life ever cease?

Happy Woman's Day!!

2010-03-08T10:51:00.002+05:30

To all the women in this world for being unique, caring and lovable

PS: especially to the best woman in my life My MOM, who has been more than caring and understanding especially with a daughter like me :P

Happy woman's day AMMA!!!

Tagged by ILMB gurls in Facebook :)

2009-12-12T23:05:00.003+05:30

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My mom told me, it was one of my cousin's, friends name. :-?? :P

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Nov 26, 2009, My Dads Death Anniversary!

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
kinda yeah!

4. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Of course!

5. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Now why would I do that ? :P

6. HOW DO YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE IN A COUPLE OF YEARS? (REALISTICALLY PLEASE)
I would prefer to be HAPPILY married (LOL)

7. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I want to, but not sure!

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Cherios, Anything Honey Based.

9. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No :D

10. WOULD YOU MOVE AGAIN?
No Idea! Depends....

11. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their Attitude

12. RED OR PINK?
Red

13. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Mood Swings, and not able to say NO, when I HAVE to :|

14. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My DAD.

15. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
I aint tagging anyone! :P

16. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
Pink & white striped Night Pant LOL wit no shoes!

17. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Nothing, except for the neighbors breaking down their house :O :)) * Mannnnn! what are they breaking down at 11 PM &^%&% *

18.WHAT ANNOYS YOU THE MOST?
Back biters, People who Cry/ Whine about their life every living moment !!!

19. FAVORITE SMELL?
Petrol :P

20. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
School Mate

21. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
A lot ! :)

22. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH
Maybe Cricket

23. HAIR COLOR?
Black

24. EYE COLOR?
Black

25. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAJOR REGRETS?
Yeah a lot, better unsaid :)

26. FAVORITE FOOD?
Junk food LOL :P

27. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings :)....Scary ones are a BIGGGGG NOOOOOOOOO!

28. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED, AND WITH WHOM?
Raman thediya seedhai...worst movie. watched @ home, all by myself. You dont really think someone would watch it, let alone give me company! And in my defense I was all alone and bored :P

29. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Black!

30. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter, If at all Chennai experiences it!

31. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hugsssss

32. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Refer Answer 15 ;-)

33. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Again Kindly Refer Answer 15 ;-)

34. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
I am reading some really good translated Books
1) Tamil Folk Tales by Ki.Ra
2) The Story of a Sex Worker ( Malyalam translated)
3) Agatha Christie - Poriot FUll series Yayyyyy!!

I know I overspent on books last month, but totally worth it !!! :-D

35. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
I don't 've one :| :P

36. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
I don't watch tv...(ya ya , Sad I know :( :P)

37.WHAT LITTLE THING MAKES YOU HAPPY?
A lot of things.

Helping someone (by someone I DONT mean friends/ relatives) a total stranger (Old/ kids), and getting a smile back, Totally worth it !!!

Talking & gossiping with my MOM <3<3

Bitching with my girl friends Haha!! :D

I can go on and on, so let me stop :P

38. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles!

39. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Hyderabad! , If College Trips count then Kulu Manali :D

40. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
As a matter of fact I have many LOL. I can do Mehandi designs, cook something really good( If I want to, that is ;-) ), Writing Poetry etc etc etc

41. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Would you be kind enough to refer to answer 15??

42 HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
Let me Rephrase, (Q)How do you want to meet your spouse/ significant other?
(A) While Scuba Diving ( Mannn, now that would be something :P )

As THEY sow, so WE Reap!

2009-11-29T09:28:00.013+05:30

As they SOW,

So WE Reap!

How far have the women in India come forward to claim their rights?

If anyone had asked me this question last week, with complete ignorance I would have replied. " A lot" . My vision of women empowerment or independence for this matter has been narrowly restricted to the confines of my upbringing, school, college and work place, where I should not deny that women have been treated with respect and dignity. I for one have always been from childhood, extremely sensitive about the equality of men and women and would never leave a stone unturned to make my point clear to any male chauvinist I happen to encounter.

But fortunately or rather unfortunately, I happened visit my Native village, and a couple of other villages around it and Man was I shocked by the way women behave( NOTE: i did not mention men ill treat the women. cos that is the bitter truth) I was extremely saddened by the plight of these women who are brought up in a place, where they cant even feel the independence and surely don't lack it.

And I am truly ashamed to say that I could not voice my opinions for the fear of ruining their sentiments and so called culture. what would they think of me ? 'As a independent women showing growth'? No. As a stubborn , arrogant women who lacks respect for men. shortly a female chauvinist. But hey! am not one. I speak about equality.

When will these women realize they are being walked upon on? why is it that in a construction/ agricultural field they are payed way less than that of men, even though they work and toil themselves equally if not more than men?

These are almost the first generation of women who went to WORK. Sadly, it is we who have fed on what they have toiled hard to produce who speak of equality, feminism and everything while they are not even sure they exist?

This is not a plea or a disgrace. This is just an eye opener for me! :-(

The Blind Date!

2009-08-06T02:14:00.005+05:30

He was off to the latest blind date. He dabs some perfume and looks at the mirror, just a glance. He walks swiftly with strong strides to reach the other end of the room to retrieve his wallet and car keys. He would be damned if the girl was JUST another pretty face. He trusted his friend, but off lately since his marriage, he has been trying to hook him up with every possible girl. He knew it was time to settle down. He was ready. A prestigious job, along with his dark muscular frame, not to forget the bank balance, made him an ideal candidate for most girls. But he wanted something more. What was it, he never knew! still he was confident to find it out soon. As he went out, the sun shone brightly, momentarily glazing his view. What a bright sunny evening he thought, as he glided into the leather seats of his sleek sports car. His mind was blank. No anticipation anymore he thought to himself. If it is supposed to happen, it will happen with HER.

She was nervous. She was not the one to go on a blind date. Her best friend has insisted knowing she rarely took time out for herself. Her words echoed in her mind, as she tried on the outrageously revealing gown. "He is one saucy dish. am sure you wont regret the date even if it did not go ahead" She never had time to buy clothes that would fit for occasions. She was in good shape, yet she felt so uncomfortable in the deep neckline of the gown. She decided to change. Oh dear god it is just a date, why am I getting paranoid, she mentally scolded herself and reached out for her comfortable jeans. She saw the kurta sent by her mom on her dressing table. Not too classy but comfortable. she quickly showered and changed. The mascara, lip gloss was all she needed for work. Now she added the lipstick and eye liner. She took out the ear rings, she preferred the long ones. It suits me, she thought with a smile. There was a knock on the door.

Will the pain go away?

2009-08-04T10:55:00.007+05:30

She sat looking at the older woman, in the couch which had seen better years. There was a coffee stain at one edge which appeared fainter but bigger due to the attempts of cleaning, there was a few stitches cleverly crafted in the cushions to make it look like designs rather than torn out parts. She remembered the day it was brought, it was on her 9th birthday. It looked so new and shiny. It could accommodate the constant praises of all people and the weight which it bore gracefully. She could now this second, relate the couch to the older woman, who had been as graceful years back. Now there were lines on her near perfect face. There were scars which could never be healed in her mind. Yet, she was always ready to give and share. Her love astonished her.

Now as she sat there thinking, how is she going to reveal herself of the pain. She knew talking to her would help. But if there was something eating her mind, she knew her MOM would be glad to hear and sort it for her. But this was terrible. Every living second she was being eaten by millions of cells. It was not the Physical pain of the disease but the mental agony of the news she received which had shattered her. The reports declared adinoma carcinoma. And her life had changed that day. Now she wanted to reach out to the older woman and hug her. Will the pain go away?

Hey guys, this is my first attempt at Fiction. Please let me know how I can improvise?

Ten Commandments

2009-07-31T00:44:00.010+05:30

To realize the value of one year: Ask a student who has failed a final exam.
To realize the value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realize the value of one minute: Ask the person who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize the value of one second: Ask a person who has survived an accident.
To realize the value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

but have we ever stopped to Realize the VALUE OF OUR LIFE?

Ask me or anyone who has lost their dear ones. It is an excruciating Pain through which you live the rest of your life. But I guess once you realize that you aren't immortal, you learn to live life in a more simple and meaningful way.

I for one, have had very deep suicidal intentions for most part of my early years. But now I consider it a SIN. Try to understand the minute you are born, you are walking towards death. It can strike you anytime, any day! You should know what a precious gift life is to us and make a meaningful life, so that you don't regret on your deathbed.

I just wanted to tell a few things, which might make you at least think if not execute them. So here goes my TEN COMMANDMENTS FOR LIFE!

1) Every Second of your life is precious. - You never know what may hit you tomorrow!
2) Live life the way you want and NOT the way people want to see you. People come and go out of your life all the times. So be original, no use being a copy cat.
3) Love ever, Hate never. After all what is the use of being angry with a friend or foe for long? So Forget and Forgive!!
4) Spread Kindness and Happiness. - Do the best you can, try to make ONE person smile a day and trust me, the feeling is priceless.
5) Never betray or hurt a person intentionally. - Ruining someone else happiness is SICK! So LIVE and LET LIVE!
6) Convey your LOVE TO YOUR LOVED ONES. Don't regret later about not showing your LOVE! If you aren't that good at words, try a HUG or a KISS!
7) Don't fret about your sorrows - it is a part and parcel of life. Else life will become boring, and HEY! by fretting you loose one day of your precious life.
8)Spend as much of time as possible with your loved ones - Life isn't just for running behind money or career. The money and career is for you to enjoy and share with loved ones!
9) Enjoy the simple things in LIFE. MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING - When was the last time you counted the stars or viewed a sunset?
10) And Last but not the least LOVE YOURSELF - actually this must have been my first point, if you don't love yourself, the other points are baseless.

LIFE IS A GIFT. Once you loose it, there is no way you can get it back!

Tribute to....Ahhh MYSELF ;-)

2009-07-22T01:27:00.002+05:30

You think you know me?
Too bad Honey, I HAVE CHANGED FOR BETTER!
You think I believe that you care for me?
Too bad Honey, ASK IF I CARE!
You think I still Love you?
Too bad Honey, THINK AGAIN!

Yet, am indebted and grateful to you,
YES! For dumping me, for insulting me,
For you have shown me to LOVE myself!

I was astounded as to why,
I was so hung up on YOU!
The cold realization dawned up on me,
Late but better than NEVER!

I can blame it only on my sheer stupidity,
I was craving and starved for LOVE,
I never Loved myself back then!!!!
I was too much in Love with a selfish person,
Who couldn’t give me ONE ounce of LOVE
When my whole world revolved around you!!

I do feel cheated and betrayed,
But HEY, I blame only myself.
That ought to cool your FROZEN HEART!

You know what irks me even now?
The way you wear the ANGEL MASK!
The way you portray yourself to the world,
Of what a kind hearted soul you are??
Nay! Try your luck with some other chick!
For I have moved way far!

I did not ask for gifts, outings!
All I asked was to be LOVED BACK!
And DUHHH it took me half a decade,
To know what you really wanted.

I hardly remember the good times,
Was there just a handful?
And I almost gave up my life for you?
Sheesh what a pity!

I declare now, My LOVE is long lost.
My LOVE has failed, but not ME!
So THANK YOU for letting me GO!

The Proposal...

2009-06-23T00:58:00.003+05:30

As she lays confused about the conflicting emotions,
She takes her phone, clutching on to it,
As if her life depends on the Picture she sees
She starts kissing the phone, unable to reach beyond,
A far away expression mixed with longing etched on her face!
For it is HIM, who is the reason for her happiness!

She is torn by the war raging on her mind.
Too attached to her parents, to go against them
Unable to forget the proposal
Not once, not twice, HE did it again and again.

HE knows, she knows, the end is nearing,
Neither can they believe, nor accept the path of their destiny
Is it sheer stupidity or the love blinding them?
Is there a difference? She asks herself softly.
Only to hear herself crying inside.

Amidst the happiness, there is sadness
Sadness cos both know the Proposal aint enough
Sadness cos she hurts for him and he for her
Sadness cos she is deeply in Love
Sadness cos she said NO!

Apology to my loved ones!

2009-06-10T21:55:00.003+05:30

Pain says give me more!
Heart never learns; a gazillion mistakes;
The story of my life!

As I gaze deep into myself
All I can see are the flaws and some more,
The realization brings in another painful stroke
Of the days bygone, by numerous fights
With friends and foes alike ;
Am I really fit enough to go on?

All I do is give back pain
From the people who shower their love
What a worthless life I lead?
Totally ashamed and embarrassed
To realize my true self!

Life will go on, but the mistakes haunt!
I realize with a coldness in my heart
Apologies are for people who learn
But do I ?

With the physical pain taunting my existence
Of the organ corrupted
I feel bad about the numerous times
I tried to give up on my life!
Resulting in sheer physical pain!
Who do I apologize to?
Myself for being the biggest idiot?

The people for whom I could have died for
Are long gone, leaving me with the pain;
Now I am scared to accept the physical flaw!

Was it something wrong with me all along?
I cry a river inside! Knowing the answer
But never having the guts to accept it
Coward is what I am today!

This is for the people who love me
For my flaws, for the child inside me
A million apologies for the hurt and pain
Caused by this reckless mind!
Even if I am not with you
Remember that I always loved you!

I have no clue why am apologizing for! I am just a little disturbed and wrote crap ! :|

ACROSTIC POETRY :)

2009-06-04T23:42:00.014+05:30

Kindling the deepest passions in me,
Untangling me from my miseries,
My beloved Sweetheart;
Alluring my fears, comforting me,
Ready to be with me forever and ever!
I am spellbound by the affection,
Lovingly over showered on me,
Oh! Am I high or is it your love?
Viewing the future, through your eyes,
Eternity seems seconds away!
You are the one for me, my dearest!
Or life seams as bleak as the past,
U are my everything!

This is just a start LOL. Appreciate the effort people ;-) I plan to write a better one soon, but will do on the same topic so that you can play the critic hehe..

Budday Bash updates!!

2009-05-22T23:05:00.012+05:30

I know am too late on updating this budday bash but damn work and my newly found *ahem ahem* is keeping me busy 24*7 ;-) LOL

Anyway here goes the updates

May 7th

I started getting calls from my sleepy friends who couldn't wait till the clock struck 12 or the sick ones and also the working ones to wish me sooner rather than later on my special day. I had to manage the phone calls and it was damn difficult having two phones :P *i know am blowing my own trumpet, but hey!! I was the princess for the day :) *
I was on call till 2 AM and then forced myself to sleep , as I had to work on my budday *I know Sad :P)

May 8th ...the D DAY!!

The had a wonderful start as my mom hugged me and wished me :-D *the wonders a mothers hug can do for an already special day...WOW I was already on cloud 9 !!*

and then a few of my friends called me before i could get ready for work *it made me late for work but what the heck :P*

Then I went to work and CUT A BLACK FOREST CAKE with my colleagues and had cake smeared all over me * good to know, i can still be treated like a kid :-D*

PS: the cake vanished in thin air before i could have a third helping ;-) :-D :-P

And then I had to wrap up my work by 12:30 and rush back home for my second budday bash with my family, in between calls and work, i somehow managed to get out by 12:30 and reached home by 1 .

Drools my Black forest Cake !! =p~

At home there was another huge black forest cake waiting for me , i even had a tiara hehe....adorning my tiara to emphasis that am a true princess LOL i walked triumphantly to cut my cake with an audience in the number of THREE haha , it was just my mom, my bro and my another BRO RAM ...it was so chweet and simple, i cut the cake again and took my family out for lunch and MAN was I hungry , i hogged like a pig.

Look at the princess ;-) :P

The sweetest family affair !! :)

The princess finally poses...hows my tiara by the way *Ahem Ahem* :P

after this I and ram went out and bought myself my SUNGLASSES back *that a long story will explain later hehe* and then started packing for my adventurous romantic weekend ;-)

I spent some time with my family after long amidst my hectic work and felt very very happy :) then i left for my trip to the mangrove forest !!

May 9th

Here we are an hour away from the mangrove forest and I am too excited by the extension of my birthday to such a beautiful place. I know I cant explain the beauty of this place , so let me just try ...this place is like 3000 acres of backwater and the whole place is surrounded by beautiful trees which looks like huge gigantic shrubs and it is a marvel that these trees grow in salt water. we had to go boating in these waters for 4 hours to reach the beach where the water ends....and MANNNNNN that is the most beautiful beach I have ever seen so far. the sand was glittering ...and since not much people come here (as the only way to go there is by boat) it was isolated from human beings and clean and Perfect. I bought home some SAND , as i was too mesmerized by seeing such pure and glittering sand. and again the sand did not look like lumps as we normally see, but it looked like waves as the water keeps going in and out of the beach. Boating was simply a pleasure and worth sooo much , am glad i went here . especially the place where the boat can hardly go but we are surrounded by a natural tunnel made of these mangrove trees ! I know am not making a very good impression of what i saw, but trust me I cannot, you should see this place to experience it ! I was irritated even to take these pictures, as i wanted to take everything IN at first sight. And i realized one more thing. LOVE at first sight happens for sure with NATURE lol :P ...here is a small collection of pictures from my album to make sense of the above blabbered place LOL :P

We are all set to go in the BOAT :-D :P Oh yeaH , I forgot Motor boats are not allowed as they will spoil the beauty of this place and that is competely justifyable.

Lookie the mangrove trees!! :) This is the path we traveled in...beautiful aint it ??

The path with a natural tunnel!! look we are surrounded by these shrubbery

One more of my Fav pics...look at the sun creeping in at the other side

Our mini TITANIC moving along with the grooves :P

Natural tunnel to protect thy skin LOL

We are moving along awaiting for more scenic beauty

Can you believe this is the path our comparatively huge boat has to go through to view this??

Anyway this is me and my long overdue birthday update :)

Love always
ME

Fossil woods :: Expedition number THREE!!!

2009-05-11T23:36:00.012+05:30

My next expedition was to an archeological site. I had been wanting to visit this place since I heard about it. No prizes for guessing who enlightened me about this place LOL *Blush blush* :-D

This place is near to Pondicherry. So here I was with one hardly free day MAY 1st on Laborer's day all planned to see the wood fossils of Tiruvakarai. I had to leave by 7 AM (SO sad but def'ly worth it :P). The bus stand really irritated me and almost spoiled my mood, when a cranky fully crowded bus came up, I made up my mind to go for this bus, cos standing in the bus stand wasn't fascinating me in the least. So even though the ride was extremely horrible, i had the pleasure of being seated on the engine right next to the driver hehe. It was kind of fun ;-).

We reached Pondicherry around 11 and then got an vehicle to go to Tiruvakarai. But bloody office can't leave an lady alone to have fun right? they called me 2-3 times and asked me to come to office. Here I am almost 4 hours away from Chennai and they expect me to leave my expedition to go and work for them !!!! Duhh I had better plans. Even though I had to waste almost an hour convincing them that I would be back by evening and work, I had the satisfaction of scolding my HR for trying to drag me on a holiday and that too on laborer's day. ;-D

Anyway the drive was almost an hour and I visited a chicken farm on the way and then reached this place.

Hey look at this cute little Chick ;-)

We keep going Qwack Qwack Qwack :P

Man was i dumb founded, the rock fossils no way look like stone, they look like wood pieces scattered around only. But when you touch them you can feel the texture of the stone rather than wood. This region in and around teh fossil park has these wood barks scattered all around in the natural scenery and you will be amazed as I was to know that, they are 20 million years old. I was so intrigued by the fact that I wanted to snap some of my pictures with these fossils , cos I will be long gone but the fossils will still be there in the same place for years and generations to come.

When I came back, I googled some of the information about this place but sadly even though this is almost an marvel, there are not much people who know about this place or much promotion for this wonder. All i could manage to get was this

"It's the only Petrified Forest in India. Other petrified wood forests are in Santa Cruz, Argentina, National park in northeastern Arizona, Lesvos (Greece), Curio Bay (New Zealand), and Nová Paka (Czech Republic). Southern Alberta in Canada has the largest petrified forest in the world, covering thousands of kilometers.

Petrified wood is a type of fossil where all the organic materials are replaced with minerals (silicate such as quartz). It is amazing to note that the original structure of the wood is retained. The petrification process occurs underground. When mineral rich water flows through the sediment, it deposits minerals in the plant's cells. The plant's lignin and cellulose decay away and a stone mold forms in its place. The wood is preserved due to lack of oxygen. Elements such as manganese, iron and copper in the water give petrified wood a variety of color ranges. The wood fossil at Thiruvakarai was brown in color which shows the presence of iron oxide. Petrified wood preserves the original structure of the wood in all its detail. Structures such as tree rings can be seen with the naked eye.

People who visit South India should not miss this petrified wood forest. One can travel from Chennai to Pondicherry or Chennai to Tindivanam. Thiruvakarai is located between Tindivanam and Pondicherry. It is better to get down at Mylam and then go to Thiruvakarai."

Welcome :P !!

One of the Huger Fossils lying around!

One of the longer ones!! Imagine how mighty it might have looked 20 million years back :O

These looked kind of kewl, and they were among the first which captured my attention!

Can you believe this is a fossil aka Stone??

My Foot Prints on a fossil!! b-)

I will be long gone, but be sure you remember me after a million years ;-)

Cute small ones!!

Anyone who wants to know more about this place, do let me know, I will be more than glad to help you see 'an one of of a kind' PLACE .

Isn't it amazing that these wood fossils have survived for so long? But trust me this is a place which is a must visit and am very very glad that I could go and view them. I wouldn't suggest you to go from April - June as the heat is too high , the rainy season would be more preferable .

Come what may , this was truly one of the amazing trips of my life.

PS: I have a lot of my birthday pictures and will update you on that soon. watch this place for my visit to the MANGROVE forest in INDIA, ranking second only after Sunderbans :)

Crocs bEwArEeeEE!!

2009-04-30T01:10:00.017+05:30

Dearest readers,

Well Well Well …Looks who has been traveling around, too busy to even update their blog.

After 6 months of depression, hatred, love, pain, loneliness, someone is finally back in the track towards happiness. As you all had the patience to endure my poetic musings, I would now love it if you could bear with my constant jabbering about my various traveling expeditions because that what I intend to do for the next couple of weeks :-P

I already went to Jail, as you all know from my previous post, the next expedition was to the crocodile bank. And Mann was it fun ? :-D . I had tons of fun watching the crocodiles ( don’t think duhh what a geek :P) cos I have always been fascinated by these beautiful species which has withstood natures hardest terrains and climatic changes to survive along with us. I have heard that crocs have been around since dinosaurs were around. That makes them mighty special innit?

Anyway apart from viewing these species of all types and sizes, there were three things which fascinated me the most.

1. The croc aquarium. Yeah, you heard it right. This one is like you can watch the crocs from the top and also from a glass under the water, to have a glimpse of these creatures hardly a feet in front of you and in their territory..WATER! Have a look as these three crocs beautifully swim across in front of me while the hugest one just lies down silently.

Oh my goodness, they look like floating angels. If only they weren’t so dangerous *sighs* :P

2. The next thing which captivated my attention was this huge pen, where there are more than 100 crocs for sure ( PS: I counted till 100 hehe:-D) . As I was awed by watching so many of these deadly ones, right infront of me, there comes the care taker reading my mind. He came up to me and asked, do you wanna feed them? 60 rs/ KG. I am like Whoa! Definitely. Am not missing on this one :P
3. Lalala last but not the least, try not to get disgusted, but I actually held a baby croc (Itz 2 years old or rather two years young by the way ;-) ) for more than 2 minutes. Can you believe it ? I cant haha !! =))

This one was so slimy, I was feeling eeewww, but still I felt a sort of foolish pride to hold such a dangerous species in my hand :P the care taker said even though its small its bite can cause blood injuries and unless you have a good grip on its neck, the chances of he biting me is way too high :P , that could not stop me too ;-) . I held it and almost kissed it (Yeah right! ewww again ) but was kinda scared cos if he kisses back, I would have to loose my lovely lips haha !! LOL

I also had the opportunity to hold a baby python but sheesh they are so slimy, I could have puked right there ! (Don’t Ask me why I Did not puke for holding the croc. He was amazing :P)

Hope you guys are not bored by my expeditions, cos I sure as hell am not ;-) . I have some plans for some great places. But bull shit work is keeping me from enjoying myself. Whatever the heck am gonna continue my expeditions and update them as and when time permits.

To know more about the place I visited click here

Love

Seno !!

My 50th post Yay!! My Visit to JAIL!!

2009-04-16T01:26:00.008+05:30

I am very proud of my blog today for hitting an half century finally after 3 years of turmoil LOL ! I have become an active blogger very recently, so I hope I can keep up with the pace of updating it as I did it for the last few months.

Anyway coming to the topic,

Today's topic is nothing but a description of ONE of the best days in my life since a very long time. I don't mean to say I wasn't having fun, but being in pure Bliss and having fun are two totally different things and I was fortunate enough to understand and enjoy it last Sunday. :-)

I went to CENTRAL JAIL (lol) last Sunday, and before you make your assumptions, I will try to enlighten you with my little knowledge about the place. The Chennai Central jail was built during 1850's and today I prefer to call it a Monument. This monument which has sheltered so many criminals and freedom fighters alike is going to be broken down to pieces. So the government has made this open for PUBLIC. finally something good from our government I would say! ;-) and i was intrigued to see the place where so many famous and notorious people have been.

I went with someone special *wink wink* which made it doubly special. ;-)
We spent the entire afternoon going into every cell and i tried to find the bits and pieces of art work left by the prisoners. It is really kinda spooky or weird feeling to be in the place where criminals were and to think how depressed even they were in such a suffocating place. I personally would not recommend it to anyone of you LOL!!

There was an eerie feeling in lot of the cells, as if the person who stayed there had lost their soul and only the body was waiting for the release. I have no clue what they were really thinking, but I could see HATE, LOVE, DEPRESSING graffiti s all over. I managed to click a few with my low pixel camera cell, so I don't promise you a visual treat :-D , but I just wanted to share some of the pictures with you guys. And in this post I would prefer for the pictures to do all the talking rather than me as a significance to my 50th post.

This is how depressing I would have got, had i been there :P

Can you see the criss crossed calender of a soul craving for freedom or counting his days?

One of the blocks in the Jail...sends shivers down my spine thinking of the people who stayed there :|

Can you believe, they call this a storage place, and before i forget, its not for the prisoners but for the men in uniform *rolls eyes*

Lord Murugan Graffiti ... Spirituality has no bounds!!

An extension of the Spirituality ...the Holy Cross!!

A graffiti of a enraged woman probably !!

A graffiti of the famous south Indian hero turned politician MGR !

Weapons!! really???

I wonder how much efforts the prisoner took to make something like this ?!!?

Here comes the Hindu Fanatic again!!

The so called political Wing ! Here the prisons have a lot of privileges comparatively like reading the newspaper or writing * frankly I thought privileges had some other meaning:| *

One of the first Blocks I visited !!

A real cell :: The view from outside!

Oh welcome inside to the doomed world :|

My idea of how depressed one would be in such a cell. Its like am gazing outside craving for the freedom !

And yeah I would like to thank that someone special for giving me one of the most wonderful days of my lives. I am happy all thanks to you, so am dedicating my 5oth post to you. Thank you sooooooo much !! *bows* :)

The Oscar winners of my Love Life !=))

2009-04-04T01:26:00.008+05:30

Hey everyone!

With due apologies to everyone who had to endure my poetic phase last month, am posting something which is not a poem now. :P I guess i got carried away by my emotions.

Anyway enough of that, last night I was discussing with my friend about the pathetic state my LOVE life is in LOL =)).

And my friend had the guts to make up a small version of a mini Oscar with my life and I felt embarrassed and good after hearing it. Am not mentioning names though for privacy reasons haha!

The Much awaited Oscar results and nominees have finally been submitted. and I know you are all eager to know the results. so here we go....

BEST FEMALE ACTRESS - Obviously Me! *bows down* I never felt I would be honored enough to be nominated and thinking I have won makes me cry with JOY! I thank all of you for supporting me all the along to achieve this. I would be lying if I say i did not think I will win, cos after all all the forthcoming awards are based on me HAHA!

BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR - Dedicated one and only to my brother who has been through with me all along. especially the bad phases and of course he will always win this award hands down all his life.

BEST ACTOR IN NEGATIVE ROLE : Here comes the marvelous twist of Hero turned Villan. The best MALE LEAD , and most wanted actor has unfortunately bagged the best role in villanous category ! The negative end to the story came as much as a surprise to me, but that does not exclude him from the nominees list or for bagging an well deserved award for five years of dedication! LOL

BEST COMEDIAN : This person got nominated and selected overnight LOL. For being an amazing person and for being one of the best things that happened to me in life. Not to forget this entire script has been directed by him! I have only added some spice to this story for making it a decent read to the viewers :) and ya thanks for being so supportive, caring and loving. and be happy that you got nominated dude =))

LIFE TIME ACHIEVEMENT AWARD : This is dedicated to the first person who got a chance into the story. Being young and as inexperienced as he was, he could unfortunately not make it as a HERO in the story but he ended up being in love with the story for more than 8 years which makes him the right person to receive this award !

The last and most anticipated award of the night ,

BEST ACTOR: *drop dead silence*

The Best leading Actress award winner is going to give a small speech for making it a little more spicy.

*clears throat* well I am very happy to be on this stage for not only receiving but also giving away an award. Am sorry to say this but unfortunately all the nominees weren't fortunate enough to bag an award. The nominees are requested to digest this information with a pinch of slat HEHE!

and Sorry to disappoint you viewers again , but this award will unfortunately be decided by the only person in the judging panel aka MY MOM. So unless the horoscopes, caste and bullshit of this person does not match with mine, the award would have to be indiscriminately postponed apparently =)). so please wait and watch for this space to get filled in the near future.

.........and thanks to everyone for listening to this Crap of mine LOL!

A desperate plea ! :P

2009-03-31T07:54:00.001+05:30

Let me free, let me spread my wings
Let me fly high, let me fall deep;
Then gather me up, and show your care
Show me your love, like I never flew.
But gimme a chance to fly!

Let me talk, Let me ramble,
Let me till am exhausted, then
Lend me your shoulder to cry
Hug me, kiss me, soothe me
Tell me things will be fine.
Assure me, love me
For am lonely and scared
Confused and withering!

Teach me to talk, teach me to walk
Teach me all simple things
Confess your love as you do!
Make me feel lively, make me a kid again
Pamper me, for am all vulnerable;

Make me melt at your care,
Make me crave for more,
Keep showering unconditionally
I need the love, I need the care
For what you offer is not suffice
For all the hurts of the past!

Get me out of my shell, slowly
Talk to me, tell me how good I am
Tell me how worthy I am; as you,
Confess your love for eternity.

As I am in deep thoughts
Gazing through you, at my past
As the pain of the lost freezes me
Hold me, and sense the pain
The hurt of a broken soul,
Let the hands heal me,
For words cannot soothe the scars!

There is a long way to go
Promise to stay by me;
Promise to heal me;
Promise to love me forever
Promise to make me special!

And then I shall swear to love you
Until death does us apart!

Tagged by Apurva !! I love this one!

2009-03-29T01:22:00.005+05:30

Dear Kumar,
I don't really know how to tell you this,Our affair is over. I think I realized it When I threw up in your sock drawer, At the mental hospital and I saw you Pour syrup on My salt-beef bucket. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand How awful you are. I'm returning Your love letters to me to you, but I'll keep My common sense as a memory. You should also know that I Love your sweet, sweet ass and Our friendship is ruined.

Love always,
Prabha

Here's how you do it..
TAG 10 PEOPLE OR MORE AND THEN....
Dear (person you spoke to recently,
I don't really know how to tell you this, (1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm surre you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12),
Name

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your pants?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself

Tagged by Apurva. Love ya babes for this. it really lifted my spirits haha

I pass on this tag to all of you who are as crazy as me to love this tag !

Betrayal!

2009-03-28T21:34:00.001+05:30

Love is but a misery,
Yet knowingly the heart ventured
Ready to strip the soul
Defenseless dedication and adoration
Etched in every nerve for you,
Yet you never seem to notice!

When I needed Protection,
When I craved for shelter,
When I wanted to disintegrate,
From myself and the world,
You promised hope, you promised love,
Of a future which mocks me now.
And a lonely lost woman was born.

She created a castle in her paradise island,
Where love conquers but never destroys,
The struggle, the pain, the hardship,
Seemed all worthy,
As I watched through the eyes of
The lonely and lost woman in the castle.

It shook me to see your negligence,
You never seemed interested enough to care,
You were in your own world,
Throwing bits and pieces once in a while
You took her for granted,
When all she wanted was YOU!

But did her hope extinguish?
It only forced her to live in dreams,
For it was less painful and cherishable
She continued to strive against the odds!

Till one fine day, you walked in,
And broke the castle, little knowing
That you broke the only resident
The lonely lost woman
Along with her castle and dreams!

As she looks with sad eyes,
Filled with tears and regret,
Her pride refuses to call out to you!!
She endures the suffering, as she
Is broken apart along with the castle.

Did you stop to care?
Did you ever realize , what you have done?
As she tried to mask her fears,
As she struggles to survive
She smiles for the world,
While sobbing deep inside her.
She laughs, she talks, she breathes
With an enormous effort
Fearing the fakeness creeping inside!
Why did you have to rip her apart?
And then turn away, like it never mattered?

Did she not deserve some Care?
Did here eyes not plead with you?
How could you be so rude?
How could you kill her?

As you happily march past her,
She sits and watches with a longing
That can never EVER bring her back.

Thanks for the Betrayal!

Dead Inside!

2009-03-26T20:57:00.002+05:30

I am broken and lost!
I went on for years, without breaking apart
Belling my inward cowardice;
Fear of rejection, fear of failure
Made me mould my mask
Smoothening till perfection
A clone was born to taunt me;

Clone but well trained
Laughed when I cried inside
Soothed and consoled souls aplenty
While I am dying away inside
Creating an identity
While overshadowing mine!

Life seemed easier;
As people started preferring the clone
Over the shattered soul.
The mask tightened over myself
Burying me deeper

I cried out for release
I cried out for my soul
As days passed by
I became feeble and weak
My elastic limit stretched
I lay motionless, and incapable
As the clone was conquering

Now as love turns into misery,
The clone drifts far away. and
Amidst the rage of emotions
Tearing me apart, I try to
Peek a little at my dry life
Only to realize
Am dead inside!

A joyous hearts somersault!

2009-03-25T18:21:00.005+05:30

A lonely phase, a lull in my heart,
Broken ties, severed relationships
Betrayal of mortals and immortals alike;
Hardening my shell, constricting me!

Finally a scorch of heat, a spring of joy;
On the hardest terrain; My heart.
A hope of a budding Friendship
Genuine and one in reality!
Makes me confused and ponder,
About the world I revolve around
The safe illusional Virtual bubble!
Can reality peek in? Amidst the coldness?

I let my heart go fonder,
Because of the striking similarities,
the paths we crossed were identical,
The pain of life’s tragedy faced? Miserable!
The sharing to lessen it? Memorable!
Similar thoughts, similar attitudes
From Arrogance to Atheism!

The Mind did not hear the warning bells
The bonding well reciprocated, yells my soul!
Till tragedy struck in a full blow,
Just as the hope swelled,
Turbulence of emotions engulfing me
Distraught, Despair, Betrayal! Yet again?
Unable to react, dumbfounded
Yet the silly heart yearns for the friendship!

As the fear overrides me, I am forced to face the reality,
Pushed into the corner, lonely and lost;
I hear myself shattering, as you see through me
Like we never shared, liked I never exist
The coldness in you, the indifference in you,
Makes my dreadful past surface
With all the pain n misery, eating me alive!

As I gather up myself, to face you yet again
I fear for the coldness, I fear for myself
As fear transforms to anticipation;
And excitement turns to reality,
Sighing at the way Life taunts,
I gather up my wits to face
Yet another cold mundane day
But something entraps my attention
Jerking me to reality, When am far lost in Illusion
The bitter realization of the lost friendship
My body shudders as I Give in my last attempt;
I smile, and I actually see you responding,
O dear god! Am I hallucinating?

The blame game, the anger, the frustration,
Was it really worth the pain?
As we fight, I grin and some more
For gaining the lost! As I ask myself,
Was this melodrama for realization?
Or a brief stint of my Pain dosage for the day?
We are still fighting, blaming and accusing,
My grin is sheepish and I just can’t stop!

Let the awkward pauses fade,
Lets act as if nothing went wrong,
Return me to my Safe Reality bubble
And for once its TRUE ,creating

Multitude of happy tides,
Numerous reasons to smile
Pure joy etched in my heart,
I am happy to be alive!
Because of you my dear Friend!

A new Start, a new Begining!

2009-03-23T23:59:00.001+05:30

A new start, a new beginning;
Always enticing, always excites!
The wonder of the mystery,
Of what lies ahead, intrigues;
Contemplating the good, bad and the evil,
The optimist in me runs to the aid,
Pushing aside the peeping pessimism
Future days of the new beginning,
May unfold as memories
Either preferring to be locked deep inside,
Or brings a Smile to cherish,
Of the time well spent, the time relished.

As I leisurely march past,
The scurrying crowd,
My youth and vigor, Fails
To entrap the rush, the hustle
Of the day anticipated.

Nobody seems to drink in the beauty,
Of the early mist, shimmering Sun,
The twittering birds, the swaying leaves
The holy serenity is disrupted
By the swarming people in all directions.
For this is yet another beginning amidst aplenty!

As I see down leisurely, enjoying
My new beginning, my freedom,
I realize I need this time for me
I rejoice the feel of the paper and ink
Giving me the power of words
Inspiring me; eluding me;
I begin this day with the assurance
Of a decision well made
Tempting to reveal the new Start,

Of my first Bus Journey in Solitude.

111 Truths :: Self tagged!!

2009-03-22T11:56:00.002+05:30

Tagged by SELF ! :-P
1. Last beverage? Tea. Yesterday morning at 10 :O :-D
2. Last phone call? Ram ( it almost always is...PS: my bro :D)
3. Last text message? From Vodofone(LOL) ...To : Eh... my colleague
4. Last song you listened to? Tere mere beech mein....ek duje keliye (M in love with it again for now!)
5. Last time you cried? Let me think ....:-?? No idea...WOW...arrr..Feb 25th my dads birthday :|

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice? Do you mean after the relationship is over? Nah, Never!
7. Been cheated on? Emotionally cheated yes. Else NO!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Been kissed by someone and regretted it :|
9. Lost someone special? Lost almost everyone i loved :| Esp my DAD ! :'(
10. Been depressed?The question should be "ever been out of depression?" :| Ouch these truths hurt :'(
11. Been drunk and threw up? too embarrassed but YES !! :-D

12.LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS
1. Black
2. Blue
3. Baby Pink
4. Violet

HAVE YOU:
13. Made new friends? Yeah, all the time!! :-D
14. Fallen out of love? Yes, but was one of the hardest things to do!and still unsuccessful !!
15. Laughed until you cried? I dont have anything better to do than Laugh!! :-D ...and "laughed till i cried" happened just last weekend, with my mom LOL *when we are on a Virtual matrimonial meet making fun of all the guys haha!* the bonding between mom and daughter <3
16. Met someone who changed you? I get inspired by the good in everyone around me. so yes!
17. Found out who your true friends were? Yes and the Truth was not very pleasant.
18. Found out someone was talking about you? I am so irresistible LOL that people do it all the time hehe. But ask me if i care ;-)
19. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? My ex is in my Friends list :P
20. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? 80% maybe, others I have know for at least 3 years though we have never met!
21. How many kids do you want to have? No idea! But would love Twins of any kind...identical Pleaseeeee... LOL
22. Do you have any pets? I love pets , mine is sitting in blue cross now and this question so sucks for the timing. Given a chance i would love to live with animals rather than human beings in my paradise island :) *starts dreaming*
23. Do you want to change your name? Err...why ?? *eh ...confused* but NO!
24. What did you do for your last birthday? Now this is a good question. I had a blast at office. First working budday Yayyy!! , was in a relationship back then, so had the kinda first long distance relationship budday ...that was weird LOL. but my colleagues made sure i have a blast and smeared cake all over me *smiles fondly* and then got gazillion calls from all over the globe hehe. Last but not the least , had a second budday cake with my brother and again smeared all over me, and was sitting like a pig in the middle of a park haha!
25. What time did you wake up today?I advice weak hearts not to read this :)) , but yeah i got up at 7 AM. SURPRISE dat too on a sunday LOL....damn work has changed my timings :'( hehe
26. What were you doing at midnight last night? Again Surprise...I was sleeping, Man can you believe it ? let alone you ,even I cant believe it . I blame WORK !! :'(
27. Name something you CANNOT wait for : Eh?? Well i gets whims and fantasies of what I want and at such times, i need them ASAP haha, it may be as simple as an icecream to the diamond pendant LOL
28. Last time you saw your father? :| ..I dunno how such a question can strike me so deep..i was having fun writing this :'( ...Nov 26, 2007 :|:| till 6:10 PM...and never will i see him again. I saw him alive till Nov 26, 2007 2 PM. :|:| shit shit ..sorry i got carried away :'(
29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Shut it down forever maybe? :|
30. Most visited webpage? Orkut, Gmail, Blogger, Raaga, Facebook, Yahoomail, and recently tamilmatrimony LOL

PERSONAL

31. What's your name? Prabha Rajagopalan
32. Nicknames? Prabha, Prabhu, Amu , kutty, Prabhs, SENO, sen, cindy, Lala and hell lot more ;-)
33. Relationship Status? SINGLE !! *AM very keen on that one haha ;-) *
34. Zodiac sign? Taurus - The bull!
35. Male or female or transgendered? Female.
36. Elementary school? Some Lakes(Sorry forgot the name :P) (LOL) California, USA.
37. High School? Balalok, Chennai.
38. Colleges? Vels srinivasa , Chennai.
39. Hair color? Black.
40. Long or short? Short.
41. Height? 5'5, pretty average :'( sad I know :'( hehe
42. Do you have a crush on someone? No ..again Sad LOL !! :P
43: Ever been in love? Yes.
44. Piercings?Only ears. I am shit scared of an injection let alone a piercing to have another :P
45. Tattoos? I love them, but heard it hurts so NO :P
46. Righty or lefty? Righty

FIRSTS :
47. First surgery? So far NONE!
48. First piercing? First and last only ears and i was one year old ! :-D people take advantage even of one year old dese days...man what has the world come to LOL!
49. First best friends? Joy and ALice in elementary school. Then Jyothsna and malar in my primary education * i have no idea where these people are right now but its nice to remember*
50. First sport you joined: Gymnastics :-D ...and yeah i was pretty good at it * fond memories*
51. First pet? a colored chicken. can u believe that ?? HAHA...and yeah it was a Florescent PINK!!
52. First vacation? I have no clue! Maybe bahrain ?? *i was 3 years old, my memory cant get any better :P) or my Native place, cos when i was one, they took me there or am told!
53. First concert? I din know about concerts till very late. But my brothers Mirudangam arengetram LOL ( kinda like the first time you play a musical instrument in front of a crowd after learning it well enough to play in a stage of course!)
54. First crush: A random guy who was married *shit embarrassing even now* . At 12, i was worried that he is married :)
Miscellaneous:
55. Last date? I have never officially been on a date :| so maybe in 2003 December :|:|:|
56. If in a relationship, who proposed to whom? It was kinda mutual. Now not in one!
57. Present best friends? Krupa!!
58. Last vacation? A holy trip to Kalahasthi LOL. Did i forget to mention, am an atheist ?? :P
59. Given a chance to settle anywhere on earth, where would you go? In a Private island! Like i said before, jus me and my pets will do :)
60. Biggest fear? Death :|
61. Last fist fight: I hit my EX 2 weeks back i guess LOL :P
62. Craziest thing you ever did in your life? A lot, some cherishable, some regrettable, but everything worth it to spice up my life :-D
63. Hidden talents? M multi talented LOL....I have an extremely good memory power when am in the right state of mind.
64. The best moments of life? Everyday, Till i was 10 years old!
65. Things you'd like to change about yourself? My craziness, My anger, My fears, My disappointments, My failures, My life, this list can be never ending haha
66. Party animal or couch potato? Couch potato to the core!
67. How do you like to spend weekends? Sleeping, reading books, writing my heart out. and once in a while going out somewhere , right now i want to hit the beach ALONE!
68. Hobbies? Reading, writing, music, blogging, talking ,surfing the net, doing mehandhi, inventing crazy stories inside my mind, laughing (yeah all r my hobbies even if u dont think so:P) haha!
69. Latest movie you watched? Seven pounds...was sad but I liked it !
70. If your girlfriend/boyfriend cheated on you, what would you do? I will give him a second chance. Life is all about making mistakes!
71. The most embarrassing and the most proud moment of your life? Embarrassing- I was in this flight Loo and a guy opened the door. Shit was it embarrassing dammit ( PS: i was very decent)!! Proud- the way I handled my dad's death and the trying time before it after being the pampered princess for 21 years !

RIGHT NOW:
72. Eating? Nope
73. Drinking? Nope, but have to have coffee dammit.*screams MUMMMY COFFEEE :P*
74. I'm about to? go to the beach maybe!
75. Listening to? Allu Allu (Tamil song :P)
76. Waiting for? a lot of things. too many to mention here :P

YOUR FUTURE :
77. Want kids? Yes, i would love to have TWINS! ;-)
78. Want to get married? Not in the near future(though my stars are apparently not in favor of that:P) but hell yeah!
79. Careers in mind? How about a home maker? LOL ...I wanna be a Psychiatrist ! :|

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
80. Lips or eyes? Eyes...tells more about the person!
81. Hugs or kisses? A warm Hug any day !
82. Shorter or taller? Taller
83. Older or Younger? Def'ly Older...no immature kiddish boys for me anymore please !!:P
84. Romantic or spontaneous? Romantic all the way!
85. Nice stomach or nice arms? Eh...never thought about this, but I guess arms!!
86. Sensitive or loud? Either Sensitive or I will show you the way out LOL :P
87. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship leading to a future !!
88. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble maker !!

HAVE YOU EVER :
89. Kissed a stranger? ??!!?!?!??
90. Lost glasses/contacts? I have never worn glasses or lenses!
91. Sex on first date? Hell no!
92. Broken someone's heart? I guess yes! but never intentionally !
93. Had your own heart broken? Yes and it sucks !
94. Been arrested? No LOL. but yeah once i went to the police station at 2:00 AM(midnight hehe) cos i was lost during a religious overnight something(it is like going around a huge mountain at midnight and there were millions of people). I and my friend ending up eating all the biscuits, puffed rice and juice from the police men till my mom came to collect us haha!
95. Turned someone down? Yeah!
96. Cried when someone died? :| Dont wanna talk about it !
97. Liked a friend that is a boy? Yeah! But was just a crush that lasted 2 weeks LOL :P

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
98. Yourself? Yes, but recently not too much!
99. Miracles? No way!
100. Love at first sight? No. Then its all about looks. we are talking about LOVE here people, you need to know the person sheesh! :P
101. Heaven? No.
102. Santa Clause? Would like to believe ;-)
103. Kiss on the first date? A sweet peck on the cheek - yeah, but a lustful one NO! :P
104. Angels? I wish LOL.
105. God? - Not in the least ANYMORE!
106. Devils - I am the devil mwahahah!! :P

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
107. Is there one person you want to be with right now? I dont want anyone. am sick of relationships right now!
108. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No. And i never will.Am too good in that way alone :P. For the love of god, i love my bloody ex even now when i can venture into greener pastures LOL
109. Wanted to kill someone ever? - Yeah, I still do: Myself :P
110. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? - LOL NO, NEVER...there is a lot of fish in the sea after all :P
111. Posting this as 111 Truths? Yes. everything is truthful, i can swear by a bible LOL!

I pass on this tag to anyone who are as bored as me in Life lol :P. and yeah i added 11 more ;-)

My first Blog Award !!

2009-03-19T00:33:00.003+05:30

My first Blog award !! Yay!!

You may think am fussing like i have won an oscar? then you are DAMN right =))

I would like to say that, I want to thank my parents, teachers, friends online included:) , colleagues, BOss, and every single person who have directly or indirectly helped me in getting this award :)) LOL!!

Tons of thanks and kisses to Annie ! I have no clue why you gave it to me though :P

What need i say abt My Guardian Angel??? Ur the bestest!!! she in someone who shoots from the mouth, words coming straight from the heart!!! :)

And thanks you apurva for my kinda second award too. Man am i Happy or what hehe!!

I want to dedicate this award to

Nabila - This girl can give anyone a complex when she starts to pen down her poems . You can find it out yourself click here

Ashrita - This girl started blogging very recently and am so confused, why the hell couldn't she have started way back. You are too good. Keep going! Click here to explore!

Anu - My best mate, and an amazing writer when the mood strikes her. She expresses herself very well. Knowing her a lot better , i know how brutally honest her poems/ posts are. A word of caution is advised before entering this highly sensible blog by clicking here

Apurva aka Crazy freak - The little one, who is so chwwet. Dont know much about her, but I like the way she writes and cares for everyone. Your guy is one Lucky DUDE :) Click here, you know you want to ;-)

Gargi - This is a surprise package. She writes so well and about so many issues. I love the way you present your thoughts. Must read CLick here ASAP!

Annie - I give it back to her also, cos she is also one of the most amazing bloggers i have seen so far. and a doubly amazing person with a charming personality! Click here for a good read!

Emotions Turbulence !!

2009-03-15T19:08:00.006+05:30

Recently I have been experiencing a turbulence of emotions at frequent intervals. That explains the outrageous number of poems I have been writing. Today i took a break from poetry which are always related to any human emotion like Hate, sadness, happiness etc etc and for the first time wrote about a Place I love.

As I see you, Oh! Mighty one,
I realize with a longing,
in an amateur poetess's heart,
Words can only do Injustice!

I bow down to your esteemed presence,
as the sense of tranquility prevails
capturing me into a trance.

Your tides are so fierce ,
Yet when you hit the shores,
there is a humbleness in your sacrifice
for the selfish mortal's pleasure.

As i see you moving
back and forth with every bounce..
I see your sacrifice
reading joy even in the faces
of the most arrogant sapiens !

As the silent observer in me,
hunts the faces of all ages..

I see the children scattered around,
Unafraid and Shrieking
in the highest of decibels
entering to discover,
the Vastness in you!

The lovebirds seem undisturbed,
In every nook and corner
chirping within themselves
in the lowest of decibels!
enjoying the bonding in solitude
letting the eyes do all talking
and seeking heavenly comfort
in the lovers arms, I realize
words fade near the mighty you!

I can also see a few of the
withered ones,
not by grace,
not by heart,
not in the least by charm,
But by the sheer age!
I can see their eyes twinkling
as they enjoy the breeze!

And last but not the least
I see a few unlikely souls
like me inhaling the serenity
which you are ever ready to give.

Come what may!
You are a source of
unadulterated pleasure!
whose generosity
is over showered
on every passer by!

Now as the boats move further away,
towards the unknown horizon,
I begin to wet my feet
just for the sheer endurance,
of the soft kisses
you bestow upon me..
I can see you smiling,
I can see you mocking,

Oh! Mighty OCEAN ,
You are forever a mystery!

I am on a roll or what :-P

2009-03-15T10:45:00.005+05:30

Hey guys, I am on a roll with this so called poetry phase LOL. I guess my poetry is somewhat closer to the real meaning of Poetry by now :-D. I know I self proclaim my writing as poetry but that's not why I am posting this.

So the other day I was talking to a friend in Yahoo and he said "BRB 10 mins." . .....As everyone knows an ideal mind is a devils workshop, my ideal mind became a Poets workshop LOL. by the time, he came back , i penned this. And like all my poems, this is also not edited . Straight from the heart. :)

And yeah! I am crazy, impulsive and all crappy hehe.

Again a Dedication to one of my Friends AKA advance Birthday Gift hehe

Did I ever stop to tell you?
How good you make me feel?
How happy you make me?
Its about time honey!!

I never dreamed of befriending
A soul I barely knew
When I was amidst Self destruction
Breaking away from myself!

Your Flirting caused me to smile and
Avoid the turmoil shattering me
Your friendliness gave me a new hope
To explore the horizons never dreamt

Think what you may of me
But trust is what I have in you
Your words are soothing
Your actions are comforting
I rose up to the challenge
When I found a hand to hold on!

It was you my dearest,
Who brought me to the shores,
When I was waddling neck deep
In the hues of Blues!!

I found a friend in you
I found happiness in thy heart
I may not have reciprocated
The love you have shared
But when the clock strikes Panic
I shall float to your support
Lean on me sweetheart
There is nothing to fret
Lets sail on together in bliss!
Amidst the mighty hues of blues!!

A simple budday wish from my heart to yours!!

2009-03-13T00:11:00.005+05:30

A brother so dear
Is hard to find!
Amidst chaos and strangers
I found a soul so naïve
Hard to resist
Harder to Understand

We found each other by fate
We became closer by choice
And here we are
Siblings for eternity!
We may not be bonded by Blood,
But we share a bond deeper
Misunderstood by aplenty
Misjudged by a few
And envied by many!

You have been a constant pool of strength
Actively involved
In the roller coaster
I call my LIFE!
You are bound to fret
When you see my lows!
You fear not for thy
As your presence gives me strength
To make up for all I have lost

Times spent with you
Are cherished forever
You brought back
The tide of happiness
In my ever lonely sad life
The naggings, the dumbness
Every single thing is worth remembrance!

You are my punching bag
When am frustrated!
You are my security blanket
When am scared
You are my best friend
When all I want is to get high
You are my brother
To protect me as I get higher
You are my everything
When I have nothing!

Your Generosity of Love;
Showered upon me is mighty high
Pure and unadulterated
Yet the appreciation is null!

I aint Grateful
I aint thankful
I praise the almighty
For bridging into my life
Such a wonderful soul!

Words don’t show my love
My actions are far contrary
Believe me now
On this beautiful day
An amazing person was born
Who I can never cease to Love
On this day
Here is my token of love
For being the ray of hope
For being my cute little brother
With all my heart I praise you
And wish you a very happy birthday
And blessing of more to come!

Rainbow !!

2009-03-10T20:28:00.007+05:30

Why an Rainbow eh ? Might be one of the questions your mind must be thinking, when you are reading this. Welll...I realized two things, a couple of weeks back,
1) I have a blog for like almost three years , but did I ever think about WRITING , when it was and is one of my passions? Why did I waste so much time, when I could have written so much and by now I would have become an Average Blogger (Not being modest, I know how I write . and yeah I am a self critic, but just to make me better :P)
2) Most of my posts are SAD. I don't mean to say writing about sad things is bad. But Why not something Vibrant and cheerful? Can I not make such stuff?? I know I sure as hell can, that too when I have another BLOG devoted just for my cribbing LOL. I sure can make this a Happier one right.

And now coming back to the question in your mind, which I haven't answered so far :P, I am writing about Rainbows to Answer both my above said Questions.

If you have been closely following my blogs, Maybe you missed this , I am suddenly tagging all my posts :P ...yes this was to Inspire me to write more and more. Still not clear enough right?

Well I had told myself two months back, that I will motivate myself to write more and in the end I will declare it also in the blog to inspire me more :P. So the first Theme / Topic I could come up with was RAINBOW !!

The colors in the blog are labels to my posts though not completely appropriate , I just tried to infuse it into my blog somehow to make me motivated LOL !!

The colors are as follows ...

VIBGYOR

V - Violet - Goody Bye HOUSE !!

I - Indigo - Valentines day :: 2009!!

B - Blue - Feeling Blue...

G - Green - A small token of Love for my Best friend who is getting married!

Y - Yellow - Happy Women's day ! :)

O - Orange - Men - You cannot live with them, You cannot live without them!

R - Red - Blood is thicker than water?

Grey - shattered :'(

Yeah so the Colors of the Rainbow, can make anyone from SIX to SIXTY smile and be happy. SO this post of mine which is co incidentally on HOLI the festival of colors is a dedication to how beautiful life Really is! I know i added the Grey color to show that life may not always be all cheerful and bright , but one Grey cloud does not make you not to want to see and experience the RAINBOW right?

I want each one of you reading my blog to realize how beautiful your life is , and if at all its a lil gloomy with the Grey clouds, just let the clouds pass away, because thats when you can really see the rainbow. So try fining the colors of your life nah?? All I wish I can do by this post is make you guys smile at the small pleasures you are thinking of which might have brightened and colored your life one day or the other

So here is it :: Cheers to a beautiful Life ahead and not to forget the topic colorful :P

And yeah happy Holi people !!

And Here is another round of cheers for me being so creative and motivating myself * pats self on d bak :D* and for many more themes and for all the stupid and bright idea to flow out of my head to keep you guys entertained! :)

Happy Women's day ! :)

2009-03-08T11:22:00.007+05:30

On this special day dedicated to women, I would first of all like to wish all the amazing women out there a very HAPPY WOMAN'S DAY! :)

I have always liked this picture, And I think this picture is fit to each and every women out there!

...because that is how selfless women are !! :)

PROUD TO BE A WOMAN!!

Men - You cannot live with them, You cannot live without them!

2009-03-05T23:28:00.004+05:30

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

What is that you are doing to me?
What is that you have made me into?
Tomboy is what I have been called,
Not girly, Not manly;
But I Melt at your smiles
and cry a river when you hurt me!

Never felt such a whirlwind of emotions before!
Never felt emotions could last just for minutes,
Never felt happiness can turn into sadness,
Never Vice versa!

You make me laugh aloud
You make me cry deep!
You are my life line,
I ache when you are far away!
I ache to feel your touch,
I ache to hear you talk,
I ache all over!

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

I have been watching my phone for hours,
for the beep which fills my heart with joy,
Yet you never call!
I am busy in a meeting,
your call blinds me to the obvious!
and makes me run to the loo
clutching my phone
Just to hear you speak!

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

I am all ready for our date,
Planned what to wear ,
a week before
Planned where to go,
a day before.
Planned what to talk,
an hour ago.
Planned a farewell kiss
a minute back.
I am all blushes
a second back.

As i walk in like a virginal bride,
pink cheeks flushing all the way,
I can see quite a bit of stares,
I see a little more heads turn
But my heart is full of LOve
for the one who should long be here
As seconds turn to minutes,
and minutes turn to hours
My cheeks are flushed yet again
not in the least by shyness
but in the range of anger
Yet again,
I can see quite a bit of stares,
I see a little more heads turn
I stomp off into the roads
carrying my mighty rage
only to see you hurrying in
My heart wavers
Why cant I just Hate you
Why do i Have to love you even more
Seeing your Sorry Face?

When did I ever feel Good?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"

When did I ever feel numb with pain?
I ask myself ALOUD!!
Pat comes the reply,
"When you are near me"
.....

To be continued ....[:d]

Goody Bye HOUSE !!

2009-02-26T23:14:00.006+05:30

For all those who supported me during my sad phase during my previous post,and all of you who read my blog, am first dedicating this bouquet of Violets. Thank you so much for brightening my life and being with me though my lows and highs. You people , each one of you who read, comment on my blog and talk with me, all the ILMBF gurls, and all my friends enrich my sad life. No words can express my gratitude.

And Yeah! finally the day has come when I am going to leave this home and move to another place. Its like a mix of emotions in my already troubled mind. I feel happy cos this might make a huge change in my life. and another part saddens me to leave this place which was so unlucky in regards with my dads death but still is filled with his memories in every nook and corner. I still am packing and also blogging cos this will be my last post from this house, so am making sure I am filling both my blogs :D

Maybe this is the change I want after all, maybe this is my first step to leave behind the bad memories and start afresh. I like few things about the new house, itz damn close to the beach, so I can walk in the beach everyday :) and also because I have a gang of my crazy college guys there . I hadn't realized till now, how close they were to me. Now we are re bonding big time and am sure those guys will make me more than happy. This is going to bring me back into the Friends circle close to me.

Secondly I know I have to reduce weight, so am going to join something or the other to loose weight.(Not to forget the beach walks or cycling WOW! :D) So the new house will already anticipate two major changes in my life. Hope lots more are there in store for me , like a new guy maybe LOL . My mom is going to start looking seriously, so wish me luck people. I don't want a creep again LOL !

Will meet all you guys and my gracious followers LOL from my new HOME . and my mom has started yelling, got to pack people so Sayanora for now !!

Love

Seno :)

shattered :'(

2009-02-24T23:39:00.006+05:30

O dearest daddy,
words cant express how much
I am missing you right now.
I don't know what am doing,
I don't know why am blogging.
all I know is am dead inside.

I am cranky, moody and sad,
if only you were near me,
If only I could hear you speak,
If only I could feel your presence,
O my! what a Life am I leading?

why cant i feel happiness?
why do i feel so numb?
what did I ever do so bad?
for the pain that pierces me!
am shattered ,
I miss you like crazy!

Why me? why me? why me?
why did you leave me?
to know what this f*ked up life is all about?
I have learnt enough,
I have ached enough
come and show me how to be gay
I have lost hope in everything
the future seems bleak
I have no one to my aid,
O daddy dearest I love you!

I have had enough,
I lost you,
I lost my relationship,
I lost my happy family,
I have lost faith in myself!
Oh please take me away from my miseries,
take me away from this pain..

Happy birthday !
Happy birthday to you!
happy birthday dear daddy..
happy birthday to YOU!

Love
Your shattered daughter!

A small token of Love for my Best friend who is getting married!

2009-02-24T01:00:00.006+05:30

I know my bestie is getting married to the guy she LOVES and she is so happy about it. But I somehow feel, She is going to be away now. Call me crazy but I prefer being the ONLY apple of her EYE anyday LOL. This is a small dedication to show my love for her and Wedding wishes for the beautiful bride MWah!! So kinda a Tribute to my Friend !!

Its been a decade,
The innocent childhood,
The ignorant Teen days,
The Romantic college days, :)
The Realistic harsh days,
And Yet I crave for more ;-)

You are always close to my heart,
yet the distance makes it hard.
I know you are going away for the good,
I know you are going to be happy.
Yet, my heart refuses to let go,
My soul is being unrealistic!

You have always been around,
smiled through my happy days,
cried with me when I am hurt,
showered me with love when I needed,
I can never get someone so dear,
I love you my dear Friend!

It all seems so near,
the days of innocence,
the days filled with sunshine,
the days we were ourselves.
Now we commute in different paths,
I have furthered the distance,
To let you go.
Now spread your wings ,
and fly high my dearest,
Your day is coming,
Your joys are gonna make me smile,
Your happiness will enrich thy!

You are going to be glowing,
Like the Moon on a cloudless night,
as you gracefully walk down the aisle,
amongst all the near dear ones,
As everyone turn green with envy..
I shall be beaming with Pride,
here comes the beautiful bride!

Annie tagged me yet again :P

2009-02-16T21:06:00.008+05:30

I AM : WHAT I AM ;-) ... charming , funny and cute, and also fiercely independent ...watver the bottom line is M irresistible hahah

I THINK : I am a pretty nice person ;-) , I think about almost anything and everything, my mind is hyper compared to my body :-D

I KNOW : that I need to lose weight like annie :P

I WANT : My dad back :|, to start my life afresh (Fat chance:P) I want the old days back :'(

I HAVE: a thirst for learning a lot of new stuff in my life! , a zest for life ;-)

I WISH : I don't wish anymore, what ever should happen , will happen anyway, whats the point in wishing anyway *rolls eyes* ? But i do Wish my EX best friend LOl a very happy birthday today :)

I HATE : My fears , i need to conquer em soon!!

I MISS : One and only my DAD forever :'(

I FEAR : DEATH ( as if fearing would help me haha :P)

I HEAR : Voices inside my head at times *seriously* =))

I SMELL : Have a very bad cold, nose is completely blocked, so sorry I don't smell a thing right now ;-)

I CRAVE : for chocolates, ice creams , so basically anything that makes me gain a pound in a second >:) mwahahha

I SEARCH: only in GOOGLE (lame i Know:P)

I WONDER : if at all, I can have a normal life like the sane people around me :P

I REGRET : the list is endless, move on shall we ? ;-)

I LOVE : My family, friends , My doggie!!

I ACHE : when i see happy families around me . I don't have ONE now:'(

I WAS NOT : as hawt(read fat ) as I am right now LMAO=))

I AM NOT : as insensitive and unemotional as I portray myself to be :D

I CRY : only in front of myself :|

I BELIEVE: in MYSELF!!

I DANCE : when No 1 is watching :D (Cant help it , if I have two left feet, Itz a genetic flaw peeps :P)

I SING : all the time, till people threaten to choke the hell outta me haha!! :D

I READ : anything and everything. I love reading books, blogs, newspapers, magazines, letters whatever :P ;-)

I DONT ALWAYS : speak my mind. I tend to tell a lot of white lies.

I FIGHT : with people who are close to me ONLY!

I WRITE : a lot, most of my blogs are still unpublished ;-)

I WIN : almost all arguments,even if am wrong ;-)

I LOSE : my pens all the time!! *I wonder whats with pens and me seriously*

I NEVER : would hurt anyone intentionally !

I ALWAYS : Like to be myself!

I CONFUSE : Independence day and republic day :| ..and also shirts and t-shirts, odd and even :|:| these three are the things I confuse almost ALWAYS!

I LISTEN : to the same songs I like over n over again, till I get bored of Em :P

I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND : in a group of people, laughing in the loudest pitch ever :P

I AM SCARED : of being too much in love with someone*Ouch! even the memory hurts*

I NEED : to sort out my messed up life !

I AM HAPPY : When I am with animals , or I do something good for another living being!:)

I IMAGINE : almost anything which can be remotely related to being WEIRD :D

Now I just pass on the tag to anyone and everyone who pass by my blog.

About Annie - I think, she is an amazing human being, tough on the outside but so tender on the inside !!:) Mwah >:d<

Valentines day :: 2009!!

2009-02-09T23:57:00.017+05:30

Ho Ho Ho... the festive month for Love has officially started. All malls and shopping complexes' are decorated in various shades of Red! Cute hearts of all Sizes and colors ranging from palest pink to the deepest red can be seen all over...it can truly be said that Love is in the air !! :)

Love is in the air...accepted, but I seem to be choking out of breath after a long time haha. Being Single seems weirdly fantabulous to me LOL!! :-D ...Especially when there is No need to break my head over what gifts to buy or what surprises to give to my Valentine. ;-)

No love = No Planning + No Tension + No waste of Money =)) LOL

Surprisingly am taking this valentines day in an extremely positive way *whistles*. I had lots of fun suggesting funny and creative ideas to lot of my girl friends. The thought that you are just the idea creator and not the executor gives me immense pleasure, just like ma job =)) LOL . So this is infinitely better than my last one click here

I sure as hell am gonna have a lot of fun this valentine's day, as that day is going to be a Gurls group meet. Yeah! the power puff girls meet yet again LOL !! Finally after a year all the four of us are gonna meet up again and have so much fun, that ma EX might come around does not bother me at all.* yayyyyyy am growing up :D) I can honestly say am moving on big time at last :D *Phew*
(PS : You got to appreciate me on this one, cos last week I saw him and he is SMOKIN HAWT ...no kidding :| He said he luvs me, and yet again I din bother to reply ;-) *Pats self on the back*)

well well , whats new for this Valentines day? you might ask apart from the Friends meet . hmm well as some of you might already know, am officially in the process of Groom hunting through e matrimonial sites. People who want can kick me after reading my views on the same click here . *grins sheepishly* . On my defense I am doing this for my MOM not for myself :|

Anyway am anticipating a Far far better valentines day next year with a Guy who really does understand me and cares for me hopefully * fingers crossed*

Whoever said " all good men are taken , married or gay " , I salute THY :))

Whatever the bottom line is I will be spending Valentines day with the people I love the most since the past 10 years :) So this is an equally special valentines day for me.

Advance congrats for all the committed and lovely couples out there . and also all the best for the likes of me :D ...cos you know what your Prince charming or Princess Consuela bannahammock (LMAO!) is right around the corner ,waiting for the right time to BUMP on you ;-)

Here goes my small dedication for Love and Valentines day and for all of you reading my Blog :)

When I look at your smile,
My heart skips a beat!!
When I see you cry,
It breaks my heart ..
Why do i feel this way?
Your happiness is Bliss to me,
Your sadness pierces me...
Why do i feel this way?
Our souls are intertwined
Our hearts are locked together
You are part of me,
as much as am a part of thy!!
Why do i feel this way?
I may not be perfect
But I promise to
Enrich your joys..
Double your pleasures..
Fade your worries,
I promise to be there for you...
Will you be my Valentine forever??

PS: The indigo heart looked different and cuter than the normal red ones hehe.. :)

Feeling Blue...

2009-02-02T23:13:00.008+05:30

Feels like I have fallen in a pit,
being swirled by darkness around me,
its closing up my vision,
am choking, am suffocating,
am so vulnerable, am helpless,
its scaring me, beyond my wildest imaginations!
Not a hand to help!
Not a soul to listen to ma pleas....

I fear my unknown destination,
I fear for my loved ones,
I fear Death, I fear Life!
Fear is my biggest Fear right now,
what am i fearing?
I cry out LOUD!
YET, Not a hand to help,
Not a soul to hear my pleas...

As am entering this black hole,
ma heart feels fainter,
ma screams echo all around me,
All i see is darkness,
All i feel is Darkness,
The cold wind swarms around me,
sending deep shivers all over me
I feel colder and colder..
Yet Not a hand to help,
Not a soul to listen to ma pleas...

Ma voice is way fainter now,
ma eyes have given up the search
Ma heart does not care anymore,
Ma body is too weak to move
All i know is..
am surrounded by darkness,
am shivering, whimpering and weak
And still yet, not a hand to help
Not a soul to hear my pleas...

Am feeling Blue ! :'(

Blood is thicker than water?

2009-02-01T23:53:00.007+05:30

The title rings some familiar bells doesn't it ?

This has always been a big debate in my family, with most of the elders voting for the former, and the youngsters opting for the later! and me being the youngest have always been debating on how friends are always the best. And No! am not here to debate again. I just attended my cousins wedding last week and i was wondering like how all the cousins stuck like glue in seconds. I had no clue what my cousins were really doing with or in their life unlike my friends who are relatively frequent in contact with me. Call it Blood bonding, but we just clicked like magnets , all the six of us and were jabbering way into the wee hours of dawn! None of us wanted to sleep, it was like a time capsule, each one of us had so little time to describe our life, lifestyle, likes, dislikes but every one wanted to share everything. We ended up having a huge debate revolving relationships, career and Boozing LOL. and being the youngest, i wasn't allowed in the so called ADULT conversation for so long :P . and it felt really good to finally be a part of these conversations.

we have all grown up as kids together, shared a part of our lives since we were too little to understand who we are sharing it with. I guess the saying holds true here, Wine gets better with age, so does relationships at least it holds true with my cousins. I really wrote this as a tribute to all my cousins and the wonderful time we have spent together for so long.

But as usual the water's density and also particularly the Volume has been increasing a lot. Let me make it clearer hehe, my close friends have become closer and precious(density) but I have made,( as everyone does) so many new friends (volume) LOL ! and frankly I am not able to cope up with the volume LOL , i mean at least being in touch is hard and apart from the close ones, if I meet the not so closer ones, I am sure I cant make up such striking and remarkable memories.

So as a conclusion, am forced to say BLOOD is thicker than water practically LOL =))

Nah I have really great friends, dunno what future has in store for me at the friends or relatives end, But i do consider my best friends as my Blood relatives and my close relatives as my best friends LOL.
I consider myself extremely blessed person to be having the best of both the worlds!

Nice conclusion innit? hehe :P

Quiz mania :P

2009-01-23T23:50:00.013+05:30

Frankly I wanted to post something , but was too lazy! :P ....so this is all YOU get ha ha ha !!

Here is the result of my QUIZ(s)!!

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.

If it happens, you blog it. And you make it as entertaining as possible.

You may be guilty of over-sharing a bit on your blog, but you can't help it.

Your life is truly an open book. Or in this case, an open blog!

What Kind of Blogger Are You?

You Are Charming and Eloquent

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.

Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.

Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way

You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to

Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets

No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

I knew this was coming up! LOL =))

Your Inner Gender is Male

You are rational, matter of fact, and quite dominant.

You like to get things done, without any emotional messiness.

You truly don't understand most women. And you definitely feel more comfortable around men.

No doubt about it. You're a guy - at least on the inside.

What's Your Inner Gender?

Nabila Tagged me!! (Gargi , Apurva and Meenaxi plz do pay attention...m crying out loud here LOL!!)

2009-01-12T20:42:00.008+05:30

Nabila aka Nabs has tagged me...

M tagging the following blogs....if you have been tagged olready, do let me know ;-)

I...Me...Myself...

Casual Contemplations

Crazy Beginnings

Now as I have no clue what tagging is all about, am just gonna copy and paste nabs questions with ma answers of course duhh !! :-P

RULE 1: People who are tagged must write their answers to the tag and change any question they like.
RULE 2: Tag 3 people and they cannot refuse to do this tag. They must write who tagged them and cannot tag that person again. Continue the game. And I hope it will be sheer fun.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
I would feel bad obviously, but thank my lucky stars that i realized sooner that he is the KING of loser's ..(I mean cheating on me ...what a looser ha ha :P LOL).

2. If you have one dream which could come true, it would be?
My dad next to me , talking and praising me and loving me forever and ever!! 8-> :)

3.Who is more blessed-loving someone or being loved by someone?
If u r loved by someone unconditionally, you are the most lucky/ blessed person!! PERIOD!

4. Can you fall in love with your best friend ?
Yep....better than weirdos any day! but would think 100 times before making the decision!!

5. How long would you wait for someone you love?
I wanna be all dramatic and say ALL MY LIFE lol....i can wait, but if the person takes advantage of it, though it might take some time to get into my dumb mind, once i realize other person is not serious , i can well say "GET THE FUCK OUTTA MA LIFE!!"

6. If the person you like is secretly attached, what would you do?
Secretly attached *blush blush* ....i would be a lil more bolder is voicing ma opinions *whistles*

7. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be?
CHILD ABUSE and ANIMAL ABUSE !!Sorry i can't choose between the two!!

8. What according to you is blogger in denial?
I have no clue, what you are talking about LOL=)) ..Well just to venture a random guess would be like someone who wants to deny what they personal think and try to accept they are different by blogging what they think they believe in and not what they are ...Whatever come on i have no CLUE :P

9. What’s your fear ?
Death!! I have a Phobia , fear is an understatement!!!

10. What colour are your socks now?
I ain't wearing any socks at 10:30 PM sowwie :P

11. What are you listening to now?
Avril - Girl Friend : Somethinbg which has been in ma playlist for ages:P

12. What takes you down fastest?
Dishonesty, lack of trust , liars and most of all BETRAYAL !!

13. Which one do you prefer - ice-cream or chocolate?
I prefer not to answer such a Controversial Question. Sorry !! LOL

14. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Ha ha good one!at the top of my mind right now.... I would donate to Blue cross for sure !!:P ...apart from that m no saint so I wud spoil myself and my frends!!

15. What was the last thing you ate?
I ate Dosa and then some Bread and Sauce ...recently m so hungry i keep hogging on anything i get 8-|

16. How old are you today?
Aww! what an indecent QN *shocked*, am always SWEET SIXTEEN !! hahahhah

17. How do you vent out your anger?
To be honest, I vent it out only on people I love...am ashamed to say this , but HEY am working on it !!b-) :D :"> :P

18. Favourite toy as a child?
My Teddy bear and my barbie!!

18. Favorite season?
Never thought so much about seasons. I like a drizzling LAZY day but def'ly not a rainy day !!

19. When was the last time you cried?
When i fought with ma best frend 3 weeks back :|

20. Who is the friend you have had the longest?
My bestie...since we were in 6th Grade! we r still best of buds *touchwood* <3

21. What did you do last night?
Spoke to ma EX ( He proposed to me :|) 8-|

22. Favorite day of the week?
SUNDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!! ahhhhhhhhhh Blissssss 8->

23. Diamond or pearl?
Diamond Hands down!!!

24.Would you be single & rich or married & poor ?
Rich and single! Duhhh :P

25.What is the first thing you do when you wake up?
RUNNNNNN TO take a shower and RUN EVEN MORE to get ready and get the hell outta the house , cos i wake up soooo late for office every single day LOL

26.If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, whom would you pick?
You tell me , M in dat situation right now LOL !!

27.Would you give all in a relationship ?
I would , but since i have learnt my lessons , i would if ma better half tries to give a little too ! m not gonna be d one whos always giving !! x-(

28.What’s eating you now ?
Ma Life , the beautiful proposal i turned down , everything around me GRRRRRRR x-( :P

29.Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
SINGLE SINGLE SINGLE !! Gimme a break SERIOUSLY !!!! :|

30. Your opinion of 3 bloggers who you are going to tag and the one who tagged you.
Nabs:The Hawt chik! the sensible one and d one gurl whos life and habits r freakishly similar to mine !!!

About the ones who I m tagging – I don't know any of the three personally :|
Gargi– The gurl , whoz working hard and studying equally well , at such a young age ..So Independent !!! *Salutes*
Apurva- Crazy Freak LOL ....Very sweet gurl as far as i have seen her around, she is like d cutest KIDDO ! *Kisses and hugs*
Meenaxi- Fellow Tamilian, Nice blogger ...amazingly sensible from what I have seen of her !!! *Bows*

Bitter Sweet memories of a lost soul!!

2009-01-08T20:07:00.007+05:30

This is dedicated to ma EX, who obviously wont read it , but since I have been messing around a lot on ma life, I have realized, he is worth way more! and dis is a dedication to the beautiful relationship we shared for five years !!

Why did you hold my hand?
To let it go?
Why did you Kiss me?
To mock my memories now?
Why did you like me?
To leave me alone?
Why did you have to make me feel special?
To let me down?
Why did you have to be there for me?
To let me repent every single moment?
Why did you have to wipe my tears?
To let me cry everyday?
Why did you have to share with me?
To make me feel lost?
Why did you have to love me
To let me go and walk away?

You have walked far far away,
You are beyond my reach,
All i can see are your tracks,
All i have are the bitter sweet memories!!

I loved you more than I could,
I loved you beyond expectations,
Only to taste the bitter words??
Only to realize you are gone forever??

I loved your crooked smile,
when you tried to surprise me...
I loved your eyes,
when it used to twinkle with mischief..
I loved your heart,
when it opened up for me...
I loved the way you talk,
when it always made me feel gay...
I loved your walk,
when you didn't realize i was watching you...
I loved your Love
when it was just for me...
I loved you !! even,
when you did not love me back!

Now we speak, like total strangers..
I still Love you!
Now I have more friends than i used to have..
I still love you..
Now i have the independence, I always wished for
I still Love you!
Now i have anything I could ask for ...
But I still love you
Now I don't have you!
I am lost!
I love you!!

Self Appraisal ...:)) My long last and best Testimonial recieved EVER !!

2009-01-03T18:53:00.009+05:30

This is the testi ma bestest frend wrote for me ....i kinda thot i had lost it , but i got it bak yayyyyyyyy \:d/ so posting here , so dat u peeps can get to know me ;-) hahha!!! PS: he was too shy to post it even in ORKUT lol=))

A friend is a personal relationship. I like and admire many people who i don’t consider friends.I choose to think of friend as a very strong word, representing a very close relationship..

Seno...no call her prabha..for all those people who dunno.. Thats wot her name is...

I kno am not the only person who thought her name was seno!!!! Prabha is sucha..stupid('s) name....[:p]

You are friendly, kind and caring, sensitive, loyal and understanding, humorous, fun, secure and true..special, accepting, exciting and wise ..truthful and helpful,..blah blah... I kno these things don’t define her… but then I had to write some so called NORMAL good qualities..one sec.. is she anyway normal…?? I guess I might end up having a huge debate with anybody who have doubts….of course I shall be against the topic [8)]

Actually I have a lot to say bout this gal.. But i aint tat good at words so I let you people figure that out urselves…Its just that i am very happy knowing her.. And its not everyday i get to make such a great friend...so i intend to hold onto you for a long long time gal....

Am sure other friends ov hers have already mentioned bout her luxuriously jabbering ability...And must say she does that pretty effortlessly.. but she has made sure I have been tamed enough to lissen to her forever…:-<

Nonetheless this devil (a fictional angel as some may say) has a lot of opinions about everything around her... No wonder she always has issues with me.. I swear I havent met anybody so critical about each and every action of mine... But then thats what gets the better of me....[:p]

Whoever knows her would have definitely got a soupçon of this quality of hers…… or is it only me whos been soo……. “Lucky” =))

Frankly shes someone i turn to whenevr i need a push(kick) to lift ma spirits..shes just a call away when i need tat instant advise on somethin "hardly" important....then she throws this sensible advice rite on ma face...makes me feel too dumb..i may sound a parasite maselv but then when things are this easy to fetch(and so bug free) why flex ur super complex brains....wot say seno...[:d]

Most of the time she is a teacher, a very good one, who constantly questions me. "those of course are the best teachers, the ones who ask you to think"...evn tho her questions have been annoyin at times[:p] it did make me smart.. Mayb thats what she wanted me to become...[8)]..am there am there..!!!!

I talk to her bout almost anything .. share feelings, talk about our enthusiasms, our ideas, the things we care bout, the things we don’t care bout.. everythin.. Carefree… as I believe if I ever find i must be careful how i say things, then it’s something other than friendship.

That’s what she is…. If you get to be in her good friends list then you get the warrant to talk about anything… anytime… anywhere…

Shes makes you feel very comfortable…. Way to go bugger…

Continuing on ma lill talk on friendship I can only say I haven chosen to call prabha as a friend.. a true friend with every moment spent worth relishing.

Thanks for everythin...

Cheerz

Copyspace Testing LOL

2009-01-02T19:56:00.001+05:30

Why do people meet

If they have to depart,

Why do people hold your hand

If they have to break your heart,

Why do people come close

If they have to go far away,

Why do people make promises

If they will break it one day..

New Year Resolutions!!

2008-12-27T23:30:00.008+05:30

My New Year Resolutions or rather Commandments I have imposed on myself :))

1. Live Life to the fullest . Live every day like you are gonna DIE tomorrow, cos who knows u might and you wont be able to regret later :P

2. Talk Less, Listen More.

3. Laugh a lot.

4. Give a Smile to 5 strangers a day. Help to spread it.

5. Try to do a GOOD deed every week , if not everyday!

6. Don't regret about the past , look forward to the future.

7. Help more , Expect less.

8. Try to be in touch with friends more. Put an Xtra effort. a mail/ message can do it!

9. Love yourself. Understand how beautiful you are as a person.

10. Learn something NEW! can be a language, a recipe anything

11. Make more friends

12. Forgive and forget the people who have hurt you.

13. Learn to appreciate the smaller things in life.

14. Reduce ANGER! Not worth it.

15. Be Fit. Try to Exercise at least three times a week!

16. Try meditation or Yoga again three times a week in the least.

17. Try to help a complete Stranger whenever you get the opportunity!

18. Try not to take the close Friends/ relatives or MOM for granted.

19. Booze, Party , Have fun !

20. Try to do the things you have been wanting to do, but could not due to some crazy reasons.

21. LIVE :: LOVE :: LAUGH ! :)

22. Go to an orphanage once a year!

23. Go and feed animals in BLUE CROSS once a year!

24. Don't care about people who bitch about you! cos frankly they r jealous of you :P

25. Last but not the least try to follow these Resolutions as much as possible :P

SINGLE N READY 2 MINGLE !!!

2008-12-07T00:18:00.003+05:30

Never in the last eight years, did I think, I would savor these words as much as am doing now. I know , I have only myself to blame!! But who cares as long as I am happy now :-D. I always have been stupid enough to think that am happy because am in a relationship , someone is out there to love me and care for me , but trust me , after being single, I finally feel free , feel happy and most importantly feel MYSELF !!

I have realized, am a person who should not be restricted, I need to have my space and right now am enjoying every minute of my single status before its rudely going to be snatched from me LOL! I enjoy being myself finally!! but on the pessimistic side, I have almost lost my interest in guys! 8-|

Right now, am a very happy person , and am writing this because I want to know in the future that Today am a happy person cos i took the right decision in breaking off with my Ex BF !! Thank you ex LOL !!

Starts singing and dancing in joy!!

A heartfelt talk with my dad :'(

2008-11-23T00:28:00.008+05:30

I cant believe it has been a year!! Whoever said "Time Heals' does not know you as a person. When you left, you have left such a deep scar in my heart that it can never heal. Am taking this hopeless feeling to my grave. Why did god have to make you such a wonderful person and why does he have to take you away before i realize your love , your tenderness, your sacrifice? I have million questions , with no answers. There has not been a day in the past 365 days, where I have not felt an immense loss!! It keeps hurting me to know that , I cant see you , I cant feel you , I cant hear you , I cant have you comfort me , I cant have you scold me , I cant have you teach me , worst of all , I cant Love you !!! You gave so much Love and never expected anything back. Why could have god not made me realize how precious you were? Why did he rudely snatch you away from me, when I began to realize how much I love you ? Why can I not have the simple pleasures of a family ??? :| I am moving on ...I am finding things to distract myself, but it hasn't worked. Every night i feel the pain you felt , i feel the fear you had when you knew you were going to die. I am 23 now, a lot changed as a person, but I have lost the innocence , i have lost being "daddy's lil gurl" In the past year, I have realized how people treat you differently, how people try to meddle in every part of your life .so I have lost ma senses to feel. I dont care about MYSELF anymore.WHat is there to care about? All the people who swore that they would stay with me, are fast fading!! I have learnt the hard way, as to how you made ma life so easy. Now taking everything in, handling a family is not so easy. I have become responsible. Hope you are proud of dat.

The past one year, has shown me the real faces of people name it cousins, friends or anyone ,I interact with. I ask myself everyday after every simple accomplishment i have made.... Where are you to praise me? You praised me when i made coffee for the first time when i was 21!!!!! , You praised me when i merely passed in ma exams, You made me feel loved and cherished, and now you have left , I am wondering will anyone ever recognize me as an individual with feelings and appreciate me ? How could have all this happened ?!?! I love you so much , I really do , M sorry for not having showed you my LOVE, am sorry for being self obsessed, am sorry for talking back for every advice u gave me , am sorry for not listening to you. But are you there to listen to me ? NO !!! ...I can never forget your every act of love. You were the one who stood with me through all my downs. I have been a thoroughly selfish , immature daughter , yet did u cease to love me ??? I couldn't have asked for a better person as ma Father. All around me , I c ppl happy in all ways of life , here m struggling to survive... I now ask with tons of regret WHY ME ?!?! O GOD PLEASE WHY ME?!?! ....I am unable to bear the loss. I am unable to think , feel normally . Why can't I be myself?!!? I just wish , I could also have come with you! I have had enough of life and its ways , I have given up. My strength fails me , Your advices fail me , I have failed miserably in my chapter of life. I yearn for love , Am insecure ...When did i turn so desperate , pathetic?!?! IF only you knew , how much this has taken a toll on me . but if u knew, u wud nt have left me d way I am!!!

I salute you for being the best son, uncle, father and husband!!

You are the greatest person in the world to me!! Your loss is something which can never be replaced. I Just want you to know, Your daughter is a matured responsible gal today, who can cook, who works, who takes family responsibilities, who is taking care of your wife (as u asked for) , who is trying to make everyone happy, who wants to be like you!!

Dad I love you , so much dat it hurts to think about you...I know u made me strong enough to face all of lifes unexpected suprise!! But I am failing miserably after this year. I thought i could move on, I thought I can do it, but please make some one understand , that am a human being after all. I cant cry in front of people, or talk about my problems!! is that so wrong ?? All am asking from you, if at all you can hear me is some LOVE, I feel so lost without it.I am unable to move on . I cant ask mom , she will feel so bad, i dont want to make her cry !!! Help me , guide me as you have always done. I dont want to fail , i want to stand proud in front of so many people. show them that I am a survivor!!

Words fail me , when i Talk about you.

Ohh what will I not give for a chance to talk to you ??

you did not deserve all the pain you went through. you did not deserve the deathly disease. You are a GOOD person. God is unfair , LIfe is unfair. I only hope that your soul rests in peace. Be happy and peaceful wherever you are !! Don't come bak to this selfish and fucked up world !! All am asking is for you to gimme the strength to survive!!

I LOVE U<3 I MISS U<3

Rest in Peace!!!!!!!!!

Dad I Love You!!

2008-10-12T00:24:00.004+05:30

I had written this poem , a week before ma dad passed away and haven't posted it..now i thot i cud post it , this is d 3rd poem, i have written in ma life :)

DAD I LOVE YOU!

When I was a kid..
Yu held my hand,
and showed me the meaning of love..!

When I was 10 ..
Yu took me to the park ,
and showed me the meaning of fun..!

When I was in school .
Yu made me read ..
And showed me the meaning of knowledge..!

When I was in my teens…
Yu were reluctant to let me go,
And showed me how to enjoy my life in a harmless way..!

When I was in college..
Yu let me free,
And showed me the world outside..!

When I was 20..
Yu were not happy with my ways in many ways
But you showed me how important it was to let me go when I am older.

When I am 21
I realize how special you are
But cruel fate seems to be teaching me to let you go ..:(

Now am 22
And have realized how special your life was to me
All my life I can not get a dad better than you..!

You gave me everything I needed
At all stages of my life,
Love , materialistic things
More than you could
But fate has made me realize about YOU only now

You gave me life ;
and it kills me to see yours at stake...

You made me walk
Now it kills me to see that you can’t

You made me sleep
And it kills me to see that you can’t

You were , are and will be everything to me
But I feel numb with pain when I see you so helpless

I pray all the gods above
To give me back my precious DAD

I cant ask for anything more precious EVER !!

Marriages through E-Matrimony!!

2008-07-02T13:57:00.009+05:30

When I Look at my blog Posting Page, All i see is Drafts which had at one time been waiting to be published but the Laziness of this Writer has made them sit there forever . So i decided that if i take time to write a blog, i will make sure i finish it. And by boldly saying this I know , first of all I have to finish this one :| :P at least by the end of the day. Today priyankas scrap has made me realize i have neglected not one but both of my blogs. I have finished writing up some crap for that one. But this one, would have to use my Creativity (Hopefully I have it).

Well right now one of my friends parents have started looking for a guy for her. And i will explain to you the process they used with the maximum information I have. I know not everyone's marriage is finalized this way. But yet a lot of people might agree with me on this one ;-)

First parents come to the girl/Guy, keep asking her/him "its time for you to get married beta". The first time the children shrug it off, then once the parents become more and more persistent, the children after making up all excuses they can think of, finally accept and say " yeah go ahead". These are the words which any Mom or Dad needs to hear and the Mom tells the daughter , "you don't worry , only if u like the guy, You need to marry him." or vice versa (SInce they r happy that their children did not fall into the web of LOve ;-) )

All done, Guy/Girl is relieved that the Nagging period is over and goes to work. The parent as soon as talking to their children Log into Bharathmatrimony.com , Shaadi.com, Jeevansathi.com etc etc. They create an Online profile for their children . When did this trend become so popular? Not long back ,when i was in 10th or 11th grade my parents used to be talking about my cousins marriage. there all the horoscopes were hand picked from highly trusted people who would be ready to give a Highly recommended testimonial about the Guy/ Girl. once that was settled, the parents would exchange horoscopes and the procedure would move on from there. I ain't complaining here . But when majority of the people still think that chatting and online acquaintance is to be doubted, how can this trend become so popular.How can someone accept a proposal from someone named M1366592 ??? Maybe I am a die hard romantic but this E- matrimony thing does not fit my Bill at all. I believe in falling in Love and all romantic, mushy mushy crap! even while am saying this that millions of hopeful parents maybe including mine *Gulp* are filling out profiles or looking for M344512 and M5681134 to decide the perfect choice for their children!

Call me traditional, but even as time changes, I would not like to get married to M341289!!! I prefer a real person with a name even if it is an arranged marriage. Well my friend who i was referring to earlier and who gave me a topic for this blog was not so lucky. Her parents created a profile the day she said Yes! and the third day they got a match and she has met this M23456 who has a name now, but unfortunately she is not seeing any sparks flying!!!

Who knows what I will land up in future. with the trend creating popularity and making things easier, maybe our destined choices might be a 7 digit code waiting for us at CCD or barista and make polite conversation (as it happened with my frend) and be happy that his/her parents choice of the 7 digit code was indeed good.

PS: am not against the sites which do this, but against the Whole concept!

So for all of you reading this blog, i hope that You fall for a real person than a M453671 !! Romantic fools like me are advised to be cautious :P....:)

and well my knight in shinning Armour has turned out to be a Looser in aluminum foil, but if we sort out things ,he may become the knight in shining Armour again after all LOL :d!

Cheers to all the people to have found their Mr. Right from these E matrimony sites!!

Men and Women !~~! 8-} 8-}

2008-04-24T09:37:00.010+05:30

Well my last post is very sad I know And i have not read it after the fiasco in ma office . So i thought how about something good to write in this highly neglected blog.:)

And i am also officially announcing that Sue aka Suefa aka watver u call her , has resigned from this blog and is no longer entitled to use this blog :P =))

Well I was thinking what can i write ...and then i decided that i have always been interested in the mails where men and women try to outwit each other . I myself have a lot of experience here with one particular friend of mine. we both are gr8 looser's at the end :P, but those mails gives us a sadistic pleasure of irritating and degrading the other . b/w did i forget to mention we are best friends???=))

anyway i decided to compile some of these dumb things to again prove that my words has a bigger audience :P

I hope the fairer sex enjoys it and the not so fairer sex =P takes it with a pinch of salt :D as none of it is my words ;-)
so here we go....

Men are like.......

.....Placemats.
They only show up when there's food on the table.

.....Mascara.
They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

.....Government bonds.
They take so long to mature.

.....Copiers.
You need them for reproduction, but that's about it.

.....Curling irons.
They're always hot, and they're always in your hair.

.....Mini skirts.
If you're not careful, they'll creep up your legs.

.....Handguns.
Keep one around long enough, and you're going to want to shoot it.

Relationships:

* When a relationship ends, a woman will cry and pour her heart out to her girlfriends, and she will write a poem titled "All Men Are Idiots". Then she will get on with her life.
* A man has a little more trouble letting go. Six months after the break-up, at 3:00 a.m. on a Saturday night, he will call and say, "I just wanted to let you know you ruined my life, and I’ll never forgive you, and I hate you, and you’re a total floozy. But I want you to know there’s always a chance for us".

Maturity:

* Women mature much faster than men. Most 17-year-old females can function as adults.
* Most 17-year-old males are still trading baseball cards and giving each other wedgies after gym class. This is why high school romances rarely work.

Groceries:

* A woman makes a list of things she needs and then goes to the store and buys these things.
* A man waits till the only items left in his fridge are half a lemon and something turning green. Then he goes grocery shopping. He buys everything that looks good. By the time a man reaches the checkout counter, his cart is packed tighter that the Clampett’s car on Beverly Hillbillies. Of course, this will not stop him from going to the 10-items-or-less lane.

Directions:

* If a woman is out driving and she finds herself in unfamiliar surroundings, she will stop at a gas station and ask for directions.
* Men consider this to be a sign of weakness. Men will never stop and ask for directions. Men will drive in a circle for hours, all the while saying things like, "Looks like I’ve found a new way to get there", and, "I know I’m in the neighborhood. I recognize that White Hen store".

Admitting Mistakes:

* Women will sometimes admit making a mistake.
* The last man who admitted that he was wrong was Gen. George Custer.

Offspring:

* Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and soccer games and romances and best friends and favorite foods and secret fears and hopes and dreams.
* A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

Laundry:

* Women do laundry every couple of days.
* A man will wear every article of clothing he owns, including his surgical pants that were hip about eight years ago, before he will do the laundry. When he is finally out of clothes, he will wear a dirty sweatshirt inside out, rent a U-Haul and take his mountain of clothes to the laundromat. Men always expect to meet beautiful women at the laundromat. This is a myth.

Weddings:

* When reminiscing about weddings, women talk about "the ceremony".
* Men talk about "the bachelor party".

A lot of guys think the larger a woman's breasts are, the less intelligent she is. I don't think it works like that. I think it's the opposite. I think the larger a woman's breasts are, the less intelligent the men become. ~Anita Wise

“There are easier things in life than trying to find a nice guy...like nailing jelly to a tree for example”

“They keep saying the right person will come along, I think mine got hit by a truck.”

“Sure God created man before woman, but then again you always make a rough draft before creating the final masterpiece.”

Why do men chase women they have no intention of marrying? The same urge that makes dogs chase cars they have no intention of driving.

Give a man a free hand and he'll run it all over you. ~Mae West

If they can put one man on the moon why can't they put them all there?

If men can run the world, why can't they stop wearing neckties? How intelligent is it to start the day by tying a little noose around your neck?

And yeah this blog is dedicated to "G" ^:)^

2007 - D year I turned into an Adult!

2008-02-14T14:56:00.007+05:30

Well it's been really long since i have posted ...more than one year !!

I decided to write something and update this blog ...but don't have any topic in my mind . I have started a blog to record my daily happenings ...u can find that blog here http://senoinhyd.blogspot.com

But what about this one ?? ..Let me write about my life in 2007 !!

2007 truly turned out to be the worst year in my life ...I Guess there were very few ups and hell lot of downs .But 2007 has made me learn too many things too fast .By the end of 2007 i was made to realize that I am not a kid anymore and I can never be "DADDY"S LITTLE GIRL " anymore :|

The first half of 2007 was kind of okay ...I was making all plans to do my MS ...and preparing for GRE and stuff ....little did I know that fate was going to rudely interrupt my plans for my life FOREVER!

My Most awaited day was my Parents 25th Wedding Anniversary on JULY 08 ...It was going to be a very special day for all of us in the family. But Appa's health started to deteriorate , in a very unexpected and sudden way . He lost his appetite , and did not look good . I and my Dad both are adamant about not going to a doctor , so he protested a lot and kept postponing his trips to the doctor . July 08 came and he was hardly able to eat 1 cup of rice , when we went to celebrate .

So things started getting bad ...and we slowly but steadily forced him to a doctor and the doctor wanted to take a biopsy ...me being the jerk i was ...did not realize the seriousness of the situation and kept fighting with my Dad for this and that . Till date or rather till i die i am going to feel bad about it .Then September 05 Teachers day for all of you but mine I grew up to be an adult ...There came the biopsy report and it clearly stated adeno carcinoma grade III ...well i was puzzled too what the hell was adeno carcinoma ? It turned out to be the Third stage of Stomach cancer ... It came as a rude shock to me . I went to collect the report ...I was shocked ...I could not go home , could not face my dad ? what am i supposed to do now ? I cried all the way to my house and then pretended to have a brave face and entered my house ... I told my dad that it was cancer but very early stages to make him feel brave (when did this change happen ? How come I am trying to protect him rather than vice versa ? ) Have i really grown up ? But this was just the smallest initial blow ..the next week i went to Adayar cancer Institute and there they refused to operate him saying he had only 2 months to Live ...Our family went crazy ...Jus 2 months My parents celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary and the doctors say he has just 2 more months to live ? 60 days ? really ?

The worst thing you can face in life is slowly seeing the person you love die in front of your eyes , My dad who was everything to me , who made my life easier for me ..crumbled down to pieces ...he was no more the person i Knew ...More than us he was trying to accept the fact that he was going to die ? why would some oner have to have such a cruel fate ? My dad of all people does not deserve it ...Damn all the gods ...They don't deserve the respect people give them ...at least I am sure i won't respect any god ever .. My belief has been shattered !

And the worst is yet to be over ...I saw his last breath and he died in my lap :|
with 2 months of blood vomit ..we all knew the ed is coming but not s tragically ...till date i have nightmares and i have the death scene repeating all over itself. It is not enough that he has to die but he has to die a tragic death ?

And then I realized even if I don't want to I have to become an adult ....I can never recover over his death but writing about it makes me cry and release the buried emotions ...so I have written this blog to get some peace ....I moved away from chennai as chennai brings awful memories nowadays but in hyd i feel lonely ...maybe my life is always meant to be a miserable one (?)

APpa I miss you terribly and love u more than u have ever thot..! I miss sharing good things with u and i miss u so much ...i have turned into a diff person ...I don't like to Live life anymore ...But Sadly I have grown up w/o u seeing it ! I LOVE U !

My second attempt at poetry ...dedicated to my special frend...!!!

2007-01-27T23:08:00.001+05:30

I found a friend in u,
when i needed one so badly.
I left all my past behind,
in d joy of getting a true frend!

U r d one who lends me an ear
in times of need,
and corrects me when im wrong.
U r d one who made me feel myself again,
when i thot i had lost myself
deep in d past.
U r d one who bought a smile to my face,
which is thr whenever u r arnd.

U made me feel good,
U made me realise i aint so bad afterall,
U r d one who shared all d secrets with me
made me feel spl
and talked to me no matter wat u r doing.

All d days we spoke
I felt lively and gay,
but now i feel sumthing hollow...

We may have never met...
but still d distance makes me ache.
missing d times we used to spend,
keeps telling me everyday sumthing isnt rite
and that is YoU!!!

U r missing now..
so near yet so far
missing u
missing d fites with u
missing d sharing with u
missing d frend in u
missing d teacher in u
missing d dad in u
missing d time spent with u

Hoping to get back to d same old times
and bring back my smile
Frend i need u and i miss u!!!

wherever you go your network follows u...:P

2006-12-18T02:15:00.001+05:30

The caption seems familiar doesn’t it?? But no am not going to talk about hutch.....not exactly. But these mobile services have so many catchy lines...yet do we really get the coverage anywhere?? Leave about others...am using hutch and quite satisfied with it, but I have a friend, let’s name that person as Mr.X. He/she is one of the subscribers of the hutch network and I don’t think his/her hutch dog is faithful to him/her [-x..........:P

Let me jus point out some of the features of the specialty in his/her hutch network........:D

1) You can never reach him/her when the person is at home...only when he /she are outside you can reach the person.

2) When you receive a call from that person and your line gets disconnected and you try again.....you can’t reach him/her Whoa! In hardly few seconds the network gets jammed or what??

3) When you receive a message from that person, he/she ought to have the network to send you a message right, but when you reply, you get the delivery message after a minimum of 10 hrs...

4) You try to call this person when he/she is outside ...yet again you get either a engaged tone or not reachable message.

5) You want to contact during any case of emergency ....sorry you don’t have the network.

6)He/she wants to contact you ....there he/she gets the network to contact you.....=))

7)And last but not the least the phone is never switched off ..........:-j

Some special value added features =))

1) You call this person and the call gets disconnected and voila u get a call back in a few seconds , so you really need not waste your money trying to call this person....all calls are free....:D

2) If at all you hear an engaged tone from this number ...please don’t waste your time for the next 2-3 hours because it will be engaged for 2 more hours as call waiting has been removed purposely ......:P

3) You want any sort of help from him/her ...you just have to spill it out and its done , no matter who you are....=))

How I wish, I had a magical network like this....which allows me to contact anyone only when I want to , else am not reachable...and not be disturbed by any other unwanted caller =))

Note: This is a fictional work and any characters having any resemblances to any real person is not intentional.

My most memorable trip...\:/d\:d/

2006-12-18T01:52:00.001+05:30

My trip to Delhi was my dream vacation….not because I liked Delhi so much, in fact I hardly visited any tourist spots in Delhi. Yet the people I met there have made a deep impact on me. Who did I meet, my friends, my relatives, childhood friends??? No I met my online friends :D , My friends from ORKUT. Well to be honest about it, I never thought I would make online friends let alone meet them. I have known these people just for a couple of months ….an yet the fun I had with them can’t be expressed in words. To make the long story short let me just tell you guys what I did instead of going on nd on about my friends :P

December 7^th :

I am in Delhi staying with my cousins and I have promised to meet my online sister manshi around 1 PM …and yeah! I changed the timings a lot because I had to be dropped off by my cousin at a place called ashram. I have just spoken to this girl for 6 months, have seen pictures and shared secrets,yet I was so anxious, how will she be in real, am I going to meet the same girl or will she be a total stranger??? Lot of thoughts in my head ….and I had promised her I would stay with her for four days too. so was really confused and when I met her I was like whoaaaaaaa…….she is so tiny (just my first impression ) is she elder to me?? She came forward and hugged me, then she told me the plans for the day, that I had to meet suefa , poorva the same day. I was like what???? I have my bags with me and I have come like a beggar :O :P…yet I had to go =((……so I followed her like mary’s little lamb and we reached a place called CP . there we called up poorva and met up at PIZZA HUT . I was happy to see that manshi was the same cute big sister and there I see two more sweethearts poorva and suefa and we start talking like we have been friends for years and not months and as if we have met each other daily , there was no awkwardness at all , we got along so well like a house on fire =)) we started talking talking….and poorva called up rachit so rachit came straight from his college too ….we could not sit in the pizza hut for a long time in the fear of being thrown out :P , so we moved from the pizza hut and were just roaming the streets of Delhi and talking with each other ….soon we realized we had to take pictures to make the people around us jealous =)) so we had a photo session for about one hour in the streets …..we had so much fun taking pictures and calling up total strangers to take our pictures….and surprise pooorva’s parent’s allowed her for the night stay too…\:d/\:d/ . we were so tired after all the fun and from the continuous laughing session too :P ,So suefa and rachit left : (( but me poorva and manshi went straight to manshis place . as soon as I entered her room …….me being the net addict went to the system while manshi and poorva went to get the dinner :P and then you guys cant imagine how much fun we had , it was a total girls night out and we took a lot of snaps like we were totally crazy……we talked , laughed , ate , gossiped etc etc…D we didn’t feel like we missed suefa because she was with us in the phone all the time =)) and I slept of as I was talking……..:P

December 8^th:

I have stayed with my online friends without any problems…now I became very comfortable too. Today we had no big plans, poorva had to leave now, so we got up early morning around 9 AM and left manshi’s home, after poorva left manshi took me to another market , I had started enjoying the new place a lot , I tried a lot of local food in the market and we started shopping \:d/\:d/ we spent like hours in shopping :P, I ate cotton candy too :D…. and then we got a call to meet sehran. so we left the market loaded with shopping bags and met sehran , he was also the same guy I had spoken to , none of them had an artificial personality like I had expected :P and we spoke with him for some time and had to leave for manshis place again. We had to reach early so we left and were so tired by the time we went to her place, I just went and fell on the bed immediately :P …we had reached early , but we had to go and have our dinner ….so after taking rest for sometime , we went to some mall and we had our dinner , there I met manshis best friend komal .he was friendly even though he didn’t know me at all …:D

It was freezing cold in the streets of Delhi :-ss :D and we returned after our dinner , we had our share of sisters talk in the nights , as we were busy roaming around in the morning and then what ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz…..:P

December 9^th:

Yet another day over and today we slept a lot after roaming around like crazy for two days , today our plans included shopping yeah! ….again and meeting up shalini \:d/ …so I was excited for both…:D we left home a little late in the morning and went to CP again. I was so hungry that I didn’t wait for shalini to arrive and started eating………:P ….shalini came inside and was like seno??? I was like yeah…:D and we hugged each other and started talking …manshi had to go out for a while …..and we both were just talking away to glory…=)) shalini was very cool….i loved talking with her and yeah we had to have a photo session with shalini too….:P and we took a lot of pictures again ……shlini kept clicling my pictures in various poses =)) ….and did I forget to mention all the days I was treated like a princess…..:D…then shalu invited me over to her place for chloe bature for the next day =p~=p~ and she left …: ) …..we left for shopping again …=)) and by the end of the day we had loads of shopping bags again…:p ,manshi was so sweet to help me with all the shopping and most important carrying all thoem home…:D….but this day ..we were so worn out….we just went out for dinner and when we were back both of us hit the sack immediately……..:D

December 10^th:

Yeah my last day at manshis place =((…..we had enjoyed so much in these three days , its really hard to say bye…: ( . I got up and packed my things and started getting ready….manshi woke up and helped me with my packing ….we werent going anywhere today. She just had to drop me off at ashram for shalini to pick me up. We didn’t talk much today , I guess it was too painful for both of us to talk on this day …….we just had the common talk nothing special , both of us knew parting was hard. it was just three days with her …yet it was like my life’s most memorable three days ….i still miss her =((

So we left her place and she dropped me at ashram where shalini took me to her home

In shalini’s home they had prepared the menu consulting my friends:O=)) I wasn’t there for a long time , but they really made me feel like a celebrity :D …her mom was so sweet with me and she prepared so much for me to eat =)) …next I met her little sister parul too .she is damn cute and soft spoken unlike shalini :P….we ate and then chatted for a while and again I logged in…:p to check my orkut scraps and then I got a call from my cousin , so I had to leave ….but not before stuffing me with loads of ice cream =))…..her sister kept taking pictures till the lift door was closed :o :D….and then I left to my cousins place but still spoke with everyone on the phone….:D

SPECIAL DEDICATIONS TO THE PEOPLE I MET:

Manshi : she is just the perfect elder sister anyone can ask for , she bared with me for three whole days =)) ….. and she is far more better when you meet her . I miss her a lot ……but say what I got a real sister for keeps and am happy for that ….and next time I have promised her I would land directly in her home=)) she is like the perfect example for beauty and brains :P

Suefa : Ahhhhhh!! Here comes the turn for my crazy twin ….we didn’t get to spend a long time together ….because she had to go for a wedding ….she is a lot of fun to be with. She is crazy I know that ….but not too much like me……:P. but loved every minute talking to her.

Poorva: Dark chocolate babe …:P…she is like a teddy bear, who you would love to hug and talk with……..we had great fun on our night out …..Some of the pictures came out weird…:P but yet love ya loads >:d<

Rachit: He is definitely a sweetheart .he is just a very simple and cute guy, who would never accept me as hi sister : ( …:P …so innocent and pure at heart , and made me feel very comfortable .The Perfect Gentleman…b-)

Sehran: The song composer …:P .yeah! he has compoased a song just dedicated to me and he was the one who took pains to scrap me and force me to meet him =)). it was great to meet an upcoming music director …:D…his songs rawkkk!!

Shalini : She is like a bottle of honey …:P . so sweet…she invited me to her home, took pains to prepare a menu even for me ….seriously no one has made me feel so special. Thanks a lot babes .love ya soooooooo much :D

2006-11-27T02:39:00.002+05:30

Sueeeeeeee or Suefa the sister I always wanted, Thanks to orkut I got this lovely and cute sister. We both started this blog just because we were bored and wanted to do something, we thought , we always talk a lot , so why not write down whatever we talk , we couldn’t do it in orkut as there is a word limitation for everything .....:D

Suefa is a very bubbly personality , Its sad that it took us so long to get to know each other , but after that it has been no looking back .This girl is always full of energy and can raise your spirits totally , First when I met her , I thought well this girl has a group of friends and she doesn’t opens up with everyone , we hardly exchanged a few scraps ,by then I knew a lot of people but sue always seemed to be reserved =)) , maybe she thought the same about me , because she also never spoke so well with me , then all thanks to poorva another sweetheart , she is close to both of us , and we used to have girly yahoo confys =)) and there she used to invite both of us , and as usual we never spoke to each other , hardly a few posts , hi sueeeeeeeeeeee :D >>>>>>>>:D<<<<<<<<<< :*:* just the usual greeting and a bye . some time later in the confys all the others would leave to sleep , but me and sue pure 100% nocturnal , so we stayed and were in a situation where we had to talk to each other , both of us used to talk about some silly thing and we would leave , then we got one topic of mutual interest ;) and started talking for real , within a week she was one amongst the close people to me who I would wait to see them online. In the starting our timings matched each other , so did our sense of humor :P , We both have a totally different sense of humor , only people close to us can understand our jokes and yeah! We laugh for anything and everything =))

And by the end of the second week , we were like so close to each other , all secrets shared , we had talked about everything under the sun :-O , we started out by doing weird things everyday after everyone were asleep and slowly we started realizing we have the same thoughts , same feelings basically we had a lot in common , and of all the online friends I have met , she is the one who I can closely relate to , that is she can easily find out what’s in my mind while others can just judge that something is wrong , she is the person because of whom I have started laughing and enjoying my life a lot lately , and whatever I say she is ready to do it the next minute , we love to search through google to get funny pictures for our album=)) and we chat daily , if there is some problem that she cant come online , she comes through mobile and talks to me =)) , She is definitely one of my close friends now , sounds weird isn’t it? , haven’t met this gal , don’t know how she looks or behaves in real life , yet there is something which attracts me to this gal ,and those who know her , will accept with me that she is the most cheerful girl around. She laughs without a reason, but I don’t find it weird anymore, because am also doing the same lately ….:D , Well our day starts at around 9 o clock in the night: P and ends at 5-7 in the morning =)) and till now even one day I haven’t been bored of her , We talk nonsense but with sue nonsense is fun :D , She is one of the persons , I can say anything to ,she hears all my stories poor sue=)) but sometimes she gets the romantic stories as well;) but most of the days its plain dumb:D

Sueeeeeeeeeee , you are more than a friend , more than a sister , more than anything I deserve , You are a wonderful person and I thank all my stars for knowing you and I cant wait to meet you in person , I so look forward to that day \:d/:X\:d/:X , and be with me always , i need you more than anything , I just love you too much to express it , You are really my other half, crazy twin even though you are the craziest of us ,that’s what makes you even lovable and I simple love you for everything :D . We share a wonderful bond , and i sincerely hope nothing would come in between us forver :x:x:x

I have lots more to write about you and will keep updating this blog ;-)

Keep smiling always

muaaaaaaaaaahhhhh